Quote from: Teddy79 on April 12, 2018, 10:52:32 PM
I am not asking about social dysphoria, passing or general body dysphoria. I am, right now, only interested in penis dysphoria and whether it can go away. Whether there is hope.
I describe my dysphoria like this: my brain thinks I havea penis. My body does not have one. So when I get turned on, my mind wants a penis to masturbate but there is none. I describe it as craving food, sitting in front of your favorite food with a clear taste memory, but not having any taste buds. Eating won't satisfy it.
It's haunting.
I need to know whether T and meta will change my body enough so I'll have enough taste buds to eat my favorite food. I am not even talking penetration, just masturbation would be enough.
I understand what you are asking, and I can only tell you how I feel.
My body also feels like I should have a penis. I've been on T for 16 months now, so I actually DO have one, albeit a small one due to typical bottom growth. I feel like I
should be able to penetrate now, yet I currently do not have enough length to be able to do so.
However, when I masturbate, I feel more relief than I ever did pre-T. When I orgasm, it feel (at least to me) like what I imagine a penis should, minus the sperm. I think that should I ever get a meta or a phallo done, it will feel even MORE like what a cis-penis does, again, minus the sperm. Having a phallo done is something I'm definitely considering in the future.
I don't know if you're on T yet, or if you ever decide to go on it, but let me assure you, that once you get bottom growth, (at least for me), it feels closer to a cis-penis than what I had pre-T.
And for the record, I currently have no desire whatsoever to have any vaginal penetration. It no longer feels as good to me.
Ryuichi
