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Started by Marcieelizabeth, April 26, 2018, 09:08:39 PM

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Marcieelizabeth

Hi ladies! 

I wake up every morning after 5 months on HRT and I automatically find myself checking to be sure my breasts are really there!  I just cannot believe it is true!  It has been so many years waiting to be me! 

I know I cannot be the only one who is in denial, what do you do to remind yourself of your good fortune?  What change has been the most dramatic and most anticipated for you?

I hope everyone is doing well!  Love and Hugs, Marcie
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First memory of cross-dressing - age 8 - 1967
Marcie Since 6-17-17   :D
Out to wife 6-27-17  :D :D
Started HRT 10-13-17  :D :D :D
First time completely me at therapy on 10-31-17 <3
Started Finestrade on 11-1-17 <3
Estradiol and Spiro to therapeutic levels on 12-4-17
Went out totally as Marcie with friends sans beard 3-24-18
Estradiol increased second time 3-27-18
Out to both sisters 2-3-19

...it makes me smile to know its me, fearful about losing the good things in my life, anxious about every single step, doubting my resolve, determined to stop living a lie,  VERY hopeful for the future as myself, Marcie, and I am thankful to have this safe place
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Allison S

Not my chest that's for sure.. Maybe that I'm finally growing out my hair and can work on the shame around femininity that I have around that for some reason..  [emoji4]

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Donna

Lol. I roll over in bed and the girls are sore and wake me up. I love the feeling and the fact that the little guy is so tiny and staying that way
December 2015 noticed strange feelings moving in
December 2016 started to understand what my body has been telling me all my life, started wearing a bra for comfort full time
Spiro and dutastricide 2017
Mid year 2017 Started dressing and going out shopping etc by myself
October T 14.8 / 456
Came out to my wife in December 2017
January 2018 dressing androgenes and still have face hair
Feb 2018 Dressing full time in female clothing out at work and to friends and family, clean shaven and make up
Living full time March 1 2018
March T 7.4 / 236
April 19th eligard injection, no more Testosterone
June 19th a brand new freshly trained HRT and transgender care doctor for me. Only a one day waiting list to become her patient 😍

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Meghan

When I walk around bumping into funiture I realized I am having new breast

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Meghan Pham: MtF Transgender, Transsexual, Transwoman, social justice, Caregivers, Certified Nurse Assistant
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jfong

Uh.. that feeling amplified now that I just got a BA after insufficient growth from HRT. Takes a while to get used to, but loving the feminine shape it gives me.

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pamelatransuk

Most dramatic already - testicular reduction

Most anticipated - undoubtedly my boobs!


Pamela


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KarynMcD

Quote from: Marcieelizabeth on April 26, 2018, 09:08:39 PM
I wake up every morning after 5 months on HRT...
I just cannot believe it is true!  It has been so many years waiting to be me! 

I know I cannot be the only one who is in denial, what do you do to remind yourself of your good fortune?

I've been on HRT for 3 years now and transitioned about 1 1/2 years ago. I still can't believe it sometimes.

I started at 47. I've got too many decades of dysphoria to get over. Sometimes I see a beautiful woman and still think "I wish I looked like that", then I look down and go, "oh yeah. I already do."
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Dani

Quote from: Marcieelizabeth on April 26, 2018, 09:08:39 PM
Hi ladies! 

I wake up every morning after 5 months on HRT and I automatically find myself checking to be sure my breasts are really there!  I just cannot believe it is true! 

Just wait, Marcie, until you have at least 3 years of HRT and GCS on top of that.

The whole package of gender confirming changes make me feel so much better about myself. Transition is not just a desire, but rather a necessity for improved quality of my life.
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yayo

That goes away in time. Pretty soon they'll just be that thing that means you have to wear a tight torture device (bra) that you can't wait to take off through your sleeve while you crack open a bottle of wine in the evening.

