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Started by AutumnGurl81, January 31, 2018, 04:32:03 PM

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AutumnGurl81

Soooo...Tomorrow is officially my one month mark for HRT :) Yay! Anyways, I just wanted to share a little of my experience thus far.

I've come out to close family memebers, my wife has decided she wants to separate, but there's no craziness between us, mainly because we have two children together and really want to co-parent to give them the best possible experience living with divorced parents. My wife has known for months now, she just recently made the decision to separate, I absolutely don't,  but i have to support her decision, even though it really sucks. Havent told the kids yet, waiting until summer. It's been an emotional month to say the least.

On to HRT. Well, skin softness, hair slowing growth for sure, bruise really easy and skin gets cut easier (wtf, don't like that lol), feeling more in touch with emotions, smells & tastes are different, breast nipple tenderness which is mlre on my left side, physically eveything feels more strenuous and I tire easier, no BO. That's about it, I've been consistently running, eating healthy but less. At 5'11" I'm holding at 155, grrrr..would like to be 145 but i think it's all muscle weight. I'm trying not to burn on my butt and legs so it feels like a juggling act with diet and exercise. My upper back is stupid and i hate it (I know, I'm immature ;p ) soo at this point I'm hoping to start losing more muscle and get some fat on my legs and butt. My arms and back make me want to cry.

I'm posting a few pics for month one :)

https://imgur.com/a/vfYEO

One more add-in, I have been staying away from meat, being careful not to intake too much potassium, and i also take adderall for sleepy add (prescribed obviously, and i take it as such, or less than needed). I would think that adderall would help me lose mass, but sheesh-this stuff does not want to leave.
~°•Peace, love, compassion, and eqaulity. I believe that these qualities make us great. They can't be measured on a scale, only shared freely.•°~

-Jayden  :-*
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RobynTx

Wow, I know a lot of girls, even cis girls, would love to have that shape.  Just hang in there HRT is a slow ride.  We've all been there and know how impatient one can be in regarding our transformation into a butterfly.


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AutumnGurl81, looking great there, being so slim you may have not develop a lot of boobs.
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AutumnGurl81

Quote from: RobynTx on January 31, 2018, 04:42:00 PM
Wow, I know a lot of girls, even cis girls, would love to have that shape.  Just hang in there HRT is a slow ride.  We've all been there and know how impatient one can be in regarding our transformation into a butterfly.

Thank you. I'm trying to be patient lol, I know I need to try harder, I just feel like my upper body is all meat sometimes, It's tough, I just want to be there like many who have come before me :)

Quote from: mm on January 31, 2018, 04:55:33 PM
AutumnGurl81, looking great there, being so slim you may have not develop a lot of boobs.

Thank you lol, boobs are honestly my last worry, even cis girls have small boobs. Worst case, years down the road i might get augemntation if i can't* fill a B ;p
~°•Peace, love, compassion, and eqaulity. I believe that these qualities make us great. They can't be measured on a scale, only shared freely.•°~

-Jayden  :-*
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AutumnGurl81

So i just thought I'd chime in on here and talk about what just happened to me. So, I picked my dog up and was giving her a good rub before I went to set her down, but as I did I rubbed her against my left nipple (the sensitive one) and it felt like someone shoved an ice in my stage 1...ouch...note to self, sensitive nips are no joke, now I'm kinda of scared of what will happen when they grow more and stick out. Yikes.
~°•Peace, love, compassion, and eqaulity. I believe that these qualities make us great. They can't be measured on a scale, only shared freely.•°~

-Jayden  :-*
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RobynTx

Just wait till you hit one on a door or something. 


