Weird things you did as a child unknowingly?

[PurpleWolf]

What kind of 'weird things' indicating your gender identity have you done before realizing you are trans? In childhood? Later in life? And especially things you did before fully acknowledging you are trans?

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I have one funny example:
When I was around 12-13 I would take two shampoo bottles in the shower and cover my breasts with them so that my chest looked flat and like a boy chest. I thought I looked like one guy from a band in an album cover shirtless. I did this many times - but totally unaware it indicated something. I was convinced I looked like that guy - so even shared that pic with a friend I was writing with at the time! I just said 'this is a pic of me in which i look just like ---' and didn't even consider there would be something weird about it sending her a pic like that ! (My friend took it and it only shows my upper body.)

In less than a year from that I had already socially transitioned. It was painless really. Just recently found the pic - and still admire how my chest looks in that! Wish it would've stayed that way...

[Julia1996]

Oh geeze.  I did so many weird things as a child. I've heard about them from all my male relatives. My grandpa told me I was the weirdest little boy he had ever seen. I always sat down to pee. That one always baffled my dad when I was little. He would tell me I was lucky because I could pee standing up. I had a habit of giving my male relatives kisses when I was little and according to my grandpa I was a lot more affectionate with my dad than boys usually are. If I got a boy gift for Christmas or my birthday I would put it in the trash. My dad always got them back out and Tyler ended up getting it if it was something he would play with. I had an obsession with teddy bears and still love them. I always wanted bright colored clothes and sheets. My dad actually got me  pink sheets after I made such a fuss about wanting them. I once tried to copy my mom's eyeliner with a felt tip marker and I also once used red crayon to color my nails. I also loved cherry popsicles because they stained my lips red. I used to like my dads t-shirts when I was little because they were so big for me they were like a dress.  I also hated any kind of sports and totally had no interest in learning anything about them.

That's all that comes to mind right now though Im sure my dad could tell you a lot more about my weirdness as a child. Lol

[Lady Sarah]

The only things that instantly comes to mind, is that I always like "playing house". I was doing that at the age of 3, with neighborhood girls. So, I thought nothing of it in kindergarten. At play time, I went to play house with the girls.  I got in trouble over it, and was told to go play with the boys. I went to the large wooden blocks, and started constructing a kitchen. I got in trouble for that too.

[DawnOday]

The only thing weird was I would fall asleep anytime, anywhere. Thirty some years later I found out I had a defective aortic heart valve and deformed ventricle. Symptoms of DES  poisoning.administered while in utero.

[Kylo]

Binding with tighter clothes, bandages, or even cling film once. Wearing larger clothes to hide figure. Standing to take a leak. Checking out some of my dad's clothes. Being phobic of changing rooms and getting changed in front of other people in school. Being completely adverse to the idea of being someone's "girlfriend", even at the age of 8 or 9. Sleeping in my clothes because I couldn't stand being naked. And probably a lot more I can't think of right now.

[The Flying Lemur]

Binding with tighter clothes, bandages, or even cling film once. Wearing larger clothes to hide figure.

I used to do that too . . . I'd encase my torso in duct tape trying to straighten the curves out, and wear big baggy guys' clothes.  I wanted to look like the boys did, but it never worked. 

I guess it was probably weird that whenever I played pretend games as a child, my persona would always be male.  My Halloween costumes were always either of a male character or something neutral, like a ghost. 

[Bari Jo]

I think all of mine were knowingly done.  It's funny though that the only one I was caught for was dressing up in my moms or sisters clothes.. The rest I hid well.  Some, let's say aren't appropriate to talk about in polite company.  I was a weird kid, that liked to feel and experience things:)

Bari Jo

[widdershins]

Always playing male or genderless characters in video games, pretend with other kids, etc. (Heck, I even got cast in male parts in school plays, and my school was not LGBT friendly.) Enduring spankings, being locked outside all night, etc. rather than wearing a dress to church. Headcanoning favorite characters as gay or trans, before being exposed to any kind of online fandom. Getting extremely passionate over the validity of singular they in grammar classes.

[Devlyn]

I used to do that too . . . I'd encase my torso in duct tape trying to straighten the curves out, and wear big baggy guys' clothes.  I wanted to look like the boys did, but it never worked. 

I guess it was probably weird that whenever I played pretend games as a child, my persona would always be male.  My Halloween costumes were always either of a male character or something neutral, like a ghost.

Off topic, but Ben, you had mentioned the blue being hard to see in your last avatar. No problemo seeing it now, my friend! Love the look. 

Hugs, Devlyn

[The Flying Lemur]

Aww, thanks!  I love the color but the bleaching and dyeing is turning my hair to straw.  I may need to let the blue grow out and then try it again once I have enough undamaged hair to dye. 

[PurpleWolf]

I think it looks cool too! Wanted to comment 

[WolfNightV4X1]

Plenty

*From a young age, I despised "girl" culture, I remember seeing high school musical, Hillary duff, backstreet boys and teen mags that were typical girl things to fawn over and I despised them so much I found girly girls to be inferior. I've since improved my attitude on "girly girls" knowing I don't have to be and an not one of them.

