Hi, you may call me Aiden on here, though it is not the name I was given or go by in Life it would be the one I would chose if I ever transitioned.
I am 22, going on 23 in a few months. My story is long but I will try not to give out to much personal information.
As a young child between 3-7 I only had one girl friend, but mostly boys as friends. I was interested in Ninga Turtles, Superman, batman, and only briefly Little Mermaid. But I was never one for dressing up pretty like most girls. I never understood other girls and back then while I called myself a girl, I didn;t really consider my gender. I didn't even realize I was different at that age as I didn't really have a lot of other kids to look at to compare, nor did I try to compare.
It wasn't till I moved to another state closer to my grandmother, and she realized I was a bit different but basically said I was a tomboy. Not wanting to change who I was I used that title to describe my differences to others while enjoying growing up as a boyish girl, playing with my male friends who accepted me as if I was another guy. I took interest in Power Rangers, Highlander, Star Wars, and (really bigly) into Star Trek. Often wrestled with the guys and climbed trees, and dressed mostly male. I was often taken as a boy in stores, till myself or my mom corrected them. But each time I remember boasting in pride at being called a boy.
This lasted till my father told me of the changes my body would soon go through (my mother didn't tell me these things for some reason). I blew it off hoping by some miracle that something would go wrong in puberty, or that it wouldn't happen. A year or 2 later I found myself dispared. My body changed, my guy friends no longer treated me as another boy and I was embarrassed to be outside with others at times. I hide in the appartment and took up computers to find people to socialize with who wouldn't judge me or had my nose stuck in a Star Trek book. But I still didn't know why I was different. I continued to go by the term tomboy even though I realized I was not the typical tomboy either.
At 19 I moved again to a large city from a small rural town lived in before. I met people, saw things that churned up my wondering to why I was different but also confused me because of misconceptions I had on the term transgender. Finally about 3-4 months ago it drove me to find out if my misconceptions were wrong... I found they were, and not only that but I realized that I wasn't alone and that there was a reason for me feeling as I did.
So now... I'm a beginner still in discovering myself which had been buried under misunderstandings and confusion. I am still unsure about certain things, but I find that FtM best describes how I feel without going into the nitty gritty details.
Hope this is alright? I did read the rules, but some things tend to slip me sometimes lol
