If you don't remember me, I used to post here years ago - every now and then I come back and touch bases.
I haven't been doing much lately, except working. About 5 years ago, after I finished with college, I moved to the Seattle area, and got a job as a consultant for a software firm. Unfortunately the software that the firm created was primarily terminal emulation - a dying market - so for most of the past 5 years I watched as all but 5 all of the 200+ employees I shared a building with, were laid off. A few weeks ago I was also laid off. It says something that I lasted as long as I did.
The good news is that I've been moonlighting, trying to build a web design company in my spare time - and my little company has grown enough to support me. We're a small company still - I only have 5 employees, but we are a great team. The funny thing is that - now that I'm not working at my "day job" anymore, and committing a full-time effort to my own business, I'm not sure how I was ever able to do both jobs...
Somehow I have to believe that God was looking after me - and that this was the right thing for me at this time in my life.
So - I haven't had much time for other things in my life - unfortunately that includes love.
But who knows what the future holds now that I'm only commiting my time to one job.
I wish I had more to talk about regarding gender - it seems like changes always make me more introspective, so naturally I've thought about gender issues lately. (Which is probably why I revisited Susan's again...) I asked a really close friend a few days ago whether she thought I was "well adjusted." She said that given what I've been through, she thought I was doing very well. I'm not sure if that's good or bad - she knows too much about me.
For anyone who wonders, dilating sucks. Most of the time I forget, until about a month goes by, and then I remember. My doctor says that I really have to keep it up - and to be honest, it really bothers me that I have to keep doing that - it sort of reminds me that I'm "different." I've never let it go too long - I'm too afraid to I guess.
Geez another thing - has anyone else gained a lot of weight after being on HRT for a long time? I'm not sure if it's my age or the hormones, but I am really struggling to lose weight. I feel like if I were to just *look* at the scale again it's going to cost me another pound.
I started working out - I joined a Taekwondo class - and I'm now a "recommended black" - and it helped me to keep my weight stable, but I didn't lose it like I wanted to. I have truly enjoyed the martial arts, though. My instructor also teaches filipino martial arts (arnis) and even though it's a bit more agressive than I like, I have taken it too. It's scary what you can do with a stick or two...
Well, I'd better go for now - someone wants me to jack into the matrix (mxo).
Take care all,
Theresa
