Mar 27 - 2 years, part 2It has been pretty much 2 years since I admitted to myself that I am trans and told my wife. Wow what a ride! I'll split this post in two parts. This second part is about the happy moments and the goals for the next year.
Coming out did go extremely well. All my friends and family have been very accepting. Work was a total blast and out of the four I was concerned about, three sent super supportive messages within minutes. Customers have been great, I did get new ID badges all over the place and I am referred to as Sarah. HR changed my email address and ever since I am Sarah.
My Parents have been great, they still mix name and pronouns, but they get much better. My sister only complained that she always wanted a sister.
I really do consider myself very lucky.
Living my life as women and dressing appropriately has become an every day and mostly easy thing (well, not.... 20 pair of shoes and NONE fits my planned outfit... and the constant struggle about having a whole closet full of nothing to wear).
I am a lot more mentally stable. Even in high stress times, I have been very stable. I do still have dark moments, but they are much more focused in terms that I do know exactly what causes them over this general sadness.
Being out and about has been very easy and I have so far not had any kind of negative feedback or encounter. For most parts, I do not even get any looks and even my wife commented recently that she does see a questioning look sometimes which usually resolves itself by me being recognized as women. I am far away from fully passing but apparently, I can get by pretty well.
I do get a whole lot more male attention than I want. Anything from opening doors, offering seats or carrying heavy stuff for me on the positive side, to horny stares and d*** pics. Guess the last two have been really eye opening of what women have to endure every day and comparing notes confirmed my suspicion. I am still into women, so all their advances are lost in space.
I found 3 amazing girlfriends, one of which has known early on and they have been at my side helping and listen to all my new #GirlProblems. They also come to me with their worries.
In many areas I have been fully accepted into the girl's club (all the juicy stuff I have been told by the neighbors cis women was a clear affirmation... I know who had which procedure done secretly without their husbands knowing and a few more things I'll not share)
I have somewhat developed a style for myself and it seems to be working pretty well, need to complete some of it and with summer coming up there will be a bit additional cloths shopping I need to do.
So what's next for me?
For the next year of my transition I have a few goals. First and foremost, I do want my wife to get better and finally start therapy. I am trying to softly push.
I also want to get over being tired all the time. Not sure what it is, the first 6 month on hormones have been awesome and I had a lot of energy, now I am always exhausted. May need another trip to the doctor to see if there are any physical issues.
I want to work out more, need to lose my belly fat for pool season and I do want to find time for voice training.
There are a few tough subjects I must tackle with my wife. Legal name / gender change for one and surgery. Something we have been putting off discussing but I do notice I want to have girl parts pretty bad. We need to figure out where our relationship will go and what will happen around the dreaded topic of intimacy. Now that I am a girl, I have completely different needs and I do miss cuddling a lot, even a hug would be nice. I also found that around the 10 month mark of HRT, my desires came back after they had vanished around the 5 month mark.
Well, guess that is a lot and a lot to digest.
Let's see where my journey takes me.
Her his pretty much a before and after picture 2 years apart:
