I just got off the phone, not too long ago, with my buddy and the appt lady..
We just made two appts, one to see the doctor and one to get a financial screening.
The thing is, the doctor is so famous she's booked til January.. So we have to wait til then to see about starting T, but our first appt is soon to see how much they'll be charging us.
I have a question, for USA west coast residents who don't have insurance.. How much does T and all the stuff together cost(syringes, alcohol swabs, etc)?
The good thing is I have 4 months to find a good paying job/save money.
I guess im bummed because I've been wanting it NOW.. My voice doesn't pass for my age at all, and im tired of being seen as a kid. I have to lie to people so they'll see me as male, and in turn have to hide things and make up a ton of other lies. Before I fully presented as male I was outgoing, loud, not so shy..and now im extremely quiet, very shy, introvert, keep to myself..in fear of outting myself, not being seen as my age.
At least with a voice drop, id go for a few years older.
And it just brings my confidence, self-esteem down..I don't want to meet new people, I don't want to date, I don't want to go out with friends, I don't like to talk on the phone..which in turn effects my social life, which equals none.
I guess im not so happy because after 2 years, I have to wait 4 months. Which doesn't seem long, but I just can't do it anymore, I've been going back and forth and I want it and now..I hope it'll go by fast, I hope I can wait it out, and I hope I can afford it.