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Started by Arch, July 29, 2008, 09:38:11 PM

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Arch

I just introduced myself on the intro forum, so I'm not going to do it again! Except for a couple of details. I am pre-everything (not sure how far I plan to go), and I'm trying to find a therapist. I am a boy. And I am gay.

I'm looking to connect with other guys like me. I'm currently in a very long-term relationship--we are even legally married (it was pretty effing annoying to have to fill out the "bride" part of the application, but I survived). My partner is a bio male, and he is straight with regard to men but supportive of my weirdness. He has some gender oddness of his own--he's a damn good lesbian domme in online role playing games--but he has no real gender identity disorder. So when I say he's straight, I don't think that's quite an accurate label. Straight male, part-time lesbian?

Anyway, I would like to hear from other gay guys in any stage of transition (or pre-transition) who have male lovers, particularly if you "discovered" yourself or came out after entering into the relationship. As I said, I've been with my partner for a long time, but I do worry about how our relationship--particularly our sexual relationship--will change now that I'm starting to really embrace my true identity. So I'd love to hear from other guys in similar situations. Anything to just touch base, really. As I said in my intro, I was very confused all my life with being both TG and gay. Now that I'm really accepting what and who I am, I want nothing more than to talk to other folks like me.
"The hammer is my penis." --Captain Hammer

"When all you have is a hammer . . ." --Anonymous carpenter
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JonasCarminis

im not "gay" really... more like pansexual with strong leanings towards masculine people.  but welcome. :)
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ConfusedMichelle

Hey this is way delayed, but I have been out of town all summer.  I'm definitely gay and proud :)
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emoboi

Spoopy poopie
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Yochanan

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Elwood

Questioning... the closest thing to what I feel right now is bisexual. I mostly like guys, but once in a while I'll have interest in girls.
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Kevin

Quote from: Brady on August 04, 2008, 10:15:02 AM
Hey this is way delayed, but I have been out of town all summer.  I'm definitely gay and proud :)
I'm not gay, but I had to comment because I've been wondering where Brady has been forever, haha. Good to see you back.
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Arch

Hi, everybody. I'm glad to "meet" you.

So far, all of your profiles identify you as young and single, which I think is interesting. This means that your relationship dynamics are quite a bit different from mine, since I'm already in a committed relationship.

As I said, I'm very interested in hearing how people negotiate existing relationships, but I'm also looking for ANY points of connection with people like me. I'll have to check some of your earlier posts. I still have some catching up to do on this site. (I'm not getting any real work done, but I'm having a blast.)

Right now I'm in a sort of Brian Kinney phase: This is who I am. This is what I am. Deal with it.

That's at home. When I leave the house, I'm mindful that people don't even see me as a guy. When I'm alone, they might read me as a lesbian. When I'm with my boy, I'm just a straight woman with a male partner. Mostly, I want to feel comfortable in my body and in my relationship. But a part of me feels that if at least SOME other people don't see me as a gay guy, I'm being stripped of my queer identity. So to some extent I feel as if my identity is controlled by others--a disturbing thought because I usually don't worry much about what other people think of me. What do I care what other people think? I'm sure that things will change if/when I start to transition.

Doubtless all of you pass much more successfully than I do, but I would be interested to hear how some of you negotiate the junction (cross-section? continuum?) of trans/male identity and gay identity.
"The hammer is my penis." --Captain Hammer

"When all you have is a hammer . . ." --Anonymous carpenter
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Nero

I believe Brady is in a committed relationship.
Nero was the Forum Admin here at Susan's Place for several years up to the time of his death.
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Arch

Quote from: Nero on August 04, 2008, 03:46:21 PM
I believe Brady is in a committed relationship.
Well, I'm going by profiles here, and I haven't caught up on people's past posts. I'll be doing that soon.
"The hammer is my penis." --Captain Hammer

"When all you have is a hammer . . ." --Anonymous carpenter
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Aiden

Not sure what I am yet.  Suspect Gay or Asexual.  Never actually tried it out.
Every day we pass people, do we see them or the mask they wear?
If you live under a mask long enough, does it eventually break or wear down?  Does it become part you?  Maybe alone, they are truly themselves?  Or maybe they have forgotten or buried themselves so long, they forget they are not a mask?
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ConfusedMichelle

Haha Kevin yeah I'm back.  I've been in either NY all summer or at work CONSTANTLY (camp counselor) where I can't get online much.

