Weird things that make you dysphoric...

[Espenoah]

Are there any things that irk you or make you dysphoric that you think is kind of strange?

For example, mine is shopping. It doesn't even have to be clothes shopping. Whenever I go shopping for extended periods of time, I get dysphoric and ornery. If I'm not in and out, I get really ticked.

Anyone got little quirky things like that?

[Roro]

Watching anime makes me really dysphoric. So does binding, actually. I feel less masculine with something pressing on my chest, acting as a constant reminder that it's not how I want it.

I'm usually fine shopping unless someone I find really attractive is nearby. Then I feel like I just want to hide under a rock somewhere. It's hard to be a gay dude when you don't pass at all. I just feel like I look like a butch lesbian... which would be fine if I were one. So when girls hit on me it makes me feel even worse. When guys hit on me it makes me feel terrible as well because they don't see me as a guy, just a weird girl in boy clothes.

I'm sure it's not unusual, but being called ma'am really gets under my skin.

[Between Names]

Getting dressed makes me dysphoric.  I haven't worn jeans in about a week because I don't want to see how my butt looks in them.  Instead I'm just lounging around in shorts and showing off my hairy legs, which makes me feel better.

Shopping makes me dysphoric too.  I get frustrated because of how I look in the mirror trying things on.  Especially when I keep trying on things that don't fit.

[Espenoah]

Instead I'm just lounging around in shorts and showing off my hairy legs, which makes me feel better.

What a coincidence, I've been doing the same exact thing. XD

But that reminds me of another thing. It's actually the opposite of dysphoria, but if I think I look exceptionally manly in something, I stand in front of a mirror and just stares at myself. I've been known to do this for hours at a time. I guess that means I'm vain. XD

[owl]

when i see my hips..then it gets bad.

[Elijah3291]

when I see a bio guy who is around my age I get dysphoric because I compare myself to them.. knowing that I look years younger.. and then I think about how they have a penis.. and I get unset and insecure..

also.. seeing my brother is very bad for me.. I love him, but just seeing his small waist, deep voice.. is hard for me.. because he looks SO much like me.. just reminds me that he has what i want.  and he didnt even have to work to get it.

[Ryan]

Same as Elijah. Seeing men my age and seeing that they look about 10 years older than me. They look like real men, and not pre-pubescent boys.
I often feel really out of place in mens clothing shops because of this too.

Hips and my ass are another one. I always feel really self conscious about my shape.
Oh, and my hands. They're tiny.

My life in general makes me quite dysphoric too.
I have this belief that if I'd have been born male, I wouldn't have been so miserable around the most important part of my school education. I managed to fluke a decent set of grades, but didn't have the motivation to go any further with my education. I'm now stuck, jobless with only school level qualifications.
I feel like my life hasn't started, and once I'm done with transition, I'll finally be able to be what I should have always been and start my life. But then I'll have missed out on a massive portion of my life, trying to fix what should have always been.

[rexgsd]

yeah, seeing cis-guys. especially when they're fooling around and everything...i get jealous cause i wish i could be seen as 'one of the guys' and even if i did, it would be awkward and dysphoric for me cause i'd just feel like they could feel my chest even through binding...

[Crow]

also.. seeing my brother is very bad for me.. I love him, but just seeing his small waist, deep voice.. is hard for me.. because he looks SO much like me.. just reminds me that he has what i want.  and he didnt even have to work to get it.

Same here. I'm really close to my brother, but the last year or so of listening to his voice change and hearing my mom joyfully announce that he's starting to grow a mustche has been... awkward.

Also, swimming. Need I say more?

[Espenoah]

Also, swimming. Need I say more?

Ugh! Totally agree here!
I used to love swimming (a "Kids Club" employee I was close to used to call me 'Fish') until puberty, even though I couldn't figure out why until a couple of years ago. But going swimming is literally crippling now.
I'm gonna miss out on swimming when I go to Germany. I'm not really phased by it, but I'm afraid the group of people I'm going with are going to ask why. I would tell them I can't swim if they didn't already know I can. :/

[Marcelo Caetano]

I really don't care about a lot of things.
The only thing that I can't live with is female underwear.
But I guess this a really easy problem to solve.
I just wear boy's underwear and that's it!

[Espenoah]

Oh hay, I just thought of another one. Having long fingernails. I hatehatehate them.

[insanitylives]

Also, swimming. Need I say more?

i swear the only reason I'm OK with swimming is because I used to compete. if it wasn't for the bug to keep doing it [which i can't, injuries suck] i'd HATE the water - or rather the bathing suit thing, since even shirts don't hide the fact that large tits exist lol.


voice.
I sound like a cute 12 year old little girl.
[if anyone knows how to fix this pre-t PM me please?]

[jmaxley]

It's actually the opposite of dysphoria, but if I think I look exceptionally manly in something, I stand in front of a mirror and just stares at myself. I've been known to do this for hours at a time. I guess that means I'm vain. XD

I've been doing this with my new haircut. 
Post Merge: June 11, 2010, 07:52:18 PM

Also, swimming. Need I say more?