Been on hormones for almost 6 years, and it's kinda hard to remember NOT having boobs.
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KathyLauren

I check my breasts several times a day.  Not so much to make sure they are really there - I know they are not going anywhere - but because they feel so-o-o good!   ;D  I've wanted them so long (I'm 63), and now that I have them, I'm going to enjoy them every chance I get.  I love the little ouch that tells me that they are still growing.  Go, girls, go!
2015-07-04 Awakening; 2015-11-15 Out to self; 2016-06-22 Out to wife; 2016-10-27 First time presenting in public; 2017-01-20 Started HRT!!; 2017-04-20 Out publicly; 2017-07-10 Legal name change; 2019-02-15 Approval for GRS; 2019-08-02 Official gender change; 2020-03-11 GRS; 2020-09-17 New birth certificate
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TonyaW

I check every morning and more to see if the look any bigger.  I've got an A cup after 14 months but still have my D cup gut which makes them harder to notice.

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Marcieelizabeth

Quote from: Allison S on April 26, 2018, 09:12:40 PM
Not my chest that's for sure.. Maybe that I'm finally growing out my hair and can work on the shame around femininity that I have around that for some reason..  [emoji4]

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Hair is an issue for me.  It is thin and well I am trying to recover form being a balding guy...definitely something for me to work on
:-*

First memory of cross-dressing - age 8 - 1967
Marcie Since 6-17-17   :D
Out to wife 6-27-17  :D :D
Started HRT 10-13-17  :D :D :D
First time completely me at therapy on 10-31-17 <3
Started Finestrade on 11-1-17 <3
Estradiol and Spiro to therapeutic levels on 12-4-17
Went out totally as Marcie with friends sans beard 3-24-18
Estradiol increased second time 3-27-18
Out to both sisters 2-3-19

...it makes me smile to know its me, fearful about losing the good things in my life, anxious about every single step, doubting my resolve, determined to stop living a lie,  VERY hopeful for the future as myself, Marcie, and I am thankful to have this safe place
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Marcieelizabeth

Quote from: TonyaW on April 27, 2018, 07:19:32 AM
I check every morning and more to see if the look any bigger.  I've got an A cup after 14 months but still have my D cup gut which makes them harder to notice.

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Tonya - you and me both on the D cup gut...yet another thing to work on... the list grows!!
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First memory of cross-dressing - age 8 - 1967
Marcie Since 6-17-17   :D
Out to wife 6-27-17  :D :D
Started HRT 10-13-17  :D :D :D
First time completely me at therapy on 10-31-17 <3
Started Finestrade on 11-1-17 <3
Estradiol and Spiro to therapeutic levels on 12-4-17
Went out totally as Marcie with friends sans beard 3-24-18
Estradiol increased second time 3-27-18
Out to both sisters 2-3-19

...it makes me smile to know its me, fearful about losing the good things in my life, anxious about every single step, doubting my resolve, determined to stop living a lie,  VERY hopeful for the future as myself, Marcie, and I am thankful to have this safe place
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Marcieelizabeth

Quote from: KathyLauren on April 27, 2018, 06:50:03 AM
I check my breasts several times a day.  Not so much to make sure they are really there - I know they are not going anywhere - but because they feel so-o-o good!   ;D  I've wanted them so long (I'm 63), and now that I have them, I'm going to enjoy them every chance I get.  I love the little ouch that tells me that they are still growing.  Go, girls, go!

Kathy - you and me both.  I waited 57 years so yes - they are a comfort. 

Love and Hugs, Marcie
:-*

First memory of cross-dressing - age 8 - 1967
Marcie Since 6-17-17   :D
Out to wife 6-27-17  :D :D
Started HRT 10-13-17  :D :D :D
First time completely me at therapy on 10-31-17 <3
Started Finestrade on 11-1-17 <3
Estradiol and Spiro to therapeutic levels on 12-4-17
Went out totally as Marcie with friends sans beard 3-24-18
Estradiol increased second time 3-27-18
Out to both sisters 2-3-19

...it makes me smile to know its me, fearful about losing the good things in my life, anxious about every single step, doubting my resolve, determined to stop living a lie,  VERY hopeful for the future as myself, Marcie, and I am thankful to have this safe place
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Marcieelizabeth

Quote from: Dani on April 27, 2018, 06:35:06 AM
Just wait, Marcie, until you have at least 3 years of HRT and GCS on top of that.

The whole package of gender confirming changes make me feel so much better about myself. Transition is not just a desire, but rather a necessity for improved quality of my life.

I bet that is so true...wait is a bad word for me, as is weight! Ha...

Thanks for the reply Dani!

