Life Of Michelle K

[Michelle_K]

Finally got the lawn mowed, mostly. Left a 2 ft wide strip, 25 ft long by the shed. After 2 weeks, it was a bit long and really pulled down the batteries. I did about half yesterday, and had to recharge my batteries overnight. Sirens just went off.
Michelle

[Michelle_K]

Went out to check the damage. I have a large tree branch on my driveway. It looks like I will have to drive across my lawn to get to the street to drive to St. Cloud tomorrow.

I had gotten a weather alert on my phone about a tornado warning in the area. It didn't say what area. Couldn't find any more information on it. Don't know if the alert was sent to everyone with the same area code. All I could find on the computer was a tornado warning from 5 hours earlier.

The notification on my computer just showed severe thunderstorm warning.
Michelle

[Lori Dee]

Hopefully, that was the only damage! Be sure to check the house for damage, too. That is a scary thing to happen.

I have had that happen as well. The weather gets crazy outside, but no alerts. I tune the TV to local channels, and all they show is a small sign that says Severe Thunderstorm Warning. They can't be bothered to interrupt their asinine TV show, or God forbid, interrupt a commercial, to let us know we are in danger.

I'm glad you are safe.

[Michelle_K]

I did get to St. Cloud, and got my toenails trimmed. Still not sure if it is an infection. I'll keep brushing on the anti fungal. The podiatrist seemed to have better tools to trim my nails.
I did have to drive across the lawn to get to the street, by the time I got back all that is left of the tree branch is a few twigs.

On the way home, received a call. Tried to answer through the radio, turning the radio volume up to hear. Didn't realize he couldn't hear me with my phone buried in my purse. I don't need it to go through the radio to be hands free. I can be hands free with it going through my hearing aids, and the hearing aids pick up my voice to connect. The phone is now blocked from the radio.
Michelle

[Lori Dee]

I don't need it to go through the radio to be hands free. I can be hands free with it going through my hearing aids, and the hearing aids pick up my voice to connect. The phone is now blocked from the radio.

That is a good way to do it!

[Michelle_K]

They are not really snaps, Just called a cover. I remove the white pearl snap covers from my pink and black western flannel shirt and replace them with rose pearl snap covers. The yellow western style shirt got the yellow pearl snap covers. Tried on the western flannel shirt and then remembered the sleeves are 2 inches short at the wrist.
The button front denim skirt that actually ended up falling off me has been taken to the thrift shop. The other denim skirt that had a gap between the waist button and button hole now fits me proper. Continue eating the way that I have been, and I might end up wearing a size 10 (depending on the manufacturer.) I need to grab my tape measure and redo the sheet with my measurements.
Michelle

[Michelle_K]

Had to clean up the twigs before mowing that last strip. Spent a couple hours picking up twigs, and still not done. I'll have to see about finishing in the morning. I put the twigs in a large box in my car, to be taken to the compost site tomorrow.

Studying the videos on nutrition, This insulin resistance covers a lot, including converting testosterone to estrogen. The symptoms of Klinefelter syndrome can be explained away by insulin resistance, as long as you ignore my bone structure.
I'm still waiting for my referral for the genetic test for Klinefelter syndrome.
Michelle

[Lilis]

I'm still waiting for my referral for the genetic test for Klinefelter syndrome.

One step closer Michelle, hopefully soon. 🤞


~ Lilis 🫂💕

[Michelle_K]

I think under medicare I could go directly to a endocrinologist, without a referral. Just that with a MD referral, there is more of a guarantee that medicare would pay their 80%. Without a referral, the VA will not pay. The question is, Klinefelter syndrome is classed under intersex, does that mean VA will not cover it.

my urologist stated she knew another urologist that knew about Klinefelter syndrome, but first we must take care of the bladder stone. I'm now on my third week past removal of the bladder stone, and wondering if this was the proverbial dangling of the carrot to get what she wanted.

