No I don't feel like a freak, never have, other people might think that I am but that's their problem.
And I'll be honest I am full time now and work as a woman, wear my wig at all times to go out now, as I can't grow my hair due to MPB (male pattern baldness) quite severe actually. I don't wear my wig at home as I live alone anyway, and my hair is getting quite long but like I say too thin on top to go without a wig. But I don't feel too bad now, hormones are kicking in quite well now, breasts are growing well, skin softening, body hair reducing, and face seems to be softening in features a bit now and that's after nearly a year on mones.
I just feel like I am becoming the woman that I was always meant to be, sure I wish I had transitioned younger and maybe testosterone wouldn't have polluted my body so much over the years, and masculinised me to an extent that it has, but that's life you can't turn back the clock, I am what I am a woman with fairly strong masculine traits particulary in my face, but well I count my myself lucky in some ways, as for surgery well I live in England and can't afford to pay for it, so I am reliant on a NHS health system, that will hopefully pay for it, we pay into a system here, but it will be at least 2 to 3 years before I can get SRS, that's if they agree to fund to the op. Luckily for me I am not strongly body dysmorhic so can live it for the time being, like I say the hormones are helping, changes are happening, and any labido I had has pretty much gone now anyway thank god.
