In A Weeks Time, I Won't Be Able To Get On For A Long Time!

[Inphyy]

Ah... And by resources they mean lobotomy tools. Gotcha. *hug

Sigh...She is trying to play the guilt trip on them, that's she's worried about my safety, that she does accept me, etc...Blah! Blah! Garbage.

[deviousxen]

Sigh...She is trying to play the guilt trip on them, that's she's worried about my safety, that she does accept me, etc...Blah! Blah! Garbage.

Don't let yourself be guilt tripped. This is all medical. It needs to be done. It is not a "Choice" no matter how much they beat it into your head. Its the same as being blamed and not believed in when you are puking and say you have appendicitis... Only that lasts for years.

I was a little at first with my mom... About the money situation, and her not wanting me to start til I was out of college. BS like that. But ultimately health in general is more important than anything else... If you have a major health issue, even if it throws you into debt, go to the hospital. Same concept here. At the rate I was going I was feeling more and more permanently damaged and gone. Doing this wasn't about suicide per se or anything, but it saved parts of my mind I thought would never come back. Its health, so once again, no guilt over it.

Also, if your mom never told you to go outside because of meteorites and hail storms, yes try your best to put up with it until you could leave... But just never BELIEVE that crap. Be tactful, yes. Maybe suck up a little until you can get out of there... And, If you really are gonna get "Help" from some people, maybe they'll have the sense to see that it is your mom who has serious issues, probably even more so than you... My mom does the same thing, only has a pride/self righteous complex where she'll demand she talk to my shrink, yet she wont take a SINGLE pill or talk to anyone.

A satisfying life is very rarely safe and sheltered. Don't let what she's implying shrink your world... Because that happened a lot to me, and my grandma got it too. She basically smoked parliaments in her beautiful house until she got breast cancer again and died. Her anxieties were not totally under control and her life became her house, even though she had so many connections. Seemingly afraid of doing anything outside of her living room and house, it may have actually killed her, ironically. When all you have in your life are porcelain cheetahs and cigarettes, it probably worsened a habit and it may be possible that "Shelter" and "Safety" Actually killed her in the end. She knew Walt Disney and we just sold a few prints from him that were signed. Her husband was the editor of Newsweek I think it was for a while.

I'm kinda redundant but its just food for thought I guess

[Inphyy]

Don't let yourself be guilt tripped. This is all medical. It needs to be done. It is not a "Choice" no matter how much they beat it into your head. Its the same as being blamed and not believed in when you are puking and say you have appendicitis... Only that lasts for years.

I was a little at first with my mom... About the money situation, and her not wanting me to start til I was out of college. BS like that. But ultimately health in general is more important than anything else... If you have a major health issue, even if it throws you into debt, go to the hospital. Same concept here. At the rate I was going I was feeling more and more permanently damaged and gone. Doing this wasn't about suicide per se or anything, but it saved parts of my mind I thought would never come back. Its health, so once again, no guilt over it.

Also, if your mom never told you to go outside because of meteorites and hail storms, yes try your best to put up with it until you could leave... But just never BELIEVE that crap. Be tactful, yes. Maybe suck up a little until you can get out of there... And, If you really are gonna get "Help" from some people, maybe they'll have the sense to see that it is your mom who has serious issues, probably even more so than you... My mom does the same thing, only has a pride/self righteous complex where she'll demand she talk to my shrink, yet she wont take a SINGLE pill or talk to anyone.

A satisfying life is very rarely safe and sheltered. Don't let what she's implying shrink your world... Because that happened a lot to me, and my grandma got it too. She basically smoked parliaments in her beautiful house until she got breast cancer again and died. Her anxieties were not totally under control and her life became her house, even though she had so many connections. Seemingly afraid of doing anything outside of her living room and house, it may have actually killed her, ironically. When all you have in your life are porcelain cheetahs and cigarettes, it probably worsened a habit and it may be possible that "Shelter" and "Safety" Actually killed her in the end. She knew Walt Disney and we just sold a few prints from him that were signed. Her husband was the editor of Newsweek I think it was for a while.

I'm kinda redundant but its just food for thought I guess

My mom guilt tripped the school, saying that she thought I was going to get bullied for wearing a dress...And etc. etc.; So the school said if I go in a dress tomorrow I would be in violation...Which is bull...Cause other girls wear dresses. So what I am going to do is call the Transgender Law Center and talk to them about the school, cause by law Schools can't do that to kids! So I hope I gave them what they
re going to get back.

[yabby]

My mom guilt tripped the school, saying that she thought I was going to get bullied for wearing a dress.

i don't know your school and i did not meet you face 2 face, but i doubt you'll not get bullied if you don't wear a dress. 

if someone will bully you they'll do it with you wearing a dress or not, i doubt your body language is masculine. I never ever ever wear girl cloth to university or school but try to guess why i broke from school twice? i would be happy if it was only bullying, just be yourself because not being yourself and hopping people will be nice rarely work.

