Hello all.
I was thinking a while ago, after having strange dreams in which I was interacting with a female and then "getting distracted" and doing something else leaving that girl in the dream's voids.
The first one was a random shy girl in an office setting who was wearing a purplue suit, and I invited her to go out, but in the end I started playing with my shoebike
The second one was a girl I know from the internet (who is rather unfemenine) and a composite of two other girls I met IRL at some point (who are more or less femenine), and in the end I started adventuring and all but forgot about them...
Anyway. These dreams put me in a mood, and I started thinking, I don't have anything like a rolemodel of what "being a girl" is like.
For ex. my mother is a role model insofar it's exactly how I do Not want to be.
My sisters are very different from me, and I never had a real relationship with them.
My girlfriends have been nice and all but they were also very reserved in a way, and the relationship never lasted enough for me to say that I know what they're like.
So yeah.
Right now I am in a relationship with a man, who randomly treats me a as "a girl", whatever that means (he calls me by my fem name, Zaida) and I'm taking estrogen and stuff.
Now, as you may not know, I am not "full" TS, I'm Androgyne, about 100% in the middle (or 100% elsewhere XD you know how it is)
Right now my purpose is to get "far from masculinity", but I have no other set destination. I know I'm not interested in being full woman. However, I do love Love how my body is changing and developing with the hormones. So I think I'll stay on them for a while longer.
The funniest thing, for me, is that while I'm doing all this, I'm completely crap at traditional femenine things, like household and cooking and housewife stuff, meanwhile I'm extremely good at traditional masculine things like motorcycle repair, business scheming, sales and stuff.
In the end, being androgyne is the best thing I could wish for.
Yeah. I hope you get any sort of point or something interesting from this wall of text XD
TL;DR: what's your femenine and masculine role models ?
