I should be happy... Why am I not happy??

[notyouraverageguy]

I just got off the phone, not too long ago, with my buddy and the appt lady..
We just made two appts, one to see the doctor and one to get a financial screening.
The thing is, the doctor is so famous she's booked til January.. So we have to wait til then to see about starting T, but our first appt is soon to see how much they'll be charging us.

I have a question, for USA west coast residents who don't have insurance.. How much does T and all the stuff together cost(syringes, alcohol swabs, etc)?
The good thing is I have 4 months to find a good paying job/save money.

I guess im bummed because I've been wanting it NOW.. My voice doesn't pass for my age at all, and im tired of being seen as a kid. I have to lie to people so they'll see me as male, and in turn have to hide things and make up a ton of other lies. Before I fully presented as male I was outgoing, loud, not so shy..and now im extremely quiet, very shy, introvert, keep to myself..in fear of outting myself, not being seen as my age.
At least with a voice drop, id go for a few years older.
And it just brings my confidence, self-esteem down..I don't want to meet new people, I don't want to date, I don't want to go out with friends, I don't like to talk on the phone..which in turn effects my social life, which equals none.
I guess im not so happy because after 2 years, I have to wait 4 months. Which doesn't seem long, but I just can't do it anymore, I've been going back and forth and I want it and now..I hope it'll go by fast, I hope I can wait it out, and I hope I can afford it.

[Alun C]

Generally speaking from my research and such, without insurance it's about 30-100$ for a months supply of everything you need, depending on the dosage and such. But if your financial screening goes well, and they see you're without insurance, they could help you sign up for any programs or such, or just prescribe you low doses to start you out.

I understand fully when you say you want it NOW. I don't pass for male AT ALL... my breast are too large and though my voice is deeper than normal females, it's still too high pitched.... It sucks.

I live on the west coast as well and though there are people who understand, not alot of them are out there in plain sight. Just. Don't be afraid to be out there and happy. People will believe you once you explain to them. It's what I've had to do all day actually. *nod nod*  We're here for y'~ :DDD

<3 Alun

[Mishamigo_Jared]

awww    i know it seems like such a long time away, but it really isnt  it's worth the wait, trust me haha if your very sure of what you want you can always try calling other places and see if they can get you an appt sooner! but, if that place is the only option, you'll just have to wait! think of how happy you will be on T and portray that through your everyday self until the actual appt, just stay happy dude   

-Adam

[notyouraverageguy]

Heh thanks guys, I feel a little better.

Yeah Alun I hope they can sign me up for something to help with the costs.

Does anybody know the costs of all the blood work, tests, etc?

Adam, even though my first appt is 4 months away, this doctor is known for only having to see you once or twice before she prescribes T. So I think in turn, it'll be about the same wait or longer with someone else. Idk about other gender therapists, how many hrs or visits you need before they can determine, in my area.

[Cruelladeville]

Tis the shi##ty deal of being TS I'm fraid Femster.....

But as always you've come so far so look to that and hold onto it.... there are oft set-backs on a journey to self-realisation and final fulfilment, but equally you'll find when you do start T that things probably will start falling more quickly into place for you....

So keep the faith matey dig deep, big breaths go outdoors and maybe chop some wood... and you'll make it through...like a lot, many and loads of us all do eventually....!

[zombiesarepeaceful]

Depends what state you're in. I HIGHLY recommend going with mail order compounding pharmacies. There are a few legit ones who many guys use and they're far less expensive than buying it at a local pharmacy. Think $200+ for a 10ml vs $50 for a 10ml via mail. What state are you in?

[Farm Boy]

If I might barge in here...  I'm in a similar situation.  Zombies, do you know of a way to look these mail order companies up?  A list, perhaps?

[notyouraverageguy]

Sunny California.

[JudahLiam]

i pay $12o a year for T with no insurance, the syringes are included