Well, it's good that you found some actions that give you the feeling that you can be your true self. It's hard IRL, but there are small things you can do for yourself, like hang around with others on the internet and get people to know you as your true identity.
The important thing is that if you start feeling boxed in, there's always some action you can take to give yourself some release. Never allow yourself to be shut down.
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