*hugs*
Attack may be the best form of defence, but it isn't always the smartest. The trouble is, I've noticed, that people who are nervous or unsure about how they'll be accepted by others often tend to hyperinflate their own sense of significance. I'm guilty of it myself. And in situations where you ordinarily wouldn't assume anything out of the ordinary, or would chalk it up to some unforseen event, it often seems to be "That didn't happen because of me and the way I am. They hate me, and lied to me, and did xxxxxxx because of that."
It's a perfectly understandable reaction, I think, and one formed, in part, from the vulnerability you feel through loss of control. You have to rely on someone else's sensibilities towards you and once you've laid bare your soul to them, there ain't a damn thing you can do to influence the way they see you and the actions they take based on that. You just have to hope that when they say they understand you and accept you, they mean it, and aren't just saying it.
That can be scary, I know, and I've second guessed a couple of people's reactions more times than I've dared to count. One person I told said she understood, and that who I am didn't change a damn thing between us (she was a very good friend)... but actions speak louder than words, and I haven't heard from her in several months. Not a word. We used to talk fairly frequently but now... nothing. And the distance seemed to come about right after I came out to her.
Now, was that because I came out to her? Or was it just coincidence?
As much as I would like to hope it was the latter... my gut instinct and intuition tell me that it was the former. And that makes me sad. But... since I don't know for sure, I think the best thing is to wait until, or if, I hear from her again.
*sigh*
Anyway, I guess my point is that it's easy to assume that what people do or don't do is based solely on us and how they feel about us, but the truth is that there could have been any number of reasons for why she didn't call.
Have you been in contact since then and asked her why she didn't call?
