Hi guys and girls! I'm bunny
Well for now anyway.. having the hardest time deciding on a proper name. I like the nick though so for here on the forum it'll do. Another thing I like is that it's so diverse here, from age to ID.. that is very awesome and I've learned a lot so far about other parts of the spectrum. At 27 I've looked primarily at mtf's around my age and not ventured too far away from information specifically relevant to me. This forum has changed that and I want to thank everyone here who has been open and honest and brave enough to post.. it is all truly helpful and eye opening. Like the ftm community, you guys are seriously awesome and hot too (:
Being trans for me has been kinda off and on in my reality for a long time. If that sounds strange it's only because that's the way it was for me. Lots of drugs and loads of alcohol since a very young age had until recently kept me comfortably numb. A bad recipe mixed with a volatile and abusive relationship in the end had me in a very very bad place. My downward spiral into nothingness was speeding up and I could finally see it.. one especially sordid night did the trick.
So I cleaned up. I'm kind of straight edge I guess if there must be a name. Drinking and drugs have robbed me of a lot of years and prevented me from accepting myself.. so for me I'd rather live and think and feel my own unrelenting experience full on and savor every single moment of it. That's just me though, if you like drinking and drugs that's cool,
I don't hate on people for anything.
In Boston there's really a good amount of resources so I feel pretty lucky and especially lucky because of required health insurance in Mass. The terrible mess I worked oh so hard to make.. well, my gender therapist.. who just happens to be awesome btw, has definitely helped me sort out the bad from the good. Without insurance to cover my visits to her I would probably be dead right now, not to sound morbid but it's the truth /: No HRT for me yet but I am happy for the first time in a really long time.. despite.. or in spite of.. stupid dysphoria.. errg.
OMG, hehe.. this has gotten freaking long winded and I think you get the gist if you read this far, so I I'll just ttyl people. I really hope I have something to offer everyone here. Bye.
bunny
