I (tenetively) plan on transitioning, but not all the way. I definitely identify as genderqueer/androgyne, not as FtM, and I want my body to reflect that. My plan is to take T short-term (I don't know for how long, though, probably a year or two-- I'll figure that out once I have access to a professional I can talk through details with) for the changes in voice/body hair/etc, but I don't intend to have top surgery (and certainly not bottom surgery), because my body shape in and of itself doesn't cause any particular dysphoria. I do very occassionally bind, but that's often more of a bandaid-fix for dysphorias I can't deal with quite as readily (such as my voice).
I guess what I want is for my body to reflect what I feel, in part because there is a painful disconnect between how I see and hear myself in my mind and on the pages of my sketchbooks and journals, and the way I see and hear myself in the mirror and when I speak... but also in part because it makes what I feel real in the rest of the world's eyes. maybe that part wouldn't be a factor if I lived in a different time and place, but in American in 2010 it's hard for it not to be a factor. The disconnect between mind and body is far too painfully apparent when the entire world around you only acknowledges your body when they speak to you and about you. Gender (which for most people is synonymous with sex) is engrained in everything, right down to our grammar, and it's hard to survive that when your sex doesn't match your gender.
