help...?

[jbys]

hello, i'm new here, i'm younger and i'm female but i want to be seen as male.

i suffer from depression and social anxiety.

since i was 6 i always enjoyed talking and playing with boys, i used to play soccer a lot with them but then i started noticed my teacher's bad comments about me and the same with children's parents...i moved from that school and went to a new one, i never acted the same again because i was afraid of getting rejected.

right now i try not to change a lot for others, i try to act like what i am with other children but around adults i act like a girl or whatever, i have 4 friends, the only people i really enjoy hanging out with and talking to them, we share common interests, three are male and one is female, the girl is my best friend. anyways i like videogames a lot, i listen to hard rock/rock, i play electric guitar and acoustic, i enjoy sports, and i use men clothes, and i'm very afraid of other's comments about me and i just want to fit, but in my opinion i can't fit well if i'm female and i like "men" stuff, i told my parents about this but they just said "it's a phase, you're immature still" comments, i go to the therapist and psychiatrist, both of them say that i'm mature and even my mom told me i was the most mature of my siblings, i want to fit to be myself.

i really want to be seen as male, not as a transgender. i suppose you'll get my point, when i was younger i didn't know any of this was posible but i really want it now, my mother always get mad at me when i want men clothes and sometimes because of my interests.

so i'd like to get suggestions to what should i do, am i really immature to make this choice?

[confused]

hi
i understand where you come from , as what you said is somehow similar to me ,being 'talked about' when i was just being myself , trying to be more like to my birth gender and acting all the way about it just to fit in . i also used to feel that i wanted to be born in what i feel the right sex rather than transitioning , anyway , first step i would say is asking a therapist about it , you said you are already seeing one , did you tell them what you just said? what did they say?
also , hanging around this forum is pretty informative about everything regarding the subject , it might even help you to make a decision and will be helpful eitherways weather you transition or not

some people who suffer from GID choose to transition and some don't it depends on their own prespective of the pros and cons

anyway , welcome and good luck

[aydan_boy]

Who the ->-bleeped-<- told you it was immature to be like this? To choose this way of life? I get what you're saying completely. Its a hard way, not all that common, but what the hell.
Welcome to Susan's. I'm kinda a newcomer as well, but i can tell you this site is a hundred times better than any psychologist. 
Have you clearly came out to your parents yet? Or just kinda in a beat around the bush way? Cuz addressing how you feel through and through is the best way to start. Its a long road, and only you can decide if you want to follow it. Anyways, good luck, and welcome. 

(Ps: Sorry for any of the not-so-nice language. Feeling kinda like an ass right now )

[cynthialee]

Welcome to the group. I am pretty sure that you will find that the majority of us have been dealing with GID all the way back in our youth. Also there are a lot of younger people in the same boat as you.
One does not require maturity to KNOW in their heart that they are in the wrong body.
I figured it out at 9. Yet it is still here. I would guess 33 years is a long time to be 'in a phaze'.
Untreated it tends to get stronger and more pronounced as the years go by.
I dont know what would be the best course of action for you only you can know that.
Good luck and best of wishes.
And once again welcome to the group, it can become like a second family around here if you let it. Alot of open arms and hearts here.