re-apprasing my place here at "susans.org"

[scarboroughfair]

People here may think I'm crazy or disillusioned. I may be for that matter!

I really want to start contributing and working as a team to find answers and solve problems. We get affected emotionally everyday, but we need happiness to live life to it's fullest!

I guess I'm re introducing myself. Hi, I'm scarboroughfair!

I never really took this transgender thing seriously. But now I'm on a mission. There has to be answers to absolution! I have been inspired by folks here and I hope to return that inspiration to the community. For some of us this is a daily battle. We get up and are already at war. There has to be a balance and silence of the heart.

In my opinion we need to lose the "labels". Not on the forum boards, but amongst ourselves. We are all human and for what ever reason we battle and fight for things that in the end may or may not bring happiness to us as individuals.

My latest conclusion on transexual/transgender dysphoria is unrealistic ideals and expectations. Most of us I feel are trying to fight forces that cannot be fought. WE cannot change people's perception of us. We can physically, but inside we know what we was born as physically as an awesome blogger I know put it. I myself can live with that in everyday interaction but not in dating where I have to lie and say I was born a girl.

So that all depends on your own conscience how far you want to go in deceiving people and finding happiness.

I can get away with deceiving the general public, but not dating. It's like a double edged sword, you live a lie either way when it comes down to it. Of course this value is dependent on you conscience. I'm not saying or preaching it's wrong or right. I'm giving insight as to your own survival to know your limits!

Your limits are when you can't live with yourself when you've went too far. It's when your conscience bothers you that you may be "peaking" out and need to make an adjustment and bargain with your mind. You have to love and fully accept yourself to be happy and attract others to you in life!

I believe there is a guy out there for me as a transgender. I believe it is possible to be loved for who I am. But if I'm miserable, that guy might walk right by me. I'm very upbeat and sometimes like a fool I bust a dance move! lol
I want my happiness and inner light to do the talking for me, not what I don't have. I have to love me for me now. If we make our happiness conditional we may never find it. You have to love yourself for what you are now to be successful in the future! This means to atleast explore your mind and become more self aware. All good things will come, but only if you believe. Don't expect! Just go out there in life and have a good time as yourself!

[MillieB]

We get up and are already at war.

Not me, I need a bowl of Rice Krispies and a cup of Coffee before I'm ready to go to war with anyone

I to think that describing yourself as 'A transgender' is a little strange  and more than a little dehumanising (and as vexing has said, grammatically incorrect) Surely what you are first and foremost is a human being, the rest is just things about you and I would imagine that being transgender is only one of them. I'm transsexual, I'm also short, slightly pudgy and fairly outgoing. You would look at me rather strangely if I came up to you and said 'Hi I'm Millie and I'm a slightly pudgy

Take care M x

[cynthialee]

I am with Scarbourogh on the gramer thingy.
I hate when someone plays gramer police.
As long as we basicaly understand what a person is saying there should be no need to control that person via their language.
It just comes off as petty and it doesn't advance the cause at all. I get resentful and will start to use the phrasology that peeved the other person just to be an ass at that point.
I think that we need to just mellow out and not worry about eachother's words so much.
hugz
Cynthia Lee

[aisha]

word! im just happy all of us are alive and doing things... i dont understand it myself.. who knows in this day and age, eh?
i just try to live simply, unfortunately its my lot that i stand out when im doing the stuff that really gives me joy and bliss... basically i like tto get really into things.. right now im kind of doing a personal wunjo festival.. also to herald this time of year which is a powerful time always, the end of spring and beginning of summer i love having festivals.. or trying to, festivals of wildness.. so far only me and flo go.. usually.. its hard to get other people, maybe one day itll work out, until then, something about these words, eh?
is it the fact that they are here, in this place, im not sure what to say.. all of us are beautiful.. the more i really look here i see that, thats the great thing... you can really get a sense of someones spirit... not in a judgmental sense or a superficial sense, but to really feel that... in someone else, in so many, thats powerful, because i don't do it so much, myself... this is a great site and its lesson.. sometimes i wonder is it covered with religion? idk.. i find it hard to explain myself... im trying though
its awesome, i dont know why we are all here, at a certain points its too much, i just wanna live a simple life, be happy... i am happy i mean, im thankful...
but wawawawa
nori nori
eh?
you've just been around.. and you've gotten to know this place.. all of us.. its interesting i dont know what it means.. here i am going in circles...
thats what it is going in circles
makes you like a moon, a sun too spinning spinning
turning turning

[MillieB]

Bad grammar I am perfectly okay with. The dehumanisation of people, and the defining of people as a part of their personaity/identity I'm not. It is exactly the same argument that there is with refering to someone as a black.

Secondly, I do not apprieciate comments like 'We all live a lie', I don't, speak for yourself! You certainly don't speak for me. I tried to make a constructive comment in a fairly light hearted way, but you have continued in your arrogant generalisations and insulting language towards all trans people (I don't really care how you define yourself at this point) The sugestion that all trangendered people are unhappy is ridiculous as is the suggestion that we are all living a physical lie. 

Cynthialee, I agree that bad grammar should not be an issue (It's not exactly my strong suit) and doesn't matter so long as we basically understand what someone is saying, my problem is that I do understand what Scarborough is saying and although I respect her right to say it about herself, I think that her generalisations about trans people are insulting to the wider community.

[FairyGirl]

Bad grammar I am perfectly okay with. The dehumanisation of people, and the defining of people as a part of their personaity/identity I'm not. It is exactly the same argument that there is with refering to someone as a black.

Secondly, I do not apprieciate comments like 'We all live a lie', I don't, speak for yourself! You certainly don't speak for me. I tried to make a constructive comment in a fairly light hearted way, but you have continued in your arrogant generalisations and insulting language towards all trans people (I don't really care how you define yourself at this point) The sugestion that all trangendered people are unhappy is ridiculous as is the suggestion that we are all living a physical lie. 

Cynthialee, I agree that bad grammar should not be an issue (It's not exactly my strong suit) and doesn't matter so long as we basically understand what someone is saying, my problem is that I do understand what Scarborough is saying and although I respect her right to say it about herself, I think that her generalisations about trans people are insulting to the wider community.

Agree.