Hi Matt, welcome to Susan's Place, I'm Jessica!
I understand how fear can be a barrier for many reasons.
You are concerned about your family, your life in it.
There may be circumstances where social aspects scare you.
Finances can play a strong role in escalating fear.
One thing at Susan's that you will find is a hand to help with questions, emotions and fear.
We all have these points we deal with, and with the many different experiences here, one or many will hit home for you.
Might I suggest a gender therapist that can help you with the challenges in finding your path.
I see the maiden of the north
@Alaskan Danielle has greeted you. She gave you some links to the site rules and helpful hints. Please be kind to her and give them a look see. She does care so much about new members and them feeling welcome here.
Smiles, Jessica