Support?

[Hurtfulsplash]

I understand the feeling of isolation, I only spend about 2-3 hours a week out of the house, and I only see my roommate a couple hours a day. Unfortunately I moved to a place that isn't very open to anything especially trans people, so there are no support groups. In my situation I feel lucky that I don't have family to deal with, from your stories sometimes it seems worse to have them around. I do have a counselor and of course Susan's to talk to when I need them; reading your posts help even when I have nothing to say. I'm sorry to hear about the abuse you went through Paul, its hard to even think about and scares the hell outta me.

I am feeling much better now.

I'm glad to hear you're feeling better now. : )

I'm going to try to take my own advice and try not to take it personally when I don't get responses to my threads or posts.

I feel the same way, I sometimes consider myself the official thread ender, after I post the thread seems to die lol.

[cynthialee]

Posting so Hurtful doesnt kill the thread....

[Hurtfulsplash]

lol  cynthialee

[Chris968]

It may be hard to believe right now but almost all of us have been where you are right now at some point in our lives.  Look at how many guys are on this board - we've all made it through, and you can too.  Trust me there have been days where I stood on my roof wanting to jump but then I thought about all the people who do care about me.  I live in Philadelphia and I found a LGBT support group for young adults and there is a transgroup that meets.  If you live in Chicago I'm sure there is something like that - cities are good for support groups.  Hang in there dude you have a lot of brothers here that care about you and support you!

[Arch]

lol  cynthialee

Hurtful, don't respond to her!!! Do you want it all to end right here??!!

Cynthialee, you are too funny.

[sneakersjay]

There was a time when I seemed to be a thread killer.  Happens to the best of us. 

So as not to continue to hijack the thread, Support Paul!!!!


Hang in there.  It will get better.


jay

[Squirrel698]

You are all wonderful, seriously.  Thank you so much Lachlann, Arch, Bones, Kyle, Hurt and Jay.

I'm just so amazingly dramatic sometimes.  At times I take a step back from my life and I can't believe I've ridden this roller coaster so successfully so far.  What's even more amazing is that it is still going.  Spinning, twisting and turning and going knows where.  See what I mean about the drama?  lol  I've spent the last 2 hours singing Barbra Streisand with my kids at the top our lungs.  I don't even want to know how gay that makes me.  lol  I'm the greatest star, damn it.  We all are, aren't we?

Our water heater broke and we don't have the money to repair it.  So I have lots of cold showers to look forward.  My monitor is flickering out and I'm not sure how much longer it's going to last.  Once again no money to replace it.  I'm only wearing the same two pairs of jeans over and over again because that's all I have with a few shirts and one pair of shoes.  American Eagle tho.  They actually have my size and most jeans don't so hooray for them!

Some days are better than others.  In one night I got called ma'am by a brat of a teenage girl at Panda Express but then I was taken unquestioning as a male at Lover's Lane.  The best part of that is that my partner didn't get all resentful about it and just acted like a couple with me.  It was very awesome because he is normally so scared of being viewed as gay.       

I'm just dancing through life here.  Come dance with me!

[Alexmakenoise]

That's a great attitude.  Life is hard, but you can still have fun.  I'm sorry to hear that times are so rough for you right now, but I'm happy that you're feeling better.  Attitude makes such a big difference.

[Arch]

Some days are better than others.  In one night I got called ma'am by a brat of a teenage girl at Panda Express but then I was taken unquestioning as a male at Lover's Lane. 

Teenagers are just scary to me...minors, anyway.

[Bones]

And please, keep posting. Like others have said I read a lot more than I post, because often times I dont feel that I have anything productive or supportive to add, or its basically already been said.

What he said, plus work taking so much of my time, I barely have time to post, mostly just have enough time to read and hit the road.

[Arch]

Yeah, sometimes I don't post because I'm feeling kind of the same way you are, and I just read and empathize.

I guess it's not so helpful to just beam "I hear ya" thoughts your way without writing anything...

[JosephKT]

I'm just so amazingly dramatic sometimes. 

Aw- don't be so hard on yourself.  I figure we all need to vent and let down our guard sometimes.