The same as my provider in the local clinic. Before we do anything else, we need you on a statin to control your cholesterol. When it gets put into the risk calculation how many years since quitting smoking, and it shows 22%, almost a guarantee that I will never be given HRT. And I am looking at the possibility that the statin will push my lowered testosterone off the bottom of range.
Michelle

[Lori Dee]

When it gets put into the risk calculation how many years since quitting smoking, and it shows 22%, almost a guarantee that I will never be given HRT.

I was a smoker all my adult life, as much as two packs a day when I was younger. They had no problem with me on HRT when I had quit for a year. I strongly support the recommendation to start statins to control cholesterol. They have worked very well for me. Just FYI.

[Lilis]

When it gets put into the risk calculation how many years since quitting smoking, and it shows 22%, almost a guarantee that I will never be given HRT.

I am sorry about what you're going through Michelle, it shouldn't be this hard to access care that brings us peace in our own bodies.


Keep fighting, love! 🫂💕


~ Lilis 🌹

[Michelle_K]

I think it is a bit extreme to take a satin to reduce my LDL from 137 down to 100, especially since my tests show that I have been reducing it, and total cholesterol is in the normal range  I think I mentioned that part of the high fat is due to the process of losing weight. I think I have gone from 160 pounds to 150 pounds in the past 2 months.

Another thing with the statin, I think I read it drops blood pressure. Depending how active I am, my blood pressure can be too low. It actually dropped to 90/53 in the hospital room, early morning. It was 107/54 when I was released to go home. I'm told to drink more water.
Unrelated, it has been suggested that I drink 3 liters per day. I think the idea is to flush out any hint of another stone forming. I think I figured it to be a glass of water every hour for 12 hours. unfortunately, it also means getting up every couple hours during the night to pee.
Michelle

[Michelle_K]

I think this transphobia Stuff is getting to me a bit. The constant that they can spot a transgender person, wearing on my being. I get nervous with guys standing outside the entrance to the restrooms. I walk past them and enter the women's rest room. Nothing is said. There are a couple of women in the rest room. I enter the stall, and take care of things. I exit the stall and a woman walks past me to use the stall. I wash my hands and leave, another day without confrontation. I'm wearing a skirt, and no way am I going to use the men's rest room. All this water I'm drinking doesn't help, they want me to drink 3 liters per day. For some reason I didn't get past the 30 minutes between peeing.

This having so many videos against transgender, with some channels I used to watch now echoing the transphobia, is starting to set up doubts in my mind. I try to find videos about Klinefelter syndrome to maybe learn more about the symptoms. Mostly what I find are videos on testosterone self injections or about how the testosterone improved their lives. It makes me wonder what happens if I do get a diagnosis for Klinefelter syndrome. Is there going to be an insistence that I get the traditional treatment of testosterone?
Michelle

[Michelle_K]

I managed to finally get some exercise on the exercise bike. I figured 3 miles was enough. I haven't gotten out walking yet, although I did push the lawn mower around last week. Even then I had to take a few breaks to rest.
I tried doing some exercises, but anything that involves twisting is a little much. I'm not even going to try toe touching, I think that would put a bit much stress on my bladder. My barbell is a bit heavy even without the weights. I decided to put my cane to use to do my arm curls. I no longer need the cane to help me out of bed.
I thought perhaps I could get some walking done while leaning on a grocery cart. That didn't go the way I wanted, especially after bumping the cart with my new scar. That hurt a bit, and I could feel it with every step. I was leaning on the cart a little more than I wanted.
Michelle

[Lori Dee]

You gotta take it slow. Healing takes time and rarely happens as quickly as we would like. Watch some videos on other topics to get your mind off all the noise. Work on things you enjoy, and watch videos on related topics. You are very creative, and building things like your Barbie-size projects will give your mind a break. You'll heal faster if you are not stressed out.

[Lilis]

Michelle, I agree with Lori, it does sound like your trying to much specially after surgery.

