Hi guys and girls! I'm bunny Well for now anyway.. having the hardest time deciding on a proper name. I like the nick though so for here on the forum it'll do. Another thing I like is that it's so diverse here, from age to ID.. that is very awesome and I've learned a lot so far about other parts of the spectrum. At 27 I've looked primarily at mtf's around my age and not ventured too far away from information specifically relevant to me. This forum has changed that and I want to thank everyone here who has been open and honest and brave enough to post.. it is all truly helpful and eye opening. Like the ftm community, you guys are seriously awesome and hot too (:

Being trans for me has been kinda off and on in my reality for a long time. If that sounds strange it's only because that's the way it was for me. Lots of drugs and loads of alcohol since a very young age had until recently kept me comfortably numb. A bad recipe mixed with a volatile and abusive relationship in the end had me in a very very bad place. My downward spiral into nothingness was speeding up and I could finally see it.. one especially sordid night did the trick.
So I cleaned up. I'm kind of straight edge I guess if there must be a name. Drinking and drugs have robbed me of a lot of years and prevented me from accepting myself.. so for me I'd rather live and think and feel my own unrelenting experience full on and savor every single moment of it. That's just me though, if you like drinking and drugs that's cool,
I don't hate on people for anything.

In Boston there's really a good amount of resources so I feel pretty lucky and especially lucky because of required health insurance in Mass. The terrible mess I worked oh so hard to make.. well,  my gender therapist.. who just happens to be awesome btw, has definitely helped me sort out the bad from the good. Without insurance to cover my visits to her I would probably be dead right now, not to sound morbid but it's the truth /: No HRT for me yet but I am happy for the first time in a really long time.. despite.. or in spite of..  stupid dysphoria.. errg.

OMG, hehe.. this has gotten freaking long winded and I think you get the gist if you read this far, so I I'll just ttyl people. I really hope I have something to offer everyone here. Bye.

   bunny

Welcome to the club ^_^

Hi and welcome Bunny 

Hi Bunny

Welcome sister. Do read the TOS, and post onwards.

You have done really well in pulling yourself together. Drugs and alcohol have been the props for many TG and is doesn't do us any good. You are one awesome girl to pull your life around. I live in Australia so I don't know Boston. I did visit there years ago I had relatives that lived in a place called Shrewsbury which I think was about 100 miles from Boston.

Anyhow welcome again

Cindy

Welcome!  Having recently come to my own personal epiphany that I am definitely a woman and probably will wind up transitioning some time in the future, I hope to hear and learn more from your "travelogue" of your own personal journey.

Hello Bunny,
So glad you have gotten help. 
Drugs and alcohol do numb the mind but really don't help in solving out problems but usually make them worst.
I'm so glad to meet you Bunny.
A good gender therapist can help you sort out your feelings and work to resolve them.
Transitioning even part way is no piece of cake but for many of us here there is (was) no other choice.
Hope to read more of your postings.
Welcome to Susan's
Jillieann

Hi Bunny and welcome. In some ways your story sounds similar to mine, like you I used drugs and alcohol to stay numb and enable my denial.. I've now been completely clean for several months and being clean has enabled me to do a lot of self-evaluation, which led to me finally being able to accept and completely understand who and what I am.

My first therapy appointment is still a month away, but reading and posting here and hanging around the chat rooms has been a great resource for me.

welcome, Bunny!

hrt is in itself a substance abuse so I think it's not bad for you to have some prior experience in putting various chemicals into your body But of course, the sooner you quit those, the better. I also used to drink more than my fair share would've been but have managed to put down the bottle for good.

Have fun here and enjoy the ride! (I do )

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Thanks everyone for the warm welcome. I've never posted on anything like this before so it was very cool to come on and see all the replies

Quote from: Ayaname on September 12, 2010, 02:10:17 AM
Welcome to the club ^_^

Quote from: Hermione01 on September 12, 2010, 02:12:22 AM
Hi and welcome Bunny 

thanks 

Quote from: CindyJames on September 12, 2010, 02:32:21 AM
You have done really well in pulling yourself together. Drugs and alcohol have been the props for many TG and is doesn't do us any good. You are one awesome girl to pull your life around.

Thanks sweetie, I am definitely proud of myself. I hope I can help other girls who do use them as props because they really do more damage than good.

Quote from: Rayalisse on September 12, 2010, 02:39:43 AM
Welcome!  Having recently come to my own personal epiphany that I am definitely a woman and probably will wind up transitioning some time in the future, I hope to hear and learn more from your "travelogue" of your own personal journey.

Gotta love those epiphanies! I'll look forward to hearing of your "adventures".

Quote from: Jillieann on September 12, 2010, 07:06:27 AM
So glad you have gotten help. 
Drugs and alcohol do numb the mind but really don't help in solving out problems but usually make them worst.
I'm so glad to meet you Bunny.

Thank you for caring, I'm always glad to meet someone with a kind spirit.

Quote from: kelly_aus on September 12, 2010, 07:50:07 AM
I've now been completely clean for several months and being clean has enabled me to do a lot of self-evaluation, which led to me finally being able to accept and completely understand who and what I am.

My first therapy appointment is still a month away, but reading and posting here and hanging around the chat rooms has been a great resource for me.

Congratulations on being clean, it can be hard and rewarding at the same time, but it sounds as though your doing it right by learning to understand your true self. That therapy appointment will be here before you know it, and until then I believe being around here is a good thing.. especially if you feel down there will always someone here to help you pull through. Stay happy hun!

Quote from: ggina on September 12, 2010, 01:42:42 PM
hrt is in itself a substance abuse so I think it's not bad for you to have some prior experience in putting various chemicals into your body

lmao