[deviousxen]

i don't know your school and i did not meet you face 2 face, but i doubt you'll not get bullied if you don't wear a dress. 

if someone will bully you they'll do it with you wearing a dress or not, i doubt your body language is masculine. I never ever ever wear girl cloth to university or school but try to guess why i broke from school twice? i would be happy if it was only bullying, just be yourself because not being yourself and hopping people will be nice rarely work.

TRUTH. Even with what I said before. Truth.

[fae_reborn]

People are allowed to drop-out if they want to and by premission from the parent, they can.

Hun, don't drop out of school, that is probably the worst thing you could do.  I know it sucks, but if you want to go to college for art, stay in school.  Stick out the next two years and graduate, anyway you can.  Again, if you can go stay with friends who are supportive and willing to help you out, then do that.  From what you're saying, I don't see your mom coming around anytime soon, if ever.

[Inphyy]

I went to school today and talked with the couns. they were alright...But it seemed they were only half-way there...I'm just going to have to stick it out.

[Viv Juniper]

I went to school today and talked with the couns. they were alright...But it seemed they were only half-way there...I'm just going to have to stick it out.

I'm new to these boards and have been following this thread with sympathy to your situation. I'm relieved that you are going to "stick it out".  There is nothing truer that the saying "time heals all wounds".  Just continue to get an education (get those grades back up  ), and remind yourself that you know who you truly are and that no one can change that...love yourself...remain positive.  You can get through this. *gives a big hug to you*

[Inphyy]

I'm new to these boards and have been following this thread with sympathy to your situation. I'm relieved that you are going to "stick it out".  There is nothing truer that the saying "time heals all wounds".  Just continue to get an education (get those grades back up  ), and remind yourself that you know who you truly are and that no one can change that...love yourself...remain positive.  You can get through this. *gives a big hug to you*

Time isn't on my side...The more I wait the more that T will ruin my body and make it harder to keep "passing"...

[deviousxen]

Time isn't on my side...The more I wait the more that T will ruin my body and make it harder to keep "passing"...

Not to mention that you're pretty and I totally envy you in some ways. D: ALthough... Even post T you'd still be pretty I think...

I do know what you feel like though *Hug

[Inphyy]

Not to mention that you're pretty and I totally envy you in some ways. D: ALthough... Even post T you'd still be pretty I think...

I do know what you feel like though *Hug

I already have facial hair, etc. etc. But since I am white lol, It's blond so it can't be seen and if you know this or not even genetic girls get facial hair.
I think since I am almost 17 puberty is already over -- But for me, I don't eat meat. Meat has hormones, male hormones...I eat more of fruit and vegs. So that's why I still have a girly voice and puberty didn't bash me as much. Either way I hardly eat at all -- So I have a skinny, femme body!


So by the time, I end up getting female hormones it'll just be a few steps. My music teacher thinks I am a girl! Ahaha...And we've been in school for two weeks!

[deviousxen]

I already have facial hair, etc. etc. But since I am white lol, It's blond so it can't be seen and if you know this or not even genetic girls get facial hair.
I think since I am almost 17 puberty is already over -- But for me, I don't eat meat. Meat has hormones, male hormones...I eat more of fruit and vegs. So that's why I still have a girly voice and puberty didn't bash me as much. Either way I hardly eat at all -- So I have a skinny, femme body!


So by the time, I end up getting female hormones it'll just be a few steps. My music teacher thinks I am a girl! Ahaha...And we've been in school for two weeks!

Hope so kid. Try like... Saw palmetto in small amounts or something, and pomegranate and all of those things. Look up fruits and veggies that actually do things to block T or counteract it.
Although my body produces stupid amounts of T anyway... But it might be more effective for you.

Having more blond hairs at 17 is so lucky ; _ ;

... I got EXTREMELY hairy at like... 15. A lot of it is gone now but now, out of nowhere, there are thousands of white hairs everywhere now!

You've got a less... STUPID body than mine, lol.

[Inphyy]

Hope so kid. Try like... Saw palmetto in small amounts or something, and pomegranate and all of those things. Look up fruits and veggies that actually do things to block T or counteract it.
Although my body produces stupid amounts of T anyway... But it might be more effective for you.

Having more blond hairs at 17 is so lucky ; _ ;

... I got EXTREMELY hairy at like... 15. A lot of it is gone now but now, out of nowhere, there are thousands of white hairs everywhere now!

You've got a less... STUPID body than mine, lol.

Aha!!! hmmm...I will look that up, I hope there is foods that block T! I do know that there is some kind of dessert bar or something that has small amounts of estrogen in t, moon bar...something wack like that, my brain isn't on my side right now! x.x

[deviousxen]

Aha!!! hmmm...I will look that up, I hope there is foods that block T! I do know that there is some kind of dessert bar or something that has small amounts of estrogen in t, moon bar...something wack like that, my brain isn't on my side right now! x.x

Most foods have some affect, but some contain certain amounts of molecules that are similar to estrogens, T, and Progesterone. Think of it this way... There's always been a reason why urban girls have GINORMOUS chests. Its cause they went through puberty at like 10 cause of school lunch, that because of its bad quality, had more hormones.

