You know all my life, the holiday season had always been depressing and not very festive. However, over the last year, I have made a LOT of changes. I am beginning to care about myself. Anyways, Now I want to feel the festivity of the holidays. I want to carve pumpkins. Make turkey for thanksgiving, and most important, I want a x-mas tree and when I begin talking about trhese things, my current bf bah humbugs me. Well screw him, Iif he does not want to try to make the holiday season a happy one, I may have to just tell him to get out of my house!!! Seriously!! Sorry but this makes me very angry