Update on Transition status :)

[kestin]

Heya, so I finally get to see a Psychiatrist this coming Wednesday, I still have another one or two sessions with my counsellor to go as well... but I should be starting on T around mid-August! *is very excited*

Yayayayayayy!!!!!

On another note, had my first random stranger ask "Are you a boy or a girl?" heh

I was sitting at the bus stop when this group walked past me and this one lady stopped to talk. That was the first thing she said, so I replied "Uh actually, I'm transgender." and she was all "Really?" like, she thought I was joking at first lol. Then the bloody woman actually sat down next to me to talk, which gave me a foreboding kind of feeling... that was quickly explained when the conversation turned to GOD.

*shudders*

But I felt like being nice to her since I often don't get mistaken for a guy (even a little) SO I humoured her and just politely answered her questions that I didn't believe in God, blah blah blah, Science is WIN, blah blah, no God is more plausible to me than a divine creator etc. She had the gall to say the bible is actually very scientific and I was thinking "You're full of sh*t."

But then my bus came and I got away! Woot!

[Jasonk16]

People don't ask me that...but I always present myself as male.

i don't tell most people that I'm trans unless I feel I have to or I should like when it comes to a relationship...

[kestin]

I might one day also... I just think that not many people would have heard someone say they're 'Transgender' in answer to that question so I figure to give em a face to that *condition*

Plus, transgender is a part of who I am and not something I wish to deny, hence my 'FtM FtW' t-shirt.

[fluffy jorgen]

Um. What's God got to do with being Trans?
Anyway, congrats, I only get spoken to due to my roots needing a dye.

[trannyboy]

Congratulation on all the steps you are taking. I went through a time like that. It is fun to change expectations. People just want a mental box to put you in and I don't like the box. It never fits me right. My favorite is when they ask if the can pray for me. My response lately has been sure pray to whoever you like, I like to hedge my bets. Right now I am looking for a penis, some land, a nice person and the occasional new toy.

->-bleeped-<-boy

[Elwood]

When someone asks if I'm a boy or a girl, I tend to laugh. They ask why I'm laughing and it's often hard to explain. I can easily say I'm trans up here because this community is exposed to a lot of LGBT people (I'm just North of San Fransisco). But I often won't. I'll often just say I'm a guy to a stranger, and I pass well enough that they don't say, "REALLY?" They just go, "Oh." And sometimes they'll say they're sorry for asking.

When I'm in a suit, I guess I'm pretty hot, because everyone knows I'm a guy. LOL.

As for religious stuff, I'm in the same boat as you. Conservatives REALLY hate me because I'm trans, queer, AND I'm an atheist. I'm not ANTI-God, I just don't really feel that a God is there.

[trannyboy]

Interesting, I just really don't care if there is or isn't a god. I don't enjoy religion in bad forms and I could care less about it in good forms.

->-bleeped-<-boy

[kestin]

So, I saw a Psychiatrist yesterday. He pretty much said I was quite sane, competent and well adjusted and that I didn't need to have any more counselling and that my next step was to see an Endo.

I'm travelling to my family's place later today and staying till Sunday. I'll be having a good proper official discussion with them about my transition as I haven't really had one in person yet.

Wish me luck!

[trannyboy]

Good luck mate and if I don't post more I am off for the weekend. Bye.

->-bleeped-<-boy

[Jay]

People don't ask me that...but I always present myself as male.

i don't tell most people that I'm trans unless I feel I have to or I should like when it comes to a relationship...

That is exactly how I feel.

[kestin]

Well... my parents suck. They say they need more time. They keep on thinking I'm the same person I was from before I left home. Its been 2 and 1/2 years since then... They don't even want to hear about anything, even if it's just 'information' about Transgender ("Stop shoving this in our faces...") The impression I keep on getting from them is that they think it'll go away if they just ignore it >_>

They make me feel like they won't love me unconditionally... I've always been the good kid, you know? I feel really upset every time I think that I might not always have them at my back.

->-bleeped-<-, I've cried like 4 times in the last ten years and now it's happened again. I HATE feeling like that, I'm not an emotional person at all.

[sneakersjay]

Sorry about your parents.

And I totally understand the emotional thing.  I never was very emotional, but certain things make me very uncomfortable and insecure (usually conflict or confrontation with other people who think they are superior) and I haven't felt that way AT ALL since I discovered really WHO I AM, but twice now I've felt that helpless, insecure, down feeling and it TOTALLY SUCKS.  It's so out of character now that when it surfaces I'm shocked by it, but still can't totally control it.

Hang in there.

Jay

[kestin]

I GOT MY T PRESCRIPTION!! *dances with joy* I get my first shot in a weeks time, I can't WAIT!! My Dr. said I'll be on a lower dosage the first month as well as being taught how to inject myself. The testosterone I'll be using is 'Sustanon'.

