Lately, I've had a lot of people telling, giving me an order, to define myself.
It's like WHAT ARE YOU. And then "Just choose ONE thiing!"
And I'm like, "Yes, but my choice is not among the ones you offer. So my choice won't fit into your binary-exclusive point of view."
And then we spend all night debating about perceptions.
It would be so easy to just say "I'm androgyne", but I refuse to do even that. Because saying "the object has an intrinsic property called "fill", of which it is about half", still leaves too much unsaid.
And those things which are not said, really bother me.
It's like I love the unknown, but fear choices.
And people tell me "FEAR CAN BE VANQUISHED", well, that contrasts sharply with my observations, fear never leaves, and is just managed.
Besides, all emotions and all feelings have their meaning. Just pretending to avoid those deemed as "disgusting" is wasted effort.
And stuff.