Sarah's New World

[Northern Star Girl]

Apr 16 - rushing

Time for a very quick update... Thanks @Kendra and all the others for chiming in on the name suggestion.

Weekend was over in no time between starting music classes with our daughter, long overdue yard work, dinner with friends, laundry and a little bit of spring cleaning. Now I am trying to get a million things done for work before heading for a quick overnight trip to Montreal. Travel does not really slow down. I had already packed up all the warm winter cloths and had to get a few back out due to the cold up north.

On more positive news: finally decided to join gym to get in shape for pool season (thanks to @Alaskan Danielle for all the gym talk). Did some research and talked to one of my girlfriends about the place she goes to which also offers child care, so I can easier integrate it into the busy schedule. In fact, we will all join and I really hope they have some "completely out of shape" classes for me.

On the negative side: I still have not gotten my taxes done. As usual around this time of the year they are stuck around 50% completed. Waiting on some information from health insurance to see what they cover out of network and a few pieces of paperwork from my side business. So unfortunately it will be an extension this year (Sorry @Alaskan Danielle for disappointing you). On the bright side, as it looks right now I do not owe taxes. But given my work schedule I did not expect any different to be fair.

OK, got to go to the post office...

Hugs everyone!

@sarah1972 :  Thanks for posting your update.... that is good news about getting to the gym...  just watch our for those male and female admirers that will be flocking to wherever you are working out in the gym.   In my case I am still having difficulty getting rid of the gym Male Suitor#2.

Oh, yes....  disappointment and shock, LOL  .... you have not yet filed your taxes??? 
The good news is that you may not owe any taxes so when you do the extension you probably won't get hit with interest and penalties.   .... and your side business, you have been paying adequate quarterly estimated taxes, right?
As you most certainly know, you gotta get your extension turned in, either postmarked or E-filed by Tuesday.  I hate extensions... they just double paperwork and stress.

YES, pack warm clothes for your Montreal trip.... quite a change in temperature from your Vegas trip for sure.

Again, thanks for your update... and keep warm.
Hugs,
Danielle 

[sarah1972]

@sarah1972 :  Thanks for posting your update.... that is good news about getting to the gym...  just watch our for those male and female admirers that will be flocking to wherever you are working out in the gym.   In my case I am still having difficulty getting rid of the gym Male Suitor#2.


Again, thanks for your update... and keep warm.
Hugs,
Danielle

Like that poor little puppy following me around in Las Vegas? Creating incidents to bump into me to say "hello?" How can I train him to bring cookies and espresso?

I need to get so much better detecting this, in most cases one of my friends had to point out that someone was showing unusual high interest and was flirting... Poor guys. I need to find a good way of telling them nicely that they would not have a chance since so far I have only attracted male interest.

Gym to be fair is making me a bit nervous about being outed, but we will see. Certainly not ready for the ladies locker room, so I have decided to change at home or hope they have a family changing room. I do the bathroom now but for the locker room, I want to be a bit further down the winding path of transition...

[sarah1972]

At Montreal Airport to update my Nexus card since I got a new Passport last year. Both Nexus Card and Passport Show "Male"...

The officer asks: "How are you related to this person?" And later calls me back "Madam" and gave me a full set of instructions how to get my gender updated for "whenever the new papers come"....

I have tears in my eyes ruining my makeup....

[Northern Star Girl]

At Montreal Airport to update my Nexus card since I got a new Passport last year. Both Nexus Card and Passport Show "Male"...

The officer asks: "How are you related to this person?" And later calls me back "Madam" and gave me a full set of instructions how to get my gender updated for "whenever the new papers come"....

I have tears in my eyes ruining my makeup....

My dear Sarah:   Oh my, oh my..... that is terrible... but at least he called you to come back and he then gendered you correctly and even took the time to give you instructions to get it all changed.   I can imagine that they see all kinds of people and all kinds of ID and would most certainly get confused on occasion....  too bad the occasion was when you came through the line.   
Now, dry your eyes, fix your makeup, and hold your head high and be the beautiful full-time woman that you are....
Have a safe trip and return safely home.
HUGS for you,
and all the best to you,
Danielle

[sarah1972]

Hi @Alaskan Danielle -

Love your new Costco Avatar... May I guess who took the picture?