Yes, in a very committed relationship.  Just had our year anniversary not long ago :) 
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Arch

Quote from: Brady on August 04, 2008, 10:53:12 PM
Yes, in a very committed relationship.  Just had our year anniversary not long ago :) 
Brady, that's so cool. I wish you all the best.
"The hammer is my penis." --Captain Hammer

"When all you have is a hammer . . ." --Anonymous carpenter
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ConfusedMichelle

Yup, my little farthead has been away all summer :( as soon as he gets back and we get uh...reacquainted  ;) I told him that we have to take a picture for you guys so I'll be sure to post that when I get one.
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Arch

A couples shot! Yeah, that would be great.

We don't even own a camera. And if we had one, we wouldn't take the initiative to use it. I'm sure I'll regret it when I'm old and gray...
"The hammer is my penis." --Captain Hammer

"When all you have is a hammer . . ." --Anonymous carpenter
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ConfusedMichelle

How long have you been together?!
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Arch

Quote from: Brady on August 05, 2008, 10:54:06 AM
How long have you been together?!
"You talkin' ta me?"

If you're asking me, Brady, we've been together for a very long time. Drum roll, please...it'll be nineteen years this year. I didn't start coming out to him until well into the relationship, and I wasn't fully out until this year...but he has always been cool about it. I'm hoping that he stays that way when I transition.
"The hammer is my penis." --Captain Hammer

"When all you have is a hammer . . ." --Anonymous carpenter
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icontact

I'm an androgyne leaning more towards male if that has any bearing. I'm bi-curious, if not bisexual. Have identified as a lesbian for a very long time before I realized all my gender issues so right now I'm just starting to explore how I feel about men.
Hardly online anymore. You can reach me at http://cosyoucantbuyahouseinheaven.tumblr.com/ask
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Aiden

Well had an experience that made me realize I defiantly must be gay lol.   Though still virgin or whatever call it.  Kinda forced myself to stay restrained when realized a friend was having a hard on around me... (was funny thinking back on it though lol)
Every day we pass people, do we see them or the mask they wear?
If you live under a mask long enough, does it eventually break or wear down?  Does it become part you?  Maybe alone, they are truly themselves?  Or maybe they have forgotten or buried themselves so long, they forget they are not a mask?
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Arch

Quote from: freespeechz on August 11, 2008, 04:22:58 PM
I'm an androgyne leaning more towards male if that has any bearing. I'm bi-curious, if not bisexual. Have identified as a lesbian for a very long time before I realized all my gender issues so right now I'm just starting to explore how I feel about men.
I hear you...it can be crazy confusing. Part of me is still hoping that I'm androgyne rather than transsexual, but I'm not really comfortable with my female body. So I'll have to either get comfortable with it (seems unlikely) or change myself enough to achieve comfort with whatever I wind up as. Perhaps I'm in a boat similar to yours. You've said something about maybe full-on top surgery, maybe just a reduction. I'm kind of wondering about all that myself. But I fantasize about having a perfectly flat (that is, male) chest. I only like my headlights during sex, and I don't like them, really...I just like the sensations, and I would hate to give that up. It's reciprocal, too, My partner likes them and likes that I get pleasure out of them in sexual situations.

I think if I say any more, I'll need to switch to a different board!

Are you attracted to other androgynes? Or, I guess that would make you more pansexual?

Don't mind me. I'm just rambling here.

Posted on: August 11, 2008, 06:04:24 PM
Quote from: Aiden on August 11, 2008, 05:48:32 PM
Well had an experience that made me realize I defiantly must be gay lol.   Though still virgin or whatever call it.  Kinda forced myself to stay restrained when realized a friend was having a hard on around me... (was funny thinking back on it though lol)
Well, maybe it's just too early to tell. Keep an open mind and go with the flow of your life. You might be pleasantly surprised...in fact, sounds like that experience could be considered a pleasant surprise!
"The hammer is my penis." --Captain Hammer

"When all you have is a hammer . . ." --Anonymous carpenter
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