So, a little update from me.
Personally Im still in a good place.
This has been bolstered by coming out to 2 of the 3 final direct reports that don't know about me yet. Both pretty supportive (blokes again). One was quite good in realising the challenge ahead, as his sisters best friend is trans as well, and he thinks she is really nice and so much a better person after her journey (was mid 20s though..). So 100% OK so far, maybe the world has changed from 10, and 20, and 30, and 40 years ago. Or maybe I wasn't looking. Too busy hiding I think. Never mind I'm here now and all the more gorgeous and personable for it. Well I think so anyway.
So, onto the mundane;
Shampooed carpets in living/dining room as they still smelly with previous occupants smoking and dog stuff (EWWWWW). Used a carpet cleaner that wets, scrubs and sucks up the muck. First 9 litres of water came back like melted chocolate ice-cream but runnier. Disgusting. Second was like vanilla cream. Overall because I scrubbed my 20 foot by 18 foot room twice, it took 12 loads of 9 litres of brown and vanilla coloured water to get as far s I could today. All windows were opened so it would air dry and then central heating was put on as the heavens opened and it really rained outside here with the resultant temperature drop. I will try the main areas of carpet concern again tomorrow as well as the entrance hall and the upstairs landing. They should be better I hope. I will lend Ex the cleaning unit before it needs to go back, as she has a spot carpet cleaner and I need to do the stairs and corners with that.
That's tomorrow sorted.
Eldest son and his gf were supposed to be coming round tonight but they are too busy packing as her parents are taking him on holiday for 10 days with them somewhere in Spain we think but he wont tell us where. (I cant afford to do that or help out at this time).
Went to one of my support groups last night, and one of the girls shouted out as I was explaining to another girl where I grew up (about 50 miles from the support group). She knew the exact house where I grew up, and although 5 years younger than me we chatted about all the common stuff we knew about. She had grown up less than 5 miles from me it seems. Was really nice as she is a very gentle and poised girl, and I'm still very rough at the edges and learning remotely it seems (YouTube etc). I need to
so get out more, as I need the social experience with the general public and not just trans groups, if I am possibly out at work and maybe FT around Xmas or early next year. The girls at the support group all think I would be OK, but its my doubting mind again..
All my doubts about coming out so far have been unfounded though, am I a slow learner (?), maybe, but I think I have been hiding and ashamed too much to change in a few months.
Enough of that as I need to change subject..
So my cis female nephew has said she wants to come and meet me for the first time soon, as soon as her boys are back at school. I will take a day off on holiday to do that if needs as she is now a farmers wife and they tend to be very busy. Also she works for an advertising company (US based), walks to and from work every day, possibly 5 miles, up and down hill (they are general small but annoying in the UK). I have always been in awe of her and know we would have been riotous friends in teen years if I had been born AFAB.
Whatever, that was never to be, so here I am, gorgeous and very much looking forwards to the future.
Im sure there is something I have forgotten but it will keep for later or another day.
Luv n Hugz
Katie