Fearless,
Welcome to reality. I started to transition 17 years ago was on hormones, and was a month away from a mastectomy only to do a 360 for my mother. I got married, and had 4 kids. Now I am back where I started. I am who I am, on the inside and have to be that person. I see a theripist and will be back on Testosterone soon, and shedule for the top surgery. I pass for a guy now as long as I bind my chest which is not huge thank God but enough to notice if not concealed. I have beard growth since I was on hormones 17 years ago. It is enough for now but want ot move on to the finish. It has been hard dealing with it telling my kids. They all cried at first, but are adjusting bit by bit. My oldest, Mariah almost 15 took it hard, I almost changed my mind because of her reaction. Then we talked again and she said she knows she cant stop me and I told that is true. She says she loves me and always will and that is what matters. My second daughter, Madison almost 12 told me she loves me for who I am on the inside and the outside will not matter. Words beyond her years. Mt third daughter, Jenny is adjusting to the idea, but she also adores my girlfriend who Jenny knows now that I will marry after transition. Jonny, my son, he took it hard at first but now just asks a bunch of questions. He is almost 9. So there you have it. You have to be who you feel you are and everything and everyone around you will adjust. I will not be easy, but in time will be fine.
Marco