I re-read what i wrote, I should have added that I had "Happy Tears" in my eyes. I perceived it as a very positive incident. I have come far enough that a government official thinks my ID is not me, made me truly happy. And all this in 15 month HRT. I know I have a long way to go, but each one of these incidents is truly affirming that I am on a good track.

The lady was also very embarrassed but we had a really good laugh about it and I explained that Germany requires me to wait another 2 years (3 years RLE for gender change). Now I hope that Germany finally signs the suggested bill to make name and gender change a simple form.

Everything else worked fine, just wrapping up my meetings :-)

My dear Sarah:   Oh my, oh my..... that is terrible... but at least he called you to come back and he then gendered you correctly and even took the time to give you instructions to get it all changed.   I can imagine that they see all kinds of people and all kinds of ID and would most certainly get confused on occasion....  too bad the occasion was when you came through the line.   
Now, dry your eyes, fix your makeup, and hold your head high and be the beautiful full-time woman that you are....
Have a safe trip and return safely home.
HUGS for you,
and all the best to you,
Danielle

[Jayne01]

Hi @Alaskan Danielle -

Love your new Costco Avatar... May I guess who took the picture?

I re-read what i wrote, I should have added that I had "Happy Tears" in my eyes. I perceived it as a very positive incident. I have come far enough that a government official thinks my ID is not me, made me truly happy. And all this in 15 month HRT. I know I have a long way to go, but each one of these incidents is truly affirming that I am on a good track.

The lady was also very embarrassed but we had a really good laugh about it and I explained that Germany requires me to wait another 2 years (3 years RLE for gender change). Now I hope that Germany finally signs the suggested bill to make name and gender change a simple form.

Everything else worked fine, just wrapping up my meetings :-)

Hi Sarah,

When I read your post, I interpreted it as happy tears and was going to congratulate you. Then I saw the other replies and thought I had misread your post. I was a little confused, so rather than say the wrong thing and risk upsetting you, I thought I would wait until you replied. Thanks for clearing that up. So now, officially, congratulations on not being recognised as the male person your documents suggested. Also, it is great that the lady understood and was willing to offer advise on how to change your documents.

Jayne

[sarah1972]

Another business trip comes to an end. Really not much more to report. The immigrations officer took his 10 seconds to compare my passport to the Chica in front of him. A bit unnecessary since I use Global Entry and I do get fingerprinted...

Once I get out of this metal tube, it will be a quick drive home.

[sarah1972]

Apr 21st - things I said I never do

1. Join a Gym
Since reading so many fun Gym adventures in a another thread, I thought it is about time. That and my scale slowly inching up in the last three month (well, pretty quickly to be fair). And the cute dresses I have which need a more toned body.
So we decided to join a gym. Not easy in this area, most are way overcrowded or insanely expensive. We somewhat settled for a medium priced place, went to get a tour and sign up. Unfortunately not in walking distance but they have child care and a pool. Also a friend of ours and their kid are there too.

I had filled out a pre-registration before going and since I still have a male ID, I chose male. They instantly changed it to female and I got the full female fitness questionnaire. So I am now in their computer as female and Sarah. Pretty nice. And did not even have to say anything.
Tomorrow I'll need to go shopping for gym shoes and see if my workout cloths still fit.
Last step will be to get over my expert level procrastination. Plan is Monday morning between dropping kid of at Daycare and starting work. That will be something new, usually during that time I relaxed on the couch and had a coffee...

25 lbs to go...

And this brings me to #2

2. Women Locker Room
Something I was not planning on even looking at until I have my ID changed or my surgery. But the guy giving us the tour pretty much told us: "And there is the women's locker room. Take a look and I'll see you on the other side". Well, what can I do? Lucky I had was carrying my kid and could hide behind her. Unfortunately I did not see too much, our baby girl was going crazy, so I don't know if they have individual stalls for showering, guess I have to go again...
Not sure how I deal with it when I go for exercise - they do have a steam room and a sauna in the locker room which is really tempting.

3. Things from the past
I had phase where I thought heels are a turnoff - I wanted "grounded people". Well, I am looking at anything from 1 inch to 7 inch right now. And I can walk in all of them.
Dye my hair... Yeah, it looks sooo much better, and I like the red shimmer I had today.