I'm so going to have myself a T-Party as a celebration XD

[Jay]

I GOT MY T PRESCRIPTION!! *dances with joy* I get my first shot in a weeks time, I can't WAIT!! My Dr. said I'll be on a lower dosage the first month as well as being taught how to inject myself. The testosterone I'll be using is 'Sustanon'.

I'm so going to have myself a T-Party as a celebration XD

Congrats matey! I use Sustanon! Its brilliant stuff!

[J.T.]

we can't get that stuff in the US

congrats on the T!

[kestin]

So I got my first T injection the other morning and my next one is in about three weeks. From then I should be on the regular, full-dose.

OMG it didn't hurt at ALL! I barely felt the injection, I didn't even notice it even though it bled a little. There's a small bruise but it hardly hurts, and only does so if I push on it

Did anyone else get many or feel any changes the first month on T whilst on the smaller dose? Any changes I feel at the moment I'm chalking up to my imagination... at the mo its just been a slight increase in appetite and possibly an increase in libido.

But the libido thing is weird, its not that I feel hornier or something, its just... the nature of it has changed. Generally when I feel the urge, its mostly mental. But now it feels more physical, like an ache.

My bus-ride home the other day was slightly uncomfortable >_<

[Elwood]

How did you make all of this happen so fast? Who is your provider? Are you in America?

I think Kaiser must be unusually slow for things to take this long for me. :/ Did I start therapy before you? I started March.

[trapthavok]

How did you make all of this happen so fast? Who is your provider? Are you in America?

I think Kaiser must be unusually slow for things to take this long for me. :/ Did I start therapy before you? I started March.

LOL Elwood. I feel like all those questions would be a BAD thing right now to have answers to, I feel like it would just bum you out to know that someone's moving at a faster pace than you if indeed Kestin is, especially when there's nothing you can do about that really.

Take a deep breath bro, we're all at different points in our lives and it doesn't do you any good to compare yourself to anyone else, it'll just bum you out more. ALL of you guys are way ahead of me so hearing all these updates are great sometimes but then it also reminds me that I'm not moving. I remember you being bummed out about not moving to your liking more than once in the past, so just breathe dude!

Kestin -- I've been reading an FTM story lately, don't know if you heard of Max Wolf Valerio. He mentions increase in sex drive a lot in his story, first from being almost like a horny teenager it was so bad, to lingering thoughts of sex after those first initial "teen stages" on T. So yeah, I guess maybe it increases the libido? Wouldn't know from experience. I really hope it doesn't though because I get PLENTY enough urges as it is without the help of T.

[Elwood]

How did you make all of this happen so fast? Who is your provider? Are you in America?

I think Kaiser must be unusually slow for things to take this long for me. :/ Did I start therapy before you? I started March.

LOL Elwood. I feel like all those questions would be a BAD thing right now to have answers to, I feel like it would just bum you out to know that someone's moving at a faster pace than you if indeed Kestin is, especially when there's nothing you can do about that really.

Take a deep breath bro, we're all at different points in our lives and it doesn't do you any good to compare yourself to anyone else, it'll just bum you out more. ALL of you guys are way ahead of me so hearing all these updates are great sometimes but then it also reminds me that I'm not moving. I remember you being bummed out about not moving to your liking more than once in the past, so just breathe dude!

Kestin -- I've been reading an FTM story lately, don't know if you heard of Max Wolf Valerio. He mentions increase in sex drive a lot in his story, first from being almost like a horny teenager it was so bad, to lingering thoughts of sex after those first initial "teen stages" on T. So yeah, I guess maybe it increases the libido? Wouldn't know from experience. I really hope it doesn't though because I get PLENTY enough urges as it is without the help of T.

I guess you're right. It would hurt my self esteem pretty badly. "IS HE MORE OF A MAN THAN ME? WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME? -HANGS SELF-"

The only reason I'm comparing medical care is because I want to know if I'm doing something wrong or if I could be doing something better... And yeah, I'm really bummed that all the guys around me seem to be getting T.

As for increase in sex drive, if mine goes up much more, I don't know what I'll do. This morning, I swear to you, I couldn't get out of bed because I was so horny.

[Nero]

Kestin -- I've been reading an FTM story lately, don't know if you heard of Max Wolf Valerio. He mentions increase in sex drive a lot in his story, first from being almost like a horny teenager it was so bad, to lingering thoughts of sex after those first initial "teen stages" on T. So yeah, I guess maybe it increases the libido? Wouldn't know from experience. I really hope it doesn't though because I get PLENTY enough urges as it is without the help of T.

As for increase in sex drive, if mine goes up much more, I don't know what I'll do. This morning, I swear to you, I couldn't get out of bed because I was so horny.

I'm the same way. Makes me think it can't all be about the hormones.