Re: What made you happy today? For mtF members only, please. 3.0

[ToriJo]

Scares me a bit realizing I now need to seriously think about hiding chest while still presenting male.

I know, horrible problem, right?!   

Here I was at 4 months, dressed in male mode:



I basically started realizing that I wasn't going to be able to hide forever.  And I'm quite happy with how my body is responding.  Even if I'd be okay if it responded say 10x faster. 

[Kira Nerys]

Sports bra darlins...nuff said.

[ToriJo]

Oh, there was no way I was going to hide my body finally starting to look like it should have looked to begin with.    A promise I made to myself when I started to transition was that I would not do transition-related things if they didn't bring me joy. A sports bra would not have brought me joy. 

Nobody said anything (they probably did notice, that's okay), and at about the 6 month point on hormones I came out in the last few places I hadn't before.  So definitely no need to hide now.

[Kira Nerys]

Oh, there was no way I was going to hide my body finally starting to look like it should have looked to begin with.    A promise I made to myself when I started to transition was that I would not do transition-related things if they didn't bring me joy. A sports bra would not have brought me joy. 

Nobody said anything (they probably did notice, that's okay), and at about the 6 month point on hormones I came out in the last few places I hadn't before.  So definitely no need to hide now.

Once again..it's the little things right? I'll never forget the first time I was called "miss". I was pre full time transition and wasn't even dressed female. I flippin loved it. I was still drivin trucks and it was a fuel clerk who called me miss..I about passed out...LOL. I thought to myself..->-bleeped-<- man, if I pass as a girl with a man's t-shirt and jeans on, I'm doin pretty good.

[SiobhánF]

Finally got to see my endo today. It was a positive experience. The staff weren't rude and the doc was super supportive in calling me by my name. Unfortunately, she was unable to begin my hormone treatment yet, but I went ahead and faxed my letter from my counselor and she ordered my lab, which I went immediately and did. Ugh. I have to wait another two weeks to get results and finally get my hormones. Happy sad day. Mostly happy.

[MollyPants]

I talked to my partner a bit more and about what I'd like to have done surgery and hormone wise and she was actually very understanding and not that worried by what I said I would like to do.

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[islandgirl]

Finally got to see my endo today. It was a positive experience. The staff weren't rude and the doc was super supportive in calling me by my name. Unfortunately, she was unable to begin my hormone treatment yet, but I went ahead and faxed my letter from my counselor and she ordered my lab, which I went immediately and did. Ugh. I have to wait another two weeks to get results and finally get my hormones. Happy sad day. Mostly happy.

Exciting to be so much closer!

[Northern Star Girl]

Finally got to see my endo today. It was a positive experience. The staff weren't rude and the doc was super supportive in calling me by my name. Unfortunately, she was unable to begin my hormone treatment yet, but I went ahead and faxed my letter from my counselor and she ordered my lab, which I went immediately and did. Ugh. I have to wait another two weeks to get results and finally get my hormones. Happy sad day. Mostly happy.

@ SiobhanF:  Hang in there and be determined and resolute with your transition desires. 
Waiting can be the very toughest part of transitioning... and be advised, once your finally start your HRT then the waiting even becomes more difficult to deal with. 
As I always tell everyone here regarding HRT, "Patience is required, usually nothing happens very quickly with HRT"  ....  and it can be a slow and dogged process.  Body changes, especially significant body changes can take time, the amount of time that it will take for your unique body to change is really up to your body.  What you read about others transition timelines and how their body (and mind) have changed most likely will not be your exact experience, so do read about and learn from what others have experienced but please understand that you will have your own unique and specific journey....   we all want quick changes and for some than might happen, human nature usually dictates "I want it all and I want it now"  .....   but NOW you must have patience!!!!

Please keep us updated regarding your HRT and transition journey and might I suggest, unless you have already done so, is for you to start your own personal and private journal that you can write down the details of what is happening with your transition journey... writing about your successes, your disappointments, your goals and your problems can be very good therapy and will later on be a reminder of the grand journey that you have undertaken.

Best wishes and well wishes to you,
Danielle

[amberwaves]

I looked at my chest earlier changing and I caught a glimpse of real boobage, not just moob. I feel like based on what others have said I may be on the large side if the level of growth I have not even at 4 months is any indication of ending position. Scares me a bit realizing I now need to seriously think about hiding chest while still presenting male.

Welcome to the boobie club [emoji16]

[christinej78]

I woke up this morning on the right side of the grass (lawn); slept well last night.

Had a Brazilian wax yesterday; outed myself before the procedure so my favorite esthetician would know of my transition. When I checked out she surprised me and gave me the female rate, which is quite a bit less than a male procedure. Super gal in every way possible.

The testicles seem to be shrinking; is this possible this soon after starting HRT (12 days)? Maybe it's the cold weather but I don't think so. Hope they don't shrink so much they can't find them on my "Borchiday."

Best always,
Christine
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[Northern Star Girl]

I woke up this morning on the right side of the grass (lawn); slept well last night.

Had a Brazilian wax yesterday; outed myself before the procedure so my favorite esthetician would know of my transition. When I checked out she surprised me and gave me the female rate, which is quite a bit less than a male procedure. Super gal in every way possible.

