Hi, Jen!
Welcome to Susans! I think most of us start out being confused one way or another. Personally, I think it's pretty normal to be confused. A lot of us have seen or are seeing a counselor to help us understand these feelings. It may also help with some of the anger you said you are feeling.
Fortunately, you have come upon a site where the men and women here are some of the absolute best people you will ever find. Let's walk a few miles together. The road is a lot more friendly that way.
Chaunte
