Ah! So much to update! I usually visit Susan's a couple times a day but I don't think I've been on here since Friday night or saturday morning! I'll break things down I guess...
Apartment: I finally got to go see my apartment in person! I met my friend there Friday night. The woman who was living there with her boyfriend and dogs finally got all of her stuff out on thursday, so when I went with the landlord it was his first time seeing the apartment since she left, and unfortunately it was trashed pretty bad. All of her stuff was out but the place was disgusting, she must have been the biggest slob! The dogs totally ruined the carpet, the apartment smelled like poo and there were so many stains on the rug. One of the windows was even left open, I went to pull up the blinds and when I pulled the string they came off their clips and fell right on the floor! The walls had stains all over them, there's a shelf with glass doors on them and one of them was broken, and the bedroom door had come off the bottom hinge. Ok so I know this sounds bad, but I took some measurements and I think the size of the place is pretty much perfect for me. I do wish there was a little more room, but I think it's going to be ok, it's actually bigger than it looks in the pictures I saw. My friend told me that he was going to get the place professionally cleaned, and then the next day he told me he was replacing the carpet and getting the walls repainted. He left before I did, so he didn't see the blinds fall and he didn't notice the bedroom door issue, but he said he would fix them and he said the locksmith was coming soon, so things are shaping up! I'm hoping that I can start moving stuff in by Friday because I'm taking Friday off work for an appointment. Also, Sunday morning I bought a couch!! It should fit perfectly against this one wall, I just hope we don't run into any issues moving it in, but it's nice and it's comfy and I got it on sale for $260! There are a couple things I don't like about the apartment though... It's actually in a different neighborhood than I thought. It's funny, a couple blocks up the road it becomes a lot nicer, but the spot I'm in isn't too bad. The other thing I don't like is that there's only one entrance, I really wish there was a back door, if I'm cooking out I have to go out to the front and walk all the way around to the back of the house to grill. I'm going to be parking my car out back, I wish I could just have a more direct way to the back of the house so I'm not seen as much by the neighbors. oh well.
Saturday night:
so my last post voiced my concerns about my friend's birthday dinner. I had an event that night that I helped organize, so I was really torn between the two, but I worked everything out. The people I organized the event with said they were fine with me leaving early, so I got there at 2 to help set up and then I left at 8 to go get ready to meet my friends. They had dinner at 7, so I knew I would miss the meal, but the plan was to meet them at my friends' house after. Well they ended up going to the bar part of the restaurant after their meal, so I ended up meeting them there, I unexpectedly went in public again as Maddie
I just talked to my friends while I was there, and other than that I kept to myself, I didn't really talk to anyone who worked at the restaurant aside from the bartender that my friends all knew pretty well. When I got there a couple of my friends were outside smoking, so it was a relief that I could walk in with them. The birthday girl's brother was there and I never met him before, when we were introduced he did kinda have a judgemental smile but he didn't really say anything. Everyone else that I was meeting though was a friend of mine, and they all knew about my transition but a few of them had never seen me dressed in person before, this was their first time and it went well... at first. at one point I was talking to the birthday girl and her boyfriend comes up and dead named me pretty loud, and my friend's brother definitely heard him. I just froze, and so did the birthday girl. She just stared at her bf for a minute and then she just said "Maddie..." and then he was all apologetic and said "i'm sorry dude, I didn't realize that was a thing...", and then I saw him go over and say something to the other 2 guys that were with us. ugh. The birthday girl's brother left though and he called me Maddie and said it was nice to meet me, so that was nice of him. Then we ended up going back to my friends' house. It was pretty fun aside from the fact that I did get dead named a few more times by the guys and I was still referred to as "he" a lot. It's kinda funny, out of the 3 guys there I was pretty close to 2 of them, and the guy that I wasn't as close with is the one who was best with the whole name thing, he just avoided naming me at all lol, I could tell that he was doing it and I'm actually glad that he made an effort not to dead name me. I'm going to have to have a talk with the other guys though. I have a couple funny stories from the party but this post is already long enough lol, maybe some other time.
Lady Fest: So the event that I was part of organizing was a 2 day "lady fest". The festival was started 18 years ago in Washington but anyone can book one in their town at any time, so some friends and I set one up. It was great, we had a diverse lineup of female/trans fronted punk, folk, hip hop, rock, and poetry, and upstairs we had some organizations tabling and giving out info and there were also some people up there doing craft workshops, it was really cool! A few of the acts actually gave me goosebumps, they were that good! It was such a nice friendly environment, lots of positivity and good vibes!
So that's it for now, I think. I'll update again this weekend, Friday I'm going to the doctor and I'll have my new hormone levels and then Saturday I'm going to visit my friend in Rochester and we're gunna go shopping!! I'm so excited, I realllllly need new clothes! I'll update again on here Sunday. Here's a couple pics from this weekend, I dressed casual and went easy on the makeup. Sorry the lighting was bad! This is Waylon, he loves to give kisses and if he likes you then he tends to sit on you! he likes me!
