MTF's...Have you ever fallen romantically in love with a male, a female or both?

[cindybc]

Hi Postoplesbian, It does happen, I met my partner online, actually right here on Susan's chat 7 years ago.

I had already surrendered and accepted the fact that being trans that I may as well settle in for a singles life for the rest of my life.

And as you say, I didn't know anything about loving myself, let alone another. Well I had a lot of love in me but not the kind of love you need to have in a relationship. That kind of had been beaten out of me many years back, so I had resigned to living the rest of my life alone.

But since I still had the desire, a desire I had always had for as long as I can remember. I accepted and resigned myself to be whom I felt to be within, I corrected that problem with SRS.

My mate Wing Walker taught me how to love again and we got married in Ontario Canada 5 years ago and have lived together for 4 years. It can happen and it does. Don't let anyone kill or steal your dream.

Cindy 

[Janet_Girl]

Cindy,

You give hope to an old broad like me, then.  Maybe someday I WILL find someone.  ~sighs ~

Janet

[Vexing]

Cindy,

You give hope to an old broad like me, then.  Maybe someday I WILL find someone.  ~sighs ~

I'm certain you will. 

[tinkerbell]

Hi Tink, well considering the partner you have I must say you have a good taste in men also.

Cindy

*giggles* Oh I know! He's the most handsome man alive, but his heart is even more beautiful than his physical appearance!

tink

[cindybc]

My honey was ill today, has chest cold and fever.

Cindy

[Shana A]

You hit a lot of wrong notes learning to play guitar.

There are even more wrong notes when learning violin... or trombone 

Z

[tekla]

In fact, the first few years on a violin, they are ALL wrong notes.

[Selene]

I've had two serious girl friends, but they just couldn't handle the craziness that is me. I'm still good friends with both though.

[cindybc]

Hi Selene

Yeh well I think people thinking we are or were weird is nothing unusual in this neck of the woods. Cheer up sis, you look gorgeous and your young and it's wonderful to have friends.   

Welcome to the club....er Susan's

Well my partner and I got over that cold, as usual I was only feeling tired and achedy for a week and now I feel better, I still heal pretty good. joims don't like me   

Cindy

[fae_reborn]

I've only fallen romantically in love once with another woman.  That was with my high-school sweetheart, and that was nearly 6 years ago...I've only been attracted to and pinned after other women, never men...but I do have to echo Hypathia's sentiment:

I sometimes lust after men merely because I desire their cocks in me. But I cannot work up any emotional devotion to them the way I can toward women. I just care about their cocks but not about their hearts.

[Rachael]

Im sortof the same... I love men... i love my boyfriend, i love sex with men, but the idea of sex with women interests me... but i cant see myself loving a woman. Its something i mostly ignore as id feel aweful if i were with another woman, seeing her perfect body and my broken freakish one.

[Shana A]

In fact, the first few years on a violin, they are ALL wrong notes.

Yes, and even if you magically play the note in proper pitch, it still sounds scratchy and awful 

Z

[tekla]

Hey Z, what's the difference between a violin and a cello?  The cello burns longer when you put it on the fire.

[Shana A]

Hey Z, what's the difference between a violin and a cello?  The cello burns longer when you put it on the fire.

OK Kat,

Did you know that the violin and viola are actually the same size?

They don't look that way because the violinist's head is bigger

Z

[Hypatia]

Im sortof the same... I love men... i love my boyfriend, i love sex with men, but the idea of sex with women interests me... but i cant see myself loving a woman. Its something i mostly ignore as id feel aweful if i were with another woman, seeing her perfect body and my broken freakish one.

Awww.... (((hugs)))
I get over that issue because my girlfriend is always affirming to me what a beautiful woman I am (especially in bed) and how much she loves my body. We work around the not-so-good zone and focus on my good points (both of them)...

[Rachael]

Meh, i just feel so bloke shaped, big and ugly, i hate my body with firey passion...

[cindybc]

I still have old photos of you and I think you look like a very beautiful young lady

Cindy

[Rachael]

Beautiful?? hahahaha, good one...

i just wish i had some self confidence to even think i looked like an ugly girl..

[Hypatia]

What happened? I remember you with tons of confidence only a few months ago. And everyone around here is unanimous that you're a hot babe.

[Rachael]

Nobody here has ever met me... photos lie. And ive never had confidence.. not really... I have a nice shield i put up that looks a lot like confidence, but thanks to my family, ive lost any ounce i had.. its my major issue... i cant dress girly because im terrified someone will clock me and shout 'lawl ->-bleeped-<-' i feel bad going out at all... im not quite the superwoman/egotryrant people see me as.