So I finally made an appointment with Counseling Services. As of Wednesday morning at 9:15, I'll be on the actual path toward testosterone. Even if they can't help me out, maybe they can refer me to some other counselor, or an endo who uses informed consent.
It was pretty funny...I loitered out in the hall for an uncomfortably long time, doing the whole, "I'll count to ten and then I'll go in" thing, and the "take deep breaths" thing, and none of it was really helping. Then, I heard a woman say, "Could you get that door for me?" I looked up, and she was standing there with her arms full of cardboard boxes, and so I said, "Sure!" and opened the door to Counseling Services for her. She walked in, and then I peered in myself, and strolled in after her. I should really thank her...she helped me more than she knows. She works there, though. How cool would it be if she ended up being my counselor?
Both of the receptionists smiled at me, which immediately put me at ease. When the one I went to asked me for my name, I managed to say, "Like...my legal name or just...a...name?" She said, "The name you're registered here under." but then was all apologetic after I told her, and was like, "I just had to look you up in the system, so I needed...yeah."
So we got the appointment all set up, and I feel really accomplished. There's no way I'm wimping out this time, and I promise to let you guys know how it goes. Now to just...ponder what I'm going to do. Should I be up-front, and let her know I'm looking for a T letter? I mean...even if she says no one there can write one for me, that won't keep me from continuing to go. I figure it'd only be slightly rude if I asked about it, she said she couldn't help, and then I just, like...got up and walked out. Hah..
What do you guys think about the direct approach?
