Hi AJ,
I hope the appointment gives you some peace of mind. I will be seeing a gender therapist for my insurance in a couple of weeks, and I know I will feel very nervous when that comes around!
For me, it is helpful to remind myself that I don't need to have all the answers or be 100% sure of anything. It is enough to explore and try and be honest with myself. It has been a very turbulent year for me, and I got so fixated on figuring it all out and trying to be 100% sure of what I wanted that I made myself quite miserable for a time.
This is such an 'interesting' journey, isn't it? I find it is so hard to know what is actually going on inside with so many years of socialization and messaging. Still, a sense of moving forward gently is critical for my peace of mind.
I wish you all the best and I hope your doctor is extremely supportive and kind!
Love,
Jael