*When I was a kid, my brother would always pose to all his friends that I was a "scary" older sister and I could kick their asses. There was this kid on my street who took me up on that offer and we had a wrestling/grappling match on the trampoline in my backyard

* When I tried to play with my brother and another boy, the other boy pushed me away because I was a girl and he didn't want me to play with them. That made me so upset I cried.

* To me when I eventually earned the title "tomboy" by my confused mother seeing I never wanted to act like a girl, to me it fit because it was a way for me to be myself which meant I didn't have to be a girl like the girls, I was something else

*My mother asked me a real serious question one night before bed, about how I refused to play with dolls like bratz. I was pretty oblivious, and honestly I didn't have a real answer, I just didn't like them, they didn't appeal to me and I was completely indifferent. She didn't accept the "I just don't like them" answer so I gave a really dumb response like "they have big, weird lips" for her to accept it. Looking back, seems like a loaded question about my lack of femininity.

*When I first hit puberty and began to develop buds, I was caught completely off guard, and when I looked in the mirror I remember an overwhelming sense of misery that my life would change forever, but I had to accept it and move on. I eventually settled on accepting it with indifference, but I got used to it. My period was similar, on the one hand I hoped I would never get it but at the same time the longer I went without it I started to really worry that doctors would have to perform invasive tests on me and look down there to find out what's wrong (I must've been 13-14 when it finally happened). It was followed by immediate regret because they suck and it's not something I really wanted and I only wanted to be "normal"

*When I was a kid I hated the idea of growing up to be a "woman". Girl was okay and all, but being a woman would suck, I never wanted to think about getting older. I also never wanted to get married, the idea of it was infuriating. When I was very young I didn't want a boyfriend either, that part has changed but to this day I don't want to be impregnated and have biological children, I just didn't want to grow up and have children as a kid. Regarding dating, I never considered myself to be someone to have the submissive girl role, where guys open doors for you and buy you flowers and jewelery and pick you up bridal style. I pictured my relationship on equal terms where we both care for each other and switch being submissive, I didn't want to be fawned over like a girl and always had a protective/caring role to a partner in addition to being submissive.

*I was a loner in school, I didn't like playing with girls and boys wouldn't play with me, so instead I read books. I had a complete lack of social life. Occassionally I made a few girl friends because I couldn't have any real guy friends, so by high school when I did make Some new friends for once in my life it was the first time I had real guy friends in a mixed group of friends, and it was very fulfilling to be able to hang out with them.

*In middle school when puberty hit I distanced myself from being all lovey-dovey to my younger brother and my family. I was basically a stereotypical teenage boy who did not want to hug his own family and parents, and at school I propagated the whole sibling rivalry thing towards my younger brother. I was very standoffish and did not like affectionate contact from family. My mom described my attitude later on as Axl from the TV show "the middle"

[PurpleWolf]

Hey something else that just came to my mind:

- Again, at about 13 (but way before acknowledging I'm a boy) I asked my BF if she could be with a guy who looked and dressed just like a boy and was a boy in all aspects but had a female body...! Unfortunately her answer was no xD. (The idea was strangely appealing to me! And I was a tad offended by her answer too.)

- Before that at 12 I once tried to bring the subject up to my mom in the car. I asked her, 'what do you think of people who have changed sex?' to test the waters. Have mentioned this before but my mom replied that she had seen 'those' at work (she worked in mental health) and they were miserable beings who regretted everything. End of discussion.

Both of those examples are interesting bcos I really did ask them unknowingly, without realizing they applied to me in any way.

I did have an infatuation with anything crossdresser/trans resembling from a very young age; plus preferred boy things etc. if given the choice, disliked being thought of as a girl etc. - but all that was more conscious imo.     

[Charlene2017]

Wow this brings up so many things that I tried so hard to change just to fit in at the time...

* The biggest one was my grandma also told me I giggled like a girl.  To me I was just laughing like everyone else but I guess I came across more girly than I should have.

* I got teased for sitting like a girl or carrying my school books like a girl (this is back in the 70's/80's before backpacks...).  I remember the one time when I was around 13-14 I was invited to a car race with friends.  We were sitting in the stands watching the race when my 3 friends started to go on about why I was sitting like a girl.  Apparently sitting with your legs angled to the side is girly but I was just over 6' tall back then and the stands don't give a lot of room to sit.  Plus it was the way I always sat.

* I use to like playing house with my younger sisters and even wanted to play the female roles but was always told that I was a boy and had to be the dad or brother.

That is when I started "studying" how boys did things.  I worked really hard to copy them and be like them as the other side of that was getting my butt kicked all the time. 

[BT04]

I used to do that too . . . I'd encase my torso in duct tape trying to straighten the curves out, and wear big baggy guys' clothes.  I wanted to look like the boys did, but it never worked. 

I guess it was probably weird that whenever I played pretend games as a child, my persona would always be male.  My Halloween costumes were always either of a male character or something neutral, like a ghost.

Haha, same. I used clear packing tape and not leave it on for very long.

I also used Halloween as a golden opportunity to crossdress haha.