Best always,
Christine

@ Christine....   waxing, a Brazilian especially.... OUCHY !!!
Any one that works for a living doing beauty salon work and hair removal usually are never fooled... they know well before you "out" yourself.
That was good news about getting the "female" rate.....   hey, what happened to equality and equal rights???  why do men get charged more anyway?
Danielle

[Roll]

Last weekend I had a random fortune cookie, and the fortune was "Nothing shall stand in your way the coming week." THE COOKIE WAS RIGHT.

I just worked up the courage and got my ears pierced.  Small titanium studs right now, so nothing too fancy, but ..........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! When I got back to car I just started crying in pure joy, had to pull myself together to be able to drive home!

Also while there, I was talking to the piercing tech lady and wound up coming out to her. Turned out someone close to her is going through it all as well. So I told her about susans and gave her my name here in case that person wants to reach out.

[christinej78]

@ Christine....   waxing, a Brazilian especially.... OUCHY !!!

That was good news about getting the "female" rate.....   hey, what happened to equality and equal rights???  why do men get charged more anyway?
Danielle

Danielle,

The gal I go to is so good there is hardly any ouch to it. Each waxing is less ouchy than the previous, unless you go too long between procedures. I have been to several estheticians, none even come close to this Lady.

Maybe they have more junk to contend with; oh, I still have mine... for a little while. I'll find out Monday 09 Apr. Hope it's soon. I want the female hormones working full strength without having to fight the evil twins.

Question; did you folks way up there at the North Pole conspire to dump a bunch of freezing cold air down Tejas way, Fort Worth to be precise? If you did, please come down and take it back north; we don't do well in the cold.

Best always,
Christine

[amberwaves]

Last weekend I had a random fortune cookie, and the fortune was "Nothing shall stand in your way the coming week." THE COOKIE WAS RIGHT.

I just worked up the courage and got my ears pierced.  Small titanium studs right now, so nothing too fancy, but ..........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! When I got back to car I just started crying in pure joy, had to pull myself together to be able to drive home!

Also while there, I was talking to the piercing tech lady and wound up coming out to her. Turned out someone close to her is going through it all as well. So I told her about susans and gave her my name here in case that person wants to reach out.

Omgomgomg so insanely happy and excited for you!  Fwiw I didn't cry but I had a ship eating grin on my face the whole day back when I got mine pierced.

[Sarah_P]

Last weekend I had a random fortune cookie, and the fortune was "Nothing shall stand in your way the coming week." THE COOKIE WAS RIGHT.

I just worked up the courage and got my ears pierced.  Small titanium studs right now, so nothing too fancy, but ..........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! When I got back to car I just started crying in pure joy, had to pull myself together to be able to drive home!

Also while there, I was talking to the piercing tech lady and wound up coming out to her. Turned out someone close to her is going through it all as well. So I told her about susans and gave her my name here in case that person wants to reach out.

Yay Ellie!!! You finally have some more holes in your head! 

I was pretty happy to finally have mine pierced. Even happier when I could eventually change them out whenever I needed! And that's awesome about your piercer! Always great to spread the word of Susan's Place and help out those wanting to transition!

[Laurie]

Wow Ellis, that's awesome.  Getting brave in your old age? I am  glad you were able to feel good enough to spread the word that we are not alone with our struggles.  Doing what you did could be just the thing that other person needs.

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[Cassi]

Last weekend I had a random fortune cookie, and the fortune was "Nothing shall stand in your way the coming week." THE COOKIE WAS RIGHT.

I just worked up the courage and got my ears pierced.  Small titanium studs right now, so nothing too fancy, but ..........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! When I got back to car I just started crying in pure joy, had to pull myself together to be able to drive home!

Also while there, I was talking to the piercing tech lady and wound up coming out to her. Turned out someone close to her is going through it all as well. So I told her about susans and gave her my name here in case that person wants to reach out.

Good for you!!!!!  A big step. 

[Roll]

Wow Ellis, that's awesome.  Getting brave in your old age? I am  glad you were able to feel good enough to spread the word that we are not alone with our struggles.  Doing what you did could be just the thing that other person needs.

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Honestly, I've had a few experiences over the past week or so that has made me begin to fully appreciate the power of visibility. My being open in a few circumstances has helped others open up in turn, even if that wasn't my original intention. I've also decided there are a few current circumstances I've been debating how to approach that simple honesty is the way to go, even if it is terrifying. I doubt I'll become an activist anytime soon, but I definitely want to be in a position to reach out to people on a personal level as I move forward.

[Laurie]

Honestly, I've had a few experiences over the past week or so that has made me begin to fully appreciate the power of visibility. My being open in a few circumstances has helped others open up in turn, even if that wasn't my original intention. I've also decided there are a few current circumstances I've been debating how to approach that simple honesty is the way to go, even if it is terrifying. I doubt I'll become an activist anytime soon, but I definitely want to be in a position to reach out to people on a personal level as I move forward.

I love that chosen attitude Ellie.  Sorry about the misnaming.  Dang automessup feature of my phone. I'll correct it when I can use my laptop again.

Hugs,
    Laurie

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[DawnOday]

Finally got to see my endo today. It was a positive experience. The staff weren't rude and the doc was super supportive in calling me by my name. Unfortunately, she was unable to begin my hormone treatment yet, but I went ahead and faxed my letter from my counselor and she ordered my lab, which I went immediately and did. Ugh. I have to wait another two weeks to get results and finally get my hormones. Happy sad day. Mostly happy.

Glad to see the good news. It's a game changer for sure.