What are you thinking 11.0

[4A-GZE]

Nearly got into an accident yesterday. The car in front of me was distracted and plowed into the one in front of him, and I came within inches of becoming a part of the whole thing. It was nuts. If I was in my old car, I would have absolutely hit him.

The part that I hate most, though, is that my dashcam failed to save the video.

[Allison S]

Nearly got into an accident yesterday. The car in front of me was distracted and plowed into the one in front of him, and I came within inches of becoming a part of the whole thing. It was nuts. If I was in my old car, I would have absolutely hit him.

The part that I hate most, though, is that my dashcam failed to save the video.

Wow well I'm glad you didn't get into a car accident.

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[Dee Marshall]

Today is 9/17. My HRT anniversary is 9/7 and this past one was 4 years. Being female is so automatic now that the day passed without note and I actually just realized today that I missed it. I'll pay more attention to the next one 'cause that's when mammograms become recommended. Also, some time this past summer I stopped spending so much time here. I'm not so sure why. It's not as if I'm so darn busy.

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[Allison S]

I saw a man sitting in a very weird position on a subway car. His legs were wide open and arms placed on top of them. I noticed he was staring directly at the woman across from him. Never flinching or looking away. She didn't seem to mind at all. They both got off at the same stop, but just stood there and he approached her. I think they exchanged numbers.
It was just really interesting to witness- "mating at it's best". The guy wasn't the most attractive, but not bad looking either. His masculinity seemed so performed, or maybe that's my perception.

I should probably start a topic about how to carry on day to day with a new role as a "woman". I never had anything close to that happen to me personally, but I want to be prepared just in case..

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[Sephirah]

That saying anything about myself is a ferociously horrible thing to do and it just pushes people away. I need to be who everyone expects me to be. I kinda always knew that but every time I take that step out... I get pushed back in. I dunno. Sometimes it hurts. Sometimes if people think I'm less than this superhuman force for good, some angel on everyone's shoulder, they don't want anything more to do with me. And... yeah. It hurts to be human sometimes. It hurts to make everyone else smile when you feel like crying.

Sorry, don't mind me. Just one of those days.

[Laurie]

That saying anything about myself is a ferociously horrible thing to do and it just pushes people away. I need to be who everyone expects me to be. I kinda always knew that but every time I take that step out... I get pushed back in. I dunno. Sometimes it hurts. Sometimes if people think I'm less than this superhuman force for good, some angel on everyone's shoulder, they don't want anything more to do with me. And... yeah. It hurts to be human sometimes. It hurts to make everyone else smile when you feel like crying.

Sorry, don't mind me. Just one of those days.

My Dear Sephirah,

  You do such a good job supporting others here. Your words of encouragement help all those reading them. I have been helped by you at times when I felt my lowest and thought all hope was gone. Thank you, Hun. Life can be hard for all of us and some it has been particularly cruel too. It is at these times that we need someone to reach out to us and lend a hand to help lift us back up onto or feet and give us hope to carry on. You, my Dear, do this particularly well. Again I thank you for not only the help you have given to me personally, but for everyone on this site that you have helped.
  It appears that this is a time tat you need someone to reach out to you. I am doing that Sephirah. I am available to you if only to listen if that is what you need. I have skype if that meets your need also. Voice, Video, PM, or messenger, I am here for you Hon. Contact me if you feel the need.

  I believe in you Sephirah.

Hugs & love,
  Laurie

@Sephirah

[Allison S]

I have this resentment that people act differently with me because I'm trans. I don't know for sure what the underlying issue is, but I just feel on edge and alert all the time. Mostly when I'm in public... I know it has to do with my safety, but even when I'm perfectly safe, I'm fearful I could be hurt. It's mostly in terms of strangers not really seeing me as a woman and then treating me as a second class citizen.

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[jaybutterfly]

Debating bringing a copy of my learning disability assessments to my second opinion as a middle finger to the last doctors need to keep pushing me as 'autistic not trans.'

[RabbitSpectre]

Debating bringing a copy of my learning disability assessments to my second opinion as a middle finger to the last doctors need to keep pushing me as 'autistic not trans.'

I'm really really sorry you went through that. I can imagine quite well the anxiety and awkwardness that conversation caused. And yes, that's a good strategy, though ever so depressing it should even be NECESSARY.
Very glad you're not going back to that gollum with a FOX News issued medical license!

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I'm thinking, very deeply and meaningfully, Dang...I really love florentine lasagna <3

[V M]

Why do I bother even getting out of bed anymore?

[Devlyn]

Yeah, I didn't think so.

[Colleen_definitely]

I should NOT have eaten that third habanero popper last night 

[Devlyn]

I should NOT have eaten that third habanero popper last night 

It isn't getting them in that's the big problem! 

[EmilyRyan]

The amount of hopelessness and helplessness I been feeling for over a month now.
I can't get over being turned down the opportunity to work in the pharmacy at my work despite proving, for almost a year now, that I am well capable but all they see is that I learn at a slower pace (due to having a learning disability) and so they rather transfer someone else in than to give an opportunity. 

[Allison S]

The amount of hopelessness and helplessness I been feeling for over a month now.
I can't get over being turned down the opportunity to work in the pharmacy at my work despite proving, for almost a year now, that I am well capable but all they see is that I learn at a slower pace (due to having a learning disability) and so they rather transfer someone else in than to give an opportunity. 

Hi EmilyRyan, I responded to your thread recently. I'm sorry about being turned for the pharmacy job [emoji20]
I just want to say again that making 1 year at your job is a big deal! I know it's hard to be upbeat about that since you were turned down though.
I wonder, are you transgender or transitioning? Your posts never really mention this, which is totally okay. But I'm just wondering

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[EmilyRyan]

Hi EmilyRyan, I responded to your thread recently. I'm sorry about being turned for the pharmacy job [emoji20]
I just want to say again that making 1 year at your job is a big deal! I know it's hard to be upbeat about that since you were turned down though.
I wonder, are you transgender or transitioning? Your posts never really mention this, which is totally okay. But I'm just wondering

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Yeah I've been too consumed with everything else in my life I sometimes forget I too am Transgender (male to female) and fortunate to be on hormones for 16 months now.

[Devlyn]

Thinking that was only a matter of time.

[Colleen_definitely]

Before divisive politics took its toll?

[Devlyn]

Exactly.

[Colleen_definitely]

I feel ya.