As a political virgin, I was so starry eyed to be a part, though a vanishingly small part, of the Obama campaign.
I worked the phone banks, I knocked on doors, I got coffee. I cried at the acceptance speech.
The president appeared very approachable, very worldly, yet of the common man. He ran on the idea that he would build bridges and multi-task.
Yet the bridge to the LGBT group is still under construction with a lot of verbiage being "Just wait, but please give a donation." And his ability to multi-task is not quite enough to get to spend time on our issues.
I am no longer a starry eyed virgin and know how very true the saying is "There are two things you should never watch, the making of sausage and legislation."
I have become a very cynical person as far as legislation goes. Under GB-XLI's reign of error, at least you knew where you stood. He hated us. So you knew better than to get your hopes up. Many argued with Barney the dinosaur that even attempting ENDA 2007 was stupid because it could never reach the presidents desk, and if it did he would veto it and there was not a 3/5 majority to overturn it.
Since then I have had my hopes dashed so often by Obama, Pelosi, Frank, the Democratic party in general, and the apathetic public that I really feel that it is pointless to even try. All I am is one lone crazy transwoman yelling in the night.
rand paul, sara pallin, bill oreilly, and rush libaugh are going to run the table with the spineless democrats this November and our chances for real change for us will be gone for another decade at least.
Like the jilted virgin who had been turned out for a one night stand by an sweet talking Lothario, I look at my broken promises and empty bed and console myself that at least it was fun for a bit. I am older, and wiser.
ENDA, DADT and DOMA repeal, and any other legislation that isn't popular, but "The right thing to do" will NOT get done before midterms, nor before the end of Obama's first term, and I am bloody damn sure that our "elected representatives" will have some other damn silly excuse come 2013 as to why we need to wait just a little bit longer. Then of course after that we're into the 2016 election cycle and we're off to the races once again.
But this time without me.
The current round of "Yes it is/No it isn't" really is tiring to hear. It really is just "No it isn't and please give me money." Sorry, this little GAY-tm is closed.
-Sandy