And much more I gave up since becoming female 

[Northern Star Girl]

Apr 21st - things I said I never do

1. Join a Gym
Since reading so many fun Gym adventures in a another thread, I thought it is about time. That and my scale slowly inching up in the last three month (well, pretty quickly to be fair). And the cute dresses I have which need a more toned body.
So we decided to join a gym. Not easy in this area, most are way overcrowded or insanely expensive. We somewhat settled for a medium priced place, went to get a tour and sign up. Unfortunately not in walking distance but they have child care and a pool. Also a friend of ours and their kid are there too.

I had filled out a pre-registration before going and since I still have a male ID, I chose male. They instantly changed it to female and I got the full female fitness questionnaire. So I am now in their computer as female and Sarah. Pretty nice. And did not even have to say anything.
Tomorrow I'll need to go shopping for gym shoes and see if my workout cloths still fit.
Last step will be to get over my expert level procrastination. Plan is Monday morning between dropping kid of at Daycare and starting work. That will be something new, usually during that time I relaxed on the couch and had a coffee...

25 lbs to go...

And this brings me to #2

2. Women Locker Room
Something I was not planning on even looking at until I have my ID changed or my surgery. But the guy giving us the tour pretty much told us: "And there is the women's locker room. Take a look and I'll see you on the other side". Well, what can I do? Lucky I had was carrying my kid and could hide behind her. Unfortunately I did not see too much, our baby girl was going crazy, so I don't know if they have individual stalls for showering, guess I have to go again...
Not sure how I deal with it when I go for exercise - they do have a steam room and a sauna in the locker room which is really tempting.

3. Things from the past
I had phase where I thought heels are a turnoff - I wanted "grounded people". Well, I am looking at anything from 1 inch to 7 inch right now. And I can walk in all of them.
Dye my hair... Yeah, it looks sooo much better, and I like the red shimmer I had today.

And much more I gave up since becoming female 

Dear Sarah:  Well, Hmmm, I think that maybe my postings about my gym experiences perhaps along with some other member's posts might have influenced you to try out the gym... hopefully you go with some other women, makes it a lot more fun and enjoyable... and the old adage.... "safety in numbers" comes to mind, particularly  when my creepy Suitor #2 was basically stalking me at the gym, my gym women friends come to my rescue and will run him off when he comes near my workout area. 

Oh yes, the women's locker room scenario is quite a formidable gauntlet for most trans-women to be sure.... take my word for it but I took a leap of faith that I passed well enough as a female that the gauntlet of the formidable women's locker room now is just a distant memory for me.
If they have private or semi-private changing stalls and/or showers that might relieve some of your anxiety but if not, you could always just change out of some of your more sweaty clothing and then go back to your home to shower and cleanup until you feel more comfortable about all of this.
 
Regarding heels, for me at work or going out nicely dressed, I mostly wear 2" to 4" heels, anything higher tends to draw too much attention to me for my liking.... plus I am more comfortable wearing those heel heights all day instead of the higher heel shoes.  I am only 5'4" so I can easily wear higher heels to make me look taller.
***NOTE: By the way, heel height is not measured from the back of the heel but rather from the front of the heel to the soul of the shoe.  Many girls that think that they have 4 or 5" heels in reality only have 3 to 4" heels depending on the design of the shoe.

Thank you for posting and sharing your latest update... I am glad you made it home from your last business trip to Montreal... hopefully you packed enough warm clothes to wear while there.
I will be eagerly looking for your next posting on this thread of yours.
Hugs,
Danielle

[Jayne01]

Hi Sarah,
It's good how the gym correctly registered you as female and as Sarah, even though your ID says something different.

Heels! I like them, but I'm not sure I could ever pull it off. I would probably twist an ankle. Maybe small heels someday.

Looking forward to dying my hair sometime to hide the grey. I used to make fun of my wife for constantly dying her hair and now I want to do it too.

These are problems I never imagined ever having to worry about. [emoji846]

Jayne

[sarah1972]

Thank you for your replies and following along.

Gym shopping is done! New Gym shoes (the last two pairs  bought ended as street shoes) and two new workout tops! I should be ready for this adventure. Little wrinkle: It will have to be later in the day. Quarterly Operational Review conference call and a dentist appointment interfered. Let's see tomorrow, but now that I put it out here that I will go Monday and with all the encouragement received here, I have little chance.

On the bright side: Just signing up for gym made me lose almost 3 lbs! (and the healthier food of the last week).

22lbs to go...!