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AutumnGurl81

Quick update..
Bewbs, so I noticed today that my left side, which is the really sensitive side, is ever so slightly swollen and is also a tad darker looking than my right. The right rarely itches and hasn't been very sensitive. From what everyone here has said, and what I've read its fairly common. Have also noticed small reduction in muscle mass and very minor wieght loss. Diet has been vegetarian with a fluctuating intake of whole grain carbs, fruits, veggies, cheese, milk, pickles, Greek yogurt and sometimes veggie pizzas for fat. My body seems to be eating it all up at any volume, some days I'm defintely burning (and trying to) more calories than I'm injesting.
~°•Peace, love, compassion, and eqaulity. I believe that these qualities make us great. They can't be measured on a scale, only shared freely.•°~

-Jayden  :-*
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AutumnGurl81

Okay...so today I noticed that my face seemed different for some reason. Maybe softer, I thought...anyways, later I looked again and it seems like the bottom half of my face (below the cheek bones) is thinning. So i thought, I'm probably imagining this. I took a picture and compared to right before starting hrt, and sure enough the bottom half has thinned out! My cheekbones stick out further than my jawline. However, my skin is starting to look loose! Almost like my face is an awkward beggining stage of change, did this happen to anyone else during their transition on hrt?--I mean loose skin, and did it tighten back up later?
~°•Peace, love, compassion, and eqaulity. I believe that these qualities make us great. They can't be measured on a scale, only shared freely.•°~

-Jayden  :-*
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Cassi

Good fer you!  Mak'n all us snails jealous :)
HRT since 1/04/2018
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AutumnGurl81

Quote from: Cassi on February 13, 2018, 08:50:14 PM
Good fer you!  Mak'n all us snails jealous :)

Well change is definitely good, but I'm worried about about my skin. I have some spots around my triceps to, but I figure over time it won't be a big deal..my face though, I'm just hoping that my cheeks eventually fill out and pull that loose skin a bit tighter..
~°•Peace, love, compassion, and eqaulity. I believe that these qualities make us great. They can't be measured on a scale, only shared freely.•°~

-Jayden  :-*
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KayXo

I find that adding a little T post-op helped tighten my skin and it looks much better now. On just estrogen, it was 1) way too dry 2) loose. For me, the combo of enough E + T is doing wonders.
I am not a medical doctor, nor a scientist - opinions expressed by me on the subject of HRT are merely based on my own review of some of the scientific literature over the last decade or so, on anecdotal evidence from women in various discussion forums that I have come across, and my personal experience

On HRT since early 2004
Post-op since late 2005
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Charlie Nicki

Quote from: AutumnGurl81 on January 31, 2018, 04:32:03 PM
Soooo...Tomorrow is officially my one month mark for HRT :) Yay! Anyways, I just wanted to share a little of my experience thus far.

I've come out to close family memebers, my wife has decided she wants to separate, but there's no craziness between us, mainly because we have two children together and really want to co-parent to give them the best possible experience living with divorced parents. My wife has known for months now, she just recently made the decision to separate, I absolutely don't,  but i have to support her decision, even though it really sucks. Havent told the kids yet, waiting until summer. It's been an emotional month to say the least.

On to HRT. Well, skin softness, hair slowing growth for sure, bruise really easy and skin gets cut easier (wtf, don't like that lol), feeling more in touch with emotions, smells & tastes are different, breast nipple tenderness which is mlre on my left side, physically eveything feels more strenuous and I tire easier, no BO. That's about it, I've been consistently running, eating healthy but less. At 5'11" I'm holding at 155, grrrr..would like to be 145 but i think it's all muscle weight. I'm trying not to burn on my butt and legs so it feels like a juggling act with diet and exercise. My upper back is stupid and i hate it (I know, I'm immature ;p ) soo at this point I'm hoping to start losing more muscle and get some fat on my legs and butt. My arms and back make me want to cry.

I'm posting a few pics for month one :)

https://imgur.com/a/vfYEO

One more add-in, I have been staying away from meat, being careful not to intake too much potassium, and i also take adderall for sleepy add (prescribed obviously, and i take it as such, or less than needed). I would think that adderall would help me lose mass, but sheesh-this stuff does not want to leave.

You have a great figure! You'll get even more beautiful on HRT.
Latina :) I speak Spanish, English and a bit of Portuguese.
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Jessica

Quote from: RobynTx on February 06, 2018, 06:00:09 AM
Just wait till you hit one on a door or something.

And you will! 

"If you go out looking for friends, you are going to find they are very scarce.  If you go out to be a friend, you'll find them everywhere."


