Today I had tough conversation with one of my friends. She suggested me stop transition and live like a man. Also she and few others want me to talk with another psychotherapist for two goals. First - listen different opinion in hope I will appear just crazy man which can be cured, lol. Second - to see if my clinic stick to right diagnosis and not just draining my money. Most of my friends are medics and know firsthandedly about dirt and corruption in medicine. I just dunno how they can endure such behavior which shows their bosses. If I was in their shoes I'd already hit somebody or something like that. I mean, I just can't stand it when somebody trying to manipulate me and I know about that (they even don't trying to hide it), I'm too wild for that kind of treatment.
But I can be deceived. I strongly believe I am woman, and when doctors call me Alice I feel myself happy. It can be lie, and they can just making me paying more for my visits before reject me. So it probably will be good idea to consult with one or two more specialists to be sure everything ok. Life made my mind too indomitable to shake it anyway, so unless there won't be solid proofs of my madness I will just leave. It's just... I'm becoming hunger for more. The more I feel myself Alice, the more I'm losing patience and it becoming hard to be rational. I always was impulsive, and it takes a lot to hold myself because I don't want to stop. Always charge and never back, huh.
Well, I hope playing with my new IPL will help me a bit. Yeah, I know what people said
here, it isn't permanent, but I think if it will prevent me from shaving 3 times per week it worth it, and I'm not ready for something serious right now.
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Meanwhile in Russia
Big scandal raging in Ekaterinburg. On picture below red circles shows temples of Russian Orthodox Church (and one another just behind buildings in upper left corner), and green one shows alley of trees where people tend to rest and enjoy strolling. Church with support of our milliarders from 24 and 25 position in Forbs wants to destroy the alley and build SIXTH temple. Why does they need that much holy places? Well, probably because our patriarch is damn bandit who trading smuggled goods (cigarettes, for example) and he wanna some idulgence for himself? But hey, I worried a bit, if he have enough of Lexuses to ride in different one to each temple?
Dozens of bullies appeared after enraged people crushed the fence around construction site protected by Rus Guards. They started beating people who wanted to save serene green place in the middle of city. Burly men with very "spiritual" faces kicked out citizens and restored the fence, but protesters came back and throwed fence into the river.
Keep it up, people. Stand up against corrupted-still-holy scums. Temples are inside us, after all, we do not need much of that hollow stones where church dogs selling stuff against all rules.
