Hello all,
I am a 42 year old mtf transgender woman. I have been married for 22 years. I have had feelings of being the wrong gender since my first conscious memories. After a lifetime of depression and heartache, I finally get to live my dream and become a female.
My story, from what I have been told, is very typical for those of us going through this. I tried to bury this away and be the person the world wanted me to be, but just became more and more unhappy as time went on. I told my parents when I was a teenager, but they chalked it up to confusion and convinced me that there was something wrong with me and that I should try and forget those feelings. Easy for them to say.
I then met my wife who I still dearly love and would like to stay with. While she has let me amass a huge collection of women's clothes, she never allowed it out of the house. She always considered it an excentricity. Anytime I wanted to take it further, I received major pushback to the point of arguments. She did not understand and I was not being forthcoming.
Now we arrive at today. After nearly dying from an emergency medical issue late last year, I realize that time is fleeting. I have spent my whole life being miserable and hating who I was. It was time to tell her about who I really am.
After several emotional conversations with me and a session with my therapist, she sees what I have known for my entire life, that I can only be happy as a female. She is now fully on board and is my savior! She is as impatient as I am now to transition and start our life a new.
I am currently seeing a transgender therapist and have my appointment for hrt scheduled on June 5th. I am extremely excited and hopeful for the future now. I used to worry about what people will think, but the thought of getting to be a female, alleviates that concern for me.
Thanks for listening to my story. I am looking forward to asking questions and getting some great advice and support from you all here in the coming weeks and months.
Thank you so much!
Olivia