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AutumnGurl81

~°•Peace, love, compassion, and eqaulity. I believe that these qualities make us great. They can't be measured on a scale, only shared freely.•°~

-Jayden  :-*
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RoryL

Regarding the nipple tenderness, just wait until you absent-mindedly sling a bag over your shoulder and the front strap lands on one. That was my first, "OMG, it's working!" moment. Pain never felt so good.
"I will not have my life narrowed down. I will not bow down to somebody else's whim or to someone else's ignorance" - bell hooks

"The best mind-altering drug is the truth." - Lily Tomlin


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Cassi

Quote from: Amy Marie on February 14, 2018, 03:46:15 PM
Regarding the nipple tenderness, just wait until you absent-mindedly sling a bag over your shoulder and the front strap lands on one. That was my first, "OMG, it's working!" moment. Pain never felt so good.

I blame my nips hurting on Roll aka Ellie!  My were fine until she said her's started hurting and then to keep up with the Joneses my started hurting and continue to do so................................
HRT since 1/04/2018
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AutumnGurl81

I woke up this morning not feeling so hot, thinking "what am I doing?" as I made breakfast for my two girls. Sometimes I think it's too late for me, or it just won't work out-all scary thoughts and common doubts i suppose. Anyways when i dropped the girls off I saw a few other moms walking about the campus and immediately realized I was crazy for questioning myself, as I admired their figure and grace. Some days suck, going to bed really late probably didn't help either. When I got home I read an article on gender dysphoria, as i have many times before, and as I read i was thinking "Yep. Oh-yep, that's me. Check, check, check.." Then, I was kind of upset (which has happened before) at the fact that I had suppressed this and forgotten who I was for so long. I could've started 15 years ago, but because i was trying to fit in and "be a man" I couldn't even cope with myself. Obviously hindsight is crap, but, I am glad I figured it out now rather than later. Just kind of ranting my thoughts I guess, hope everyone is having a great day :)
~°•Peace, love, compassion, and eqaulity. I believe that these qualities make us great. They can't be measured on a scale, only shared freely.•°~

-Jayden  :-*
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RobynTx

We all have days like that.  I'm having one today.  I had plans to get out and do some fun stuff but then the dysphoria kicked in and the only thing I did was pay some bills in a drive thru. Tomorrow is another day and I will get out and do stuff tomorrow.  My wife won't give me an option.

I'm 42 and think all the time about how I should have done this years ago.  Then I stop to remember that if I had I wouldn't have my three wonderful kids. The important thing is you are doing it now.  It doesn't matter what happened yesterday.  It's today and tomorrow that counts.


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AutumnGurl81

Quote from: RobynTx on February 15, 2018, 12:46:22 PM
We all have days like that.  I'm having one today.  I had plans to get out and do some fun stuff but then the dysphoria kicked in and the only thing I did was pay some bills in a drive thru. Tomorrow is another day and I will get out and do stuff tomorrow.  My wife won't give me an option.

I'm 42 and think all the time about how I should have done this years ago.  Then I stop to remember that if I had I wouldn't have my three wonderful kids. The important thing is you are doing it now.  It doesn't matter what happened yesterday.  It's today and tomorrow that counts.

Thank you for the sweet response, I got teary eyed while reading it. I'm sorry you're having a rough one too, and you're absolutely right, my kids are the most amazing thing that's happened in my life. It's just plain tough, but I'm trying to stay as focused, or distracted as possible :)
~°•Peace, love, compassion, and eqaulity. I believe that these qualities make us great. They can't be measured on a scale, only shared freely.•°~

-Jayden  :-*
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RobynTx

Quote from: AutumnGurl81 on February 15, 2018, 12:56:11 PM
Thank you for the sweet response, I got teary eyed while reading it. I'm sorry you're having a rough one too, and you're absolutely right, my kids are the most amazing thing that's happened in my life. It's just plain tough, but I'm trying to stay as focused, or distracted as possible :)

The main thing I get out of these forums is the support.  Girls support girls.  Just remember Rome wasn't built in one day.


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