Quote from: Eloise on May 18, 2008, 06:04:03 PM
I said: NO, i would not take the pill if i were given the choice. I'm actually more unsure, but decided that i already pass at work and on the street without trying, which makes me feel good in any case.
i don't shave yet, my voice didn't go down that far, and i took after my mom- so I'd rather skip taking the 'normal pill' because THEN I'd even feel worse than i do now. plus i don't think that any kind of pill that would make me feel bad is a good pill to take.
that's just me.
Thats really lucky... I hate shaving. SO MUCH!!!!!! I've ripped my facial hair out with wax before, and that hurts A LOT. You get to see all the wonderful black pods at the end of the hairs if you did it right. I wish they'd just STOP. Its the thing which makes my face break out and it makes me look 5 years older. Tim Buckley thought I was old enough to Booze it when I volunteered at his convention once... Goatee... Yea. Xens never ever doing that look again. I think my evil clone took over for a couple months. It was fun to stroke, but if I could have had it permanently gone, I would have chosen that.
And my voice is weird. My tone is dependent on how much pressure I put on my throat when I talk. When I'm more tired and less wired, it tends to lower somewhat. But people have said that I laugh like a 12 year old girl... So, its WEIRD...
The more I think about all of this, the more I really feel how real it is to me, and that it was almost meant to happen... Like life relinquishing its last bits of knowledge to reap society and live influentially and leave a mark- My last lesson before I'm ready, if you will. Everything is so bad, its like it was conveniently placed there to teach me some moral lesson... Like an episode of a cartoon, where they say, "Well... I've learned something today," at the end of the show. Only... Reality. Its almost like living in the Truman Show. This can be viewed as a paranoid delusion, but honestly, sometimes the occurrences are NOT RANDOM in the least.
Man... I ranted. But once again, NO. I would not take the normal pill. I actually think that every terrible thing that has happened to me killed another flawed area of my persona, and that it rises from the ashes (if it DOES. Lol) exponentially more powerful. Its like... I can laugh in peoples face if they tried sleep deprivation torture, cause I live that way NORMALLY. I'd probably gain a telekinetic power by day 3 (mental insanity, legally) and crush their skulls with radiation or something...
But yea.....