What else... I attempted to shave my face with a real razor when I was 5 or 6, which didn't end well. I tried peeing standing up a lot. Other than that, I was pretty adamant that I was a girl most of the time for some reason.

OH. Favorite video game character happened to be Sheik, Zelda's male form. There was also a digimon character who starts off in a small, pink, very girly "child" form, but can evolve into an enormous, hypermasculine form complete with beefy arms, pecs, and abs. I was very intrigued by that one too.

[Corax]

Since this says what I did as a child I am really only going to focus on the bit I remember from early childhood and not include the teenage years.

The most notable for other people should have been that I always spoke about myself in masculine terms. My native language is incredibly gendered; we gender everything so that was something that definitely stuck out. I couldn't stand someone referring to me in feminine terms and I opposed using them for myself because it felt cringeworthy.
Normally people didn't correct me anymore and just let me do that and just didn't think much of it and treated it as a quirk of mine but when my uncle came to visit when I was like four or something, he asked that really stereotypical questions that relatives always ask kids:" What do you want to be when you grow up?"
And I said:"I want to be [masculine form of the title]." And he replied:"You can't be [masculine title] you can only be [feminine title]."
It pissed me off, this was just wrong and felt like an insult to me and since I have always been assertive I got back to him:"No! I will be [masculine title]! You should shut it because you have no clue and no say in the matter at all!" Everyone laughed about my uncle then because he had gotten reprimanded by an overly dominant sounding four year old toddler.

I also 'borrowed' boys clothing from my 'brother' as a child and when I got the opportunity to choose clothing in a store I chose boys clothing and those were my favourite clothes then.

I thought that I would definitely grow a dick when I grew up and that the genitalia that was on that body and that I found creepy was only a really bad temporary mistake. I was in kindergarten at that time.

I couldn't understand girls, I wasn't really able to play with them as I didn't understand their way of playing and whenever my mum invited some other mother and her daughter it usually ended badly because I did something the girl didn't like or found offensive and started to cry or complain and I hated when they did this and didn't get that as well.
The friends I made were all male.

I played with typical male toys and while role playing or playing video games on the NES I always chose male characters and never wanted a female one.

The mere idea of becoming a woman disturbed me. I never wanted to turn into that. Well, I obviously didn't but that bad excuse of for a body did.

[TonyaW]

Wore my sisters' clothes. 

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[Dee Marshall]

I used to tuck my penis back between my thighs to "see what I would look like as a girl." I had no idea that I was trans and remember very little of my childhood. I avoided the thought that I might be a girl so adamantly that I suspect I was bullied out of those thoughts by either my father or my older brother. I do remember my brother trying to smother me with a pillow once.


Oh, dear! This is bringing back memories better left buried.

The spy who came in from the cold in the War Between the Sexes.

[Ryuichi13]

Honestly, I don't think the things I did as a kid were "weird" per se, but simply my way of being. 

*I remember being 8 or so and being mad at my Mom for "making me a girl instead of a boy." 

*My Mom had a fight on her hands every time she tried to put a dress on me, up until she found a black dress with a colorful paisley design on it for kindergarden.  I remember loving the fact that it was black, a color that I wasn't allowed to wear because it was "a boys color."

*We used to play a version of Tag we called "Cat and Mouse."  The cats were often girls on bikes and the mice boys on steel-wheeled roller skates (it was the 1970s).  I always wanted to be a mouse that CHASED the cats, since I had skates.

*I used to catch salamanders and toads in the creek behind my Dad's house and bugs in my Grandpa's front yard (we lived with him for a while when my folks divorced) and keep them as pets.

*When I was 11, I was given a barbie doll.  I promptly gave her a mohawk, then melted her head onto the sidewalk with a magnefying glass.  I also wanted the barbie camper that was out at the time, just so I could play with it like the boys did with their trucks.

*I hated dolls, but would instead play with plushies.  I'd pretend to be a zookeeper, or a circus tamer and make them fight each other instead of do tricks.

*When it rained, I used to go outside, pick up worms from the sidewalk and wear them as living rings.  I also used to chase one of my sisters while wearing my "rings."

*I used to insist on wearing boys high top converses when we went shoe shopping.  My Mom compromised by letting me wear low top converses.  Those lasted seemingly forever.  A few times she made the mistake of buying me canvas shoes, which usually didn't last a month due to my rough-and-tumble way of playing.  She stopped buying canvas tennis shoes after the first few times I killed them

*As a teen, I was the best athelete on the block.  By then my Mom had bought a house, and we lived on a street with more kids.  I was the fastest runner, kicked the ball the farthest for kickball, and hit the most home runs for baseball.  I also was the fastest bike rider and the best at climbing trees, even ones with lower branches that were pretty high up.  As an older teen, I'd climb trees and sit up there to read books on nice days.

*I was always "the tomboy" according to my family, so when I came out as transgender last year, part of my explanation was, "you know how I was always "the tomboy?"  Well, you all were partly right, at least about the "boy" part."

I'm sure there's more, but that's what came to me off the top of my head.

Ryuichi

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[PurpleWolf]

Ryuichi, I envy your childhood  !

Hey I used to catch frogs as well!!! I loved frogs! And bugs. I always had pet bugs as a child.