Don't over examine yourself. We tend to be waaaay over critical of all of our "features", and it can really tear away at you. Try to find the good parts, rather than identify the bad. You may feel that there is just so much more "bad" than "good", but you have to remember that it's a process, and that things will change in time. But for your own good, you should try to be more optimistic and identify the good parts of yourself.
A good majority of us go from one depression to another. We start out with our "misunderstood dysphoria" depression, and move into a post-acceptance "stuck in the mud" depression. And that's not good for us. We've finally recognized who we are and free'd our true selves, we shouldn't fall into another depression because we feel "stuck". Instead, be happy, live free, and make an effort to change.
And yes, HRT should help with that. ^.^