Yes, seeing the guys with their shirts off=major dysphoria and envy

For swimming, I wear swim trunks, a sports compression shirt several sizes too small to bind with, and a loose sleeveless polyester sports top over it.  I've passed really well at the beach so far.

[Crow]

Ugh! Totally agree here!
I used to love swimming (a "Kids Club" employee I was close to used to call me 'Fish') until puberty, even though I couldn't figure out why until a couple of years ago. But going swimming is literally crippling now.
I'm gonna miss out on swimming when I go to Germany. I'm not really phased by it, but I'm afraid the group of people I'm going with are going to ask why. I would tell them I can't swim if they didn't already know I can. :/

This sounds almost exactly like me. I swear I lived in the pool as a kid. I was so distraught when I hit puberty and my silly swimsuit insisted upon showing off everything I didn't want to show off about my body, so in around 9th grade I got myself a guy's wet suit typoe thing (I dunno what it's called-- basically a T-shirt and shorts made of swimsuit material) to wear over the top of my girl swimsuit, which made things a litle more comfortable. Swimming was never really quite the same as when i was little, though.

Just the other day, I decided to brave it and went swimming for the first time this year (and for the first time since I officially started identifying as trans). The exercise was fantastic, but my chest is kind of embarassingly THERE. Way more than the usual loose shirt and sports bra combo. My old swimsuit is starting to wear out, though-- perhaps this is a good excuse to get something with a little more compression?


Also, voice is a big one for me, too. Probably one of my biggest ones-- I guess it's not an unusual one, though. I rather like my voice, from an objective "does that sound nice or not" standpoint, but I hear myself speaking and I almost have to do a double-take. How is that voice coming out of my mouth?

[LordKAT]

Clothes that I want to wear but can't or I would look fem even if they are 'guy' clothes. Mirrors, hearing people mess up when you thought they had it down, finding out that you lost a friend or possible friend because someone outed you, finding that someone you thought was a friend did the outing and learning what they 'really think'. Having my personal space invaded without permission. Having people touch you to check out if you are male or female, that one really gets me. Getting told you can't do something or go somewhere because your female or will "strain your milk". That last came from an employer.
I could go on, but why?

[Espenoah]

Just the other day, I decided to brave it and went swimming for the first time this year (and for the first time since I officially started identifying as trans). The exercise was fantastic, but my chest is kind of embarassingly THERE. Way more than the usual loose shirt and sports bra combo. My old swimsuit is starting to wear out, though-- perhaps this is a good excuse to get something with a little more compression?

I'm thinking of getting another binder to wear under a rash guard or something. I don't know about you, but my chest is way too huge to go out in just a swimsuit. No tops ever have enough support for me, and they fly all over the place...

Erm...Sorry if that was an unpleasant image for anyone. >.> But yeah, I would totally use that as an excuse to get something to compress if I were you, but that's just me.

Getting told you can't do something or go somewhere because your female or will "strain your milk". That last came from an employer.

Wow...that sounds like harassment to me. Is there anything you can do about it? D:

[Nat]

I like seeing my younger brother and father, because i look A LOT like them, and not like the women in my family. So it makes me feel like I DO fit in the right category after all.

I'm weird about shopping, i like getting a new shirt, but when it comes to pants i freak out and just leave. This is troublesome as i need pants/jeans/something. 

I have breasts.. i used to love showers, in fact, i still shower at least twice a day. But i don't like it anymore. I look really feminine naked. Luckily though, only my Gf and i have to see me naked. 

I think the most dysphoric thing for me is my gf, the way she is always looking at my chest, and touching it. Because i know she likes my breasts and doesn't want me to transition properly. 

- i would include singing, but that's a lie, it just makes me feel like a stereotypical flamboyant gay boy. haha, makes me laugh at myself and i generally feel better. 

[Devin87]

Shopping gets to me.  I'm not out to most people yet, so for work and stuff I still need to wear female clothes (though not feminine).  We walk by the men's section and I see these awesome looking shirts, ties, jackets, sweaters, etc and think how much better I'd look and feel teaching in those instead of woman clothes...  It's hard to get over, and one of the only things I still felt strongly while I was in my "try to be a girly girl" phase.

Also, when I see guys interacting with each other, I get really disphoric.  I see a guy (especially an older, mentor type guy) slap another guy on the shoulder or mess up his hair or something and I just want that so bad.  I want other guys to treat me like a guy and rough house with me and stuff.  I hate being treated like a girl.  I sort of forgot myself tonight at my friends wedding.  I was presenting as female (I'm not out to them and someone's wedding is not the time to come out) and really enjoying the company of the guy who ended up sitting across from me, who I just met tonight.  Time came to leave and say goodbye to him and his wife and I hug his wife and go to shake his hand and he looks at me like I have three heads and pulls me into a "guy hugging a girl" hug.  Embarassing.

[peterrabbit]

being around bio guys around my same age gets me too..
because they look so much older than me and also because I'm so much shorter than them

and pretty much everything everyone else said