Ok so for the last few years, Ive devoted myself tirelessly to weightlifting, martial arts, competitive judo and a strict diet. I was in good shape but anxiety and life satisfaction have been awful. This last week or so since the new year I decided to try something new. Ive given up on planning my meals on macros, in fact I eat less now and feel better. I can enjoy a bit of alcohol after a hard day (and my god my sleep quality is divine now) I train for fun, not with the intention of being an unbreachable defense system who needs to protect themselves all the time. I dont feel to, and I also feel I can go out with friends to the pub or for a coffee and enjoy myself.
Ive not felt this well in a long time, and above all, I enjoy running again, something I havent in a long time. Im happy to lose muscle and put on a bit of weight because I feel better for it. Im not getting obese like, but I look more like a normal person now, and thinner too, which will no doubt help since ive lost upper body muscle
