Update:
In the two weeks since our breakup, my girlfriend and I have kept talking and FaceTiming several times a day. We missed each other's company and still loved each other very much. She also continued to spend several nights a week at my house, where affection and intimacy flowed freely. Last week, she even brought me a necklace, which at the time, seemed like a positive sign....
I had continued to dress as a boy around her, but dressed as Laura, sans wig and make-up, when we were video conferencing. However, she's fairly dug in that she can only accept me as a partner if I surrender Laura and live as a man full-time. I had so hoped that I could continue hormones and I was certainly willing to compromise when it came to dressing around her. However, I can not destroy and abandon Laura. I can be happy living as Laura part time, but I've lived too long denying my need....It's not that I hate being a man. I just love and need being Laura more.
My girlfriend has one foot out the door and her demands are clear. If I continue to be Laura, then I'm the one who is quitting the relationship. That she puts all the pressure on me is interesting, given that she knew about Laura from the beginning. However, once I reinforced my need to be Laura and I restarted hormones, she told me that she can never accept me as a woman, even if it was part time.
And so it goes.
Laura