@Jayne01 - Ha, yes, all the problems I never had. But the fun outweighs those. I am super lucky with my hair: My wife is a trained hair stylist and was kind enough to look after my hair. I did one attempt myself and she liked what I did but professional hands are just sooo much better.
I started reading your Jayne thread.... Over 700 posts! I have some serious catching up to do.

@Alaskan Danielle - I am lucky to work home office, so changing at home is not a big deal. Unfortunately they have no lockers outside the changing rooms, so I have little choice. Passing is not a big worry anymore, given my past few weeks (with the added playground experience today where another mom called me she). At least that gives me the advantage of being able to take a better look to see how the changing room and showers are set up.
Creepy men are a bit of a concern, but we will have to see how it turns out. Maybe I just need to put a big (very fake) diamond ring on my left hand to deter possible advances 
Unfortunately all my girlfriends are at least 4 hours away, so I guess it will be me alone in the beginning. Maybe I can get the other mom from daycare who recommended the gym to join, but our schedules may not line up. So... I can always try to see if there are regulars and make new friends :-) I would prefer to have someone with me the first few times, I do not really have an idea what I am doing. We have been discussing a few personal trainer sessions to get me started.
Maybe choosing "Orange Sorbet" in "Lose Fit" was not the best choice... I really like that color tough!

I made a Montreal clothing mistake once where I though I can handle freezing temps just in a suit (long time ago), so this time I took a very warm, long winter coat and warm boots. No freezing for me! It was almost a bit too warm at times but overall a good choice.


More of this adventure tomorrow!

[Laurie]

Hi Sarah,

  Looks like I got behind on your thread (I was distracted) But I see you did your Vegas trip well and now are onto the gym and weight loss. Good for you girl. You know you will need to stay out of that diner if you hope to reach your goals? I just wanted to say thank you for the evening meet up. I was glad we were able to get together even though the powers that be tried to prevent it from happening. Next trip though I'm calling for a sleep over at Moineeka's. I'm sure Ann won't mind host all the DC area girls at their place. Wouldn't that be fun?

Hugs,
   Laurie

[sarah1972]

Hi Miss Laurie!
So great to hear from you. I read your road trip came to an end recently and you are back home. After we met, I had a feeling like there was a big magic force pulling you faster and faster across the country! Glad you two have been able to spend some quality time!

You mentioned in your road trip thread our meeting was like old fri meds meeting again after a long time - that is the best description and I truly enjoyed our evening.

Oh... the Diner has healthy options too. Tried them last week...

What a great idea to see if we can pull off a larger meeting when you are in the area next time! There are many great places in case we do not want to all invite ourself to Moni's place...

I will let you know if I make it out West.

You remember our discussion about the fear of using the ladies room? And then we went? Well, it is becoming so much easier since! Thanks for nudging me a bit.

Hi Sarah,

  Looks like I got behind on your thread (I was distracted) But I see you did your Vegas trip well and now are onto the gym and weight loss. Good for you girl. You know you will need to stay out of that diner if you hope to reach your goals? I just wanted to say thank you for the evening meet up. I was glad we were able to get together even though the powers that be tried to prevent it from happening. Next trip though I'm calling for a sleep over at Moineeka's. I'm sure Ann won't mind host all the DC area girls at their place. Wouldn't that be fun?

Hugs,
   Laurie

[Laurie]

 Hi Sarah,

  Yes, I got home last night. I have a lot of story telling to do in the thread to catch up though. I don't think as many are reading it this time probably due to my tardiness at keeping it updated. I do remember talking about the lady's sacred grounds and have to say I am still not comfortable with invading them. There is no way I'm using the men's room though. I'm glad it's become easier for you.
  Please do let us know if you do make it out west again. And I'm sure Ann wouldn't mind a sleep over. She's the one we need to convince. Meinnie doesn't matter in these decisions she'll do as she's told.

Hugs,
   Laurie

[sarah1972]

Apr 23rd - New Day

I am sure you are all on the edge of your seats dying to learn more about my Gym adventures 

As already indicated, there was a bit of a scheduling issue. One called "Quarterly Operations Review" and then a Dentist appointment to fix a crack in am on-lay (partial crown).

Full of motivation, I got up in the morning and got ready. Dropped kid at daycare and jumped on the conference call. Rushed from the call to the dentist and what was supposed to be a 20 minute quick fix ended in a 90 + minute root canal. Followed by running to the pharmacy getting antibiotics and prescription strength ibuprofen.