Love and Hugs Marcie
:-*

First memory of cross-dressing - age 8 - 1967
Marcie Since 6-17-17   :D
Out to wife 6-27-17  :D :D
Started HRT 10-13-17  :D :D :D
First time completely me at therapy on 10-31-17 <3
Started Finestrade on 11-1-17 <3
Estradiol and Spiro to therapeutic levels on 12-4-17
Went out totally as Marcie with friends sans beard 3-24-18
Estradiol increased second time 3-27-18
Out to both sisters 2-3-19

...it makes me smile to know its me, fearful about losing the good things in my life, anxious about every single step, doubting my resolve, determined to stop living a lie,  VERY hopeful for the future as myself, Marcie, and I am thankful to have this safe place
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Marcieelizabeth

Quote from: KarynMcD on April 27, 2018, 06:12:14 AM
I've been on HRT for 3 years now and transitioned about 1 1/2 years ago. I still can't believe it sometimes.

I started at 47. I've got too many decades of dysphoria to get over. Sometimes I see a beautiful woman and still think "I wish I looked like that", then I look down and go, "oh yeah. I already do."

That must feel so amazing Karyn - I cannot wait!

Marcie
:-*

First memory of cross-dressing - age 8 - 1967
Marcie Since 6-17-17   :D
Out to wife 6-27-17  :D :D
Started HRT 10-13-17  :D :D :D
First time completely me at therapy on 10-31-17 <3
Started Finestrade on 11-1-17 <3
Estradiol and Spiro to therapeutic levels on 12-4-17
Went out totally as Marcie with friends sans beard 3-24-18
Estradiol increased second time 3-27-18
Out to both sisters 2-3-19

...it makes me smile to know its me, fearful about losing the good things in my life, anxious about every single step, doubting my resolve, determined to stop living a lie,  VERY hopeful for the future as myself, Marcie, and I am thankful to have this safe place
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Marcieelizabeth

Quote from: pamelatransuk on April 27, 2018, 04:54:19 AM
Most dramatic already - testicular reduction

Most anticipated - undoubtedly my boobs!


Pamela

The boys were not much to start with...cannot find them at all most days! :)

Marcie
:-*

First memory of cross-dressing - age 8 - 1967
Marcie Since 6-17-17   :D
Out to wife 6-27-17  :D :D
Started HRT 10-13-17  :D :D :D
First time completely me at therapy on 10-31-17 <3
Started Finestrade on 11-1-17 <3
Estradiol and Spiro to therapeutic levels on 12-4-17
Went out totally as Marcie with friends sans beard 3-24-18
Estradiol increased second time 3-27-18
Out to both sisters 2-3-19

...it makes me smile to know its me, fearful about losing the good things in my life, anxious about every single step, doubting my resolve, determined to stop living a lie,  VERY hopeful for the future as myself, Marcie, and I am thankful to have this safe place
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StacyRenee

Quote from: TonyaW on April 27, 2018, 07:19:32 AM
I check every morning and more to see if the look any bigger.  I've got an A cup after 14 months but still have my D cup gut which makes them harder to notice.

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I'm in the same boat, Tonya. Well, maybe only a C cup gut. Ironically, I'm just shy of 14 months (March 1st is my rebirthday).
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BrandiYYC

Quote from: yayo on April 27, 2018, 06:44:14 AM
That goes away in time. Pretty soon they'll just be that thing that means you have to wear a tight torture device (bra) that you can't wait to take off through your sleeve while you crack open a bottle of wine in the evening.

Been on hormones for almost 6 years, and it's kinda hard to remember NOT having boobs.

I am still in the super excited stage of putting my bra on daily! So many friends I have spoken with hate their bras, not me. Maybe I consider it a badge of honour. I do like your descriptive style of opening your bottle of wine though  ;D

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Lady Love

Quote from: Marcieelizabeth on April 26, 2018, 09:08:39 PM
Hi ladies! 

I wake up every morning after 5 months on HRT and I automatically find myself checking to be sure my breasts are really there!  I just cannot believe it is true!  It has been so many years waiting to be me! 

I know I cannot be the only one who is in denial, what do you do to remind yourself of your good fortune?  What change has been the most dramatic and most anticipated for you?

I hope everyone is doing well!  Love and Hugs, Marcie
I am pre-hrt, but a longing for these feelings are how I came to understand my gender. I feel a mixture of hope and jealousy seeing people post these things... I am very happy it is going so well for you :)

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