But those are usually bad ones... A lot of things are anti androgenic I hear, and they're in most energy drinks and at the grocery store. You gotta be careful with them like anything else, but altering your diet and variety a little could be good.

Taking in multiple foods that keep you clean, antioxidized, and less warped and twisted by T...

[Inphyy]

Most foods have some affect, but some contain certain amounts of molecules that are similar to estrogens, T, and Progesterone. Think of it this way... There's always been a reason why urban girls have GINORMOUS chests. Its cause they went through puberty at like 10 cause of school lunch, that because of its bad quality, had more hormones.

But those are usually bad ones... A lot of things are anti androgenic I hear, and they're in most energy drinks and at the grocery store. You gotta be careful with them like anything else, but altering your diet and variety a little could be good.

Taking in multiple foods that keep you clean, antioxidized, and less warped and twisted by T...

ody actually needs to have some junk food to keep everything in balance--Yes, you can actually be to healthy.
Normally I eat bananas, apples and peaches; Water and every-nw-and-then diet soda, I eat bread and sometimes I eat meat in small portions cause you have to have protein in your body! And every once in a blue moon, I eat some junk food cause your body actually needs to have some junk food to keep everything in balance--Yes, you can actually be over healthy.

[deviousxen]

ody actually needs to have some junk food to keep everything in balance--Yes, you can actually be to healthy.
Normally I eat bananas, apples and peaches; Water and every-nw-and-then diet soda, I eat bread and sometimes I eat meat in small portions cause you have to have protein in your body! And every once in a blue moon, I eat some junk food cause your body actually needs to have some junk food to keep everything in balance--Yes, you can actually be over healthy.

If we didn't have so many chemicals and crap in foods then there really wouldn't BE junk food.

Its about moderation, this is right. As for diet soda... To hell with that stuff. It gives you cancer and is disgusting. Just drink normal soda on occasion and TEEAAAAAAAAAAA

[Inphyy]

If we didn't have so many chemicals and crap in foods then there really wouldn't BE junk food.

Its about moderation, this is right. As for diet soda... To hell with that stuff. It gives you cancer and is disgusting. Just drink normal soda on occasion and TEEAAAAAAAAAAA

LOL! My last post got so twisted; I am lost now I am not even going to try and fix it! Aha.
Diet soda is good, If in moderation; Most on the time it's water...Tea = Bad stained teeth

[deviousxen]

LOL! My last post got so twisted; I am lost now I am not even going to try and fix it! Aha.
Diet soda is good, If in moderation; Most on the time it's water...Tea = Bad stained teeth

Tea thing is a good point , however, diet soda is NOT at all good for you. Lol. Except it has Xylitol, which is good dental wise, and horrible otherwise.

Ohhhh noxious chemicaaallllsss lol

[Inphyy]

Tea thing is a good point , however, diet soda is NOT at all good for you. Lol. Except it has Xylitol, which is good dental wise, and horrible otherwise.

Ohhhh noxious chemicaaallllsss lol

Internet is gone on the 22nd and today is the 21st, so I have 1 more day! 

[Chloe]

Just as the title says, my mom is disconnnecting the internet---Because she says that I don't deserve having the internet and that I shouldn't be talking to other people (Including Transgendered people) cause that would not be helping with my "disease."

*sigh* i feel for yer situation Inhyy, know that there are many kids just like you and I wish there was more i could do. I know you do not want to hear hear this but losing the internet is your doing, probably the best thing for you because *talking about it* IS NOT GONNA HELP YA ANYWAY, you need to get on with your life knowing all too well now what it is that you need to do! Reflecting back on what i was doing when i was your age we had no internet to speak of and while xdressing in HS all the time dating a gay boyfriend who still luvs me to this very day I am now 53 and still, once again transitioning as we speak and happy to have "survived" it, just be alive.

School bus driver just waved at me, after a year my kids (age 9 & 11) come home this week and lord knows i have plenty to do too and *yapping here* is definitely not one of them, you have time and will be just fine! Yer mother / parents don't owe you a transition and you need to get your own life in order first, like I said make life easy on yerself and CHILL FOR NOW and we do expect you to KEEP IN TOUCH,

We Luv Ya, You Will Find A Way! 

(ps: you 'ave my email, my private website address? Kids & I can fly the world for free, drop a line when yer 18 or 'ave a life you will call yer own! i suppose you could consider me a "classic TS" in the sense that I always wanted a family, don't be so quick to transition until your truly sure you know what you want 'cause yer "identity" is NOT going anywhere, you can still "be all you can be" now even without all the "entrapments" yer mother is so highly objecting to! lol Funny how life has a way of coming full circle, I am a parent who's transitioning and my kids while accepting, ok with it - within limits - would prefer I didn't too? Point is -> yes you LOOK GREAT but don't be stupid, start using yer HEAD! Don't let TS or anything rule you and take charge of it instead but Ya need yer mom for now, give BOTH yourself & her a break!)