At noon I was seriously considering to give up on the gym plan today. BUT... Giving up on day 1 would have been such a defeat and I would have disappointed my dear readers.




So - Yeah me! I got myself to really go! And I did change my shoes in the women's locker. Not sure the bright orange was a good idea. I was the one and only person not wearing grey / black.

Given that this was my very first time ever, I just did some light cardio + some back strength machine stuff. About 15 minutes in I get an alert about an urgent conference call to be starting 15 minutes later. So I really maxed out the time and left after 25 minutes, pretty much changing back into my street shoes on the way out. Hopped on the call in the car and stopped to pick up my kid on the way.

Learned a few valuable lessons. Even a 25 minute workout requires an additional hour between driving back and forth as well as changing and showering afterwards. Also: Never forget water, get a cute gym bag and something to strap my iPhone to my upper arms. And buy a lock.

All running around like crazy but it did feel amazing having done even a 25 minute workout. Biggest thing was to go at all and not procrastinate even further. Somehow I do have a lot more energy than usual around this time. Sarah is a bit proud of herself. And maybe a bit high on painkillers.

Hugs

Sarah

[Northern Star Girl]

@Sarah,  I enjoyed reading your update...  oh yeah, if everyone else was wearing drab colors, you kind of stand out in that bright orange top but no worries, you are passable 100%.   

Oh no, I have never had a root-canal but it doesn't sound like a simple procedure.... so the pain pills are for the dental work? or for your exercise routines at your gym adventure?   or perhaps both???   

Oh yeah, a lock for the locker, a couple of water bottles, shoes and maybe a towel and a cute pink gym bag to put things in... and a phone strap....

So, anyway, I am surprised that after your painful dental visit that you felt good enough to go exercise at your gym.   Was there a trainer there ocassionally to give you some guidance? ... usually that is the case especially with newbies. 

I am glad that you are motivated to do positive things for your health and your weight loss... soon you will have to buy new, smaller size, clothes..... a nice problem to have for sure!!!!  You will not only feel better but you will feel better
about yourself.

I know that we have previously discussed this, but if you can buddy up with one or several others when you go to the gym, the time will pass more pleasantly and you can do some bonding and building friendships.

Thanks for keeping us all posted and for posting the picture of a tired Sarah in her bright orange top.
Hugs,
Danielle

[Laurie]

  Good for you Sarah in your determination to get up and go. I've never been to a gym and would have no idea what to do there if I went. I applaud you for joining and going. Good girl!

  I took a nap after a late breakfast and went to the store to pick up some stuff for salads and fruit to go into the yogurt I bought for breakfast. (some my girlfriend introduced me to then deprived me of this last visit). I might get out and do some more grocery shopping tomorrow with I am out picking up my mail from the distribution center they've been holding for a week. If I get really ambitious I may go for a walk too.

Hugs,
   Laurie

[sarah1972]

Thanks @Alaskan Danielle for reading & replying (I knew someone would sit on the edge of their chair)...

Tonight I am pretty happy about the pain killers and an ice bag. For my tooth. I'll safe the details but it is pretty uncomfortable. In college I decided to safe money and sign up for a medical trial. I did get two crowns and two fillings made out of an experimental material and they wanted to do long term follow ups on how the material is holding up. They never did and I forgot about it. Got a new dentist last year and he found that the material has cracked and pretty much destroyed the teeth below. So I saved a few dollars in college which I now have to re-pay. This is the last one to fix, then I only have one wisdom tooth to be removed.

I have to admit I was surprised myself. After all that happened today, I did not let this break my will to get this started. I really want to be fit again and I really want to get rid of that midsection fat. I have so many cute things I would love to wear but can't right now. The 10 lbs I added in the last 4 month show.  One of the other big factors is that I do want to be less tired and more productive. And I want to be healthy for my beautiful daughter.

I did feel pretty strange today. I knew if I would sit down for a longer period, I would just fall asleep. So I just kept going and going and going. I should be really exhausted, but these 25 minutes in the gym gave me a lot of energy.
I do have one free hour of a trainer to give me an introduction. But somehow the Gym really wants to sell you on personal trainers (and supplements and all kind of stupid stuff). Given my member estimate north of 2,500, they are printing money and should be offering better service. All I read is any mid prized gym in the area is about the same. Only gets better if I would be willing to pay > $150 per month. For now I was on my own. I am debating 10 hours of personal trainer just to get the right start and instructions on how to do this without hurting myself.

