I don't want to hijack the thread too much.
Janet:
Best of luck in the surgery! I'm sure everything will be fine, after all we do this to our pets all the time!
I'm sure you'll be up and around in no time!
Kate:
Waiting for FFS was like waiting for Christmas. For me, it seemed like the clock stopped and everything took *forever*!
When I scheduled the SRS, I was much more zen in my approach. It was, to me, just a series of steps I had to take. Schedule this, order that, get the letters out, fight with the insurance company (again, and again, and again). The time went pretty quickly, though I never took my eyes off the clock. But I felt it was like the last piece of the puzzle, the icing on the cake. Important, but when compared to all the rest of the things I've been through, not *that* big of a deal.
Then I woke up after surgery...
Somewhere deep inside my brain, I felt a switch flip from M -> F. I was overcome with a feeling of completeness and serenity I had never known before.
I realized then that I had taken the biggest step in my life. While I could never have de-transition prior to SRS, the final bridge had been burned. Everything I had done up to that point was all about how I presented myself to society, all about someone else, not about *me*. When I completed my SRS I completed myself. No one (well very few) would ever see what I had done, but from that point on, I would *always* know!
You'll do fine, Kate! Try not to break your leg or anything like that for now, but there shouldn't be any problems.
BTW: If you mentioned it before, I've lost it. Where and when (specifically) will you be doing the deed? Just curious...
-Sandy