Did you reach out to your brother in law?

Maybe he can help out, like with mowing the lawn.


~ Lilis 🌷

[Michelle_K]

I think it was back in the 1980s, when I mentioned to a therapist that I felt I had been sexually changed as a baby. His response was that it never happens. Somewhere around that time, I mentioned to my medical doctor wanting to check for internal female organs. Knowing I'm male, I got told it never happens. I grew up believing I was an intersex. And the doctors response was like saying there is no such thing as an intersex. My thinking then is to not mention it. I become the girl masquerading as a boy. Trying to avoid anything that might give me away.

Although, through later therapy, I did try to explore my feminine self. Until one day, someone else showed up at my session. I was told that since I masturbated, I enjoyed being a male and therefore was not transsexual.
Then this past January, at the endocrinologist, who was supposed to prescribe my estrogen, I mentioned what was written in my military medical records. The doctor writing that he observed a healthy ovary while performing my appendectomy. The endocrinologist dismissed it as being a transcription error.

I hated the monthly cramps, they would get so severe that I would run to the restroom with diarrhea. And what the doctors did to me as a baby, there was no way for the menstrual blood to exit my body. And, I could get grouchy as a girl.. It seems I also was heading to the first aid kit once a month to get band-aids to put over my sensitive nipples. I never did connect the monthly nosebleed with being intersex.
My brother could tell you about my mood swings.

One time a doctor was giving me a digital prostate exam, and mentioned something about something getting in the the way. Maybe like a vagina being between the rectum and the prostate. Guessing that even if the doctor knew what it was, he would keep silent to avoid having to answer any questions about it. Not even enter it into my records.

One might think that the female organs would show upon the prostate MRI. Perhaps they did, but as long as they are healthy, there is no reason to mention them on the report. No prostate cancer, however there was a large stone in the bladder, and some damage on the one kidney. The other kidney for some reason was not on the scan. The later CT scan would show there was damage on both kidneys. Compared to the previous MRI, the left kidney was healing, but the stone had gotten larger.

There are no medical records available that state that I have the internal female organs, so I have no proof That they are there. So all I can say is that if I indeed have a uterus like any menopausal female I need the estrogen blend of estradiol and progesterone.
Michelle   

[Michelle_K]

Finally finished picking up the twigs on the lawn.



With my grabber, I don't need to bend over to pick up the twigs. I've had this for a couple of decades. It doesn't fold in the middle. I have also used it to get stuff in the upper cupboards. Anyway, now I can mow the lawn without hearing twigs rattling through the mower deck.

It was suggested that I get my brother-in-law to help. The one I was thinking about was the one who was so smart that he went to collage. Having gone to collage, he thinks he has the right to tell everybody how to do things. I don't know if he graduated. Anyway, it would be a 50 mile drive for him to get here. He would probably tell me to hire someone closer.
I do have a problem area to mow. That is along the sidewalk, where my third pass the mower is at a 45% angle and I'm sill walking on the sidewalk. I work through the pain, unless it gets to be too much.

I was thinking that since I can feel a twig under my shoes, I have sensitive feet. Like my skin where shirt tags can irritate, and where my skin tried to crawl away when the nurse touched my belly. Thinking about the Legos, I can feel it in a carpet, even while wearing shoes. Another symptom of autism.
Michelle

Edit: The thought come up later. Having sensitive skin probably makes that new scar super sensitive.

[Michelle_K]

I officially moved off the family farm about 4-5 years ago. That's when it was sold. A week after closing somebody sent me pictures of the smoldering remains of the house, and where the other buildings used to be. I've even seen the satellite photo with nothing where the buildings were.

It gets odd to me that I should find myself in a dream at the old house, even in my dream knowing that it had been demolished. Last night in my dream, I even visited the Barbie village that I had never built.
Michelle

[Lori Dee]

Last night in my dream, I even visited the Barbie village that I had never built.

Maybe it is a sign that you should build it!