Hugs, Sarah

@Sarah,  I enjoyed reading your update...  oh yeah, if everyone else was wearing drab colors, you kind of stand out in that bright orange top but no worries, you are passable 100%.   

Oh no, I have never had a root-canal but it doesn't sound like a simple procedure.... so the pain pills are for the dental work? or for your exercise routines at your gym adventure?   or perhaps both???   

Oh yeah, a lock for the locker, a couple of water bottles, shoes and maybe a towel and a cute pink gym bag to put things in... and a phone strap....

So, anyway, I am surprised that after your painful dental visit that you felt good enough to go exercise at your gym.   Was there a trainer there ocassionally to give you some guidance? ... usually that is the case especially with newbies. 

I am glad that you are motivated to do positive things for your health and your weight loss... soon you will have to buy new, smaller size, clothes..... a nice problem to have for sure!!!!  You will not only feel better but you will feel better
about yourself.

I know that we have previously discussed this, but if you can buddy up with one or several others when you go to the gym, the time will pass more pleasantly and you can do some bonding and building friendships.

Thanks for keeping us all posted and for posting the picture of a tired Sarah in her bright orange top.
Hugs,
Danielle

[Jayne01]

Hi Sarah,

I'm really glad you didn't bail out on your first  gym session. It's easy to find excuses not to do something, I'm speaking from experience of my own previous failed gym membership. Keep up with your positive attitude and before you know it you will be wearing all those cute outfits.

Sucks about the root canal! I've never had the pleasure. I hate dentist visits.

Thank you for not keeping us on the edge of our seats for too long. Keep your updates coming.

Jayne

[sarah1972]

Apr. 27 - Gym Update

Just back from the Gym. Time for a quick update. OMG - Zumba is sooo going to out me.

I have been really in a bad mental state this week for so many reasons, so I am especially proud that I made it to the Gym 4 times this week! Gym and the regular updates in the "Hunted Prey" Thread keeps me going this week.

First three times was getting used to it with slow increases in workout. Between 30 and 60 minutes split between cardio and a few machines I picked for core and lower back strength (and to get rid of the fat deposits there). Today I then decided to go a bit crazy and went for a 60 minute Zumba Class.

OMG, this was awkward. First of all: I thought I signed up for Zumba not a Twerking Class. It was also not a beginners class and I stepped into a group which already had the full routine down.
I pulled up my big girl panties and opened the door realizing that "Step Aerobic on the Wii" and "Slow Dance in middle school" are really not a good base for a fast pace Zumba class. I also have to admit that while I do look pretty girly, my moves are still giving me away, especially in a Zumba class. I just cannot shake / move my hips well enough. It was also too fast paced for me and by the time I had mastered a move, i was two moves behind the group. And of course there is always a fear that I cannot tuck flat enough.

Anyways... I did NOT give up and made it through the class trying to keep up as much as I can. Yeah Me!

I also decided to use this more for a character study to add to the interesting people I keep seeing in the Gym. Here are some highlights

• The one guy who sits on the two machines next to the entrance to the women's locker room for hours every day. Only small movements and eyes partially closed but you know he is looking.
• All the guys who seem to live in the gym (big muscles and a six pack) - so not my type but they think they are the best and look down on all the newbies like me
• The regulars - OMG some are really so nicely toned with cute curves in all the right places. Others look just great and all the hard work they put into this has paid off. (now talking about girls)

Zumba adds even more to the dynamic, especially since it was an all female group.

• Two had a smaller cup size than I do (yeah, I have to admit I did compare)
• The last row in the gym had the flashy neon colored workout tops (including me)
• I was not the only one not able to keep up - made me feel less bad about myself.
• One group of ladies may have mistaken the Zumba class as night out dancing and things did get quite steamy at times in that group (well, one girl particular)
• The poor lady which seemed to be trying to get in shape for an upcoming wedding. She also squeezed herself into a wait cincher.

One of the other girls waved "bye - see you next time" - at least this was nice.

I hope I can keep up with this. I may not be able to continue 4 times a week, but i do not want to fall below 3 either.

Now I'll go back fighting hormonal emotions of a 14 year old and try to catch up with work. Have to prepare for overnight maintenance at a customer :-(