Hello to all you wonderful people, newbie here

[Bianca Cruz]

     I am the somewhat shy type so here goes, I am in the beginning of transitioning MTF here in the Midwest and discovered Susan's place while surfing the internet one day. I have been here several times before to read others postings but procrastinated in signing on.

     Such wonderful caring people here made me decide to join today!  I feel the need to be amongst understanding compassionate people that know just what I'm going through.  There is so much hate and ridicule out there it makes this world a very scary place as well as so lonely for girls like me that waited so long to go for it. 

     After growing up being bullied, ridiculed, and even an occasional beat-up for not being masculine like most boys were, I formed a shell around myself and became very introverted.  I always had very few friends because I was afraid to come out of my shell and meet people in fear of rejection for the person I was.  I always knew I was different from the boys and mostly talked to girls because they seemed kind and not a threat to do harm to me.

     As time went by I learned that I was torturing myself by not becoming the real person I was on the inside. Little by little I felt I was becoming free after I started wearing woman's clothes and started HRT. It was like being born again and I loved it.  Every day I feel better about myself and wish this world could be a more loving world so that no one would ever have to live like I did for so long.

Bianca

[Janet_Girl]

Hi Bianca,

Welcome to our little family. Over 3700 strong. That would be one heck of a family reunion.

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But remember we are family here, your family now. And it is always nice to have another sister.

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Hugs and Love,
Janet

[Bianca Cruz]

Thank you sooooo much Laura and Janet for the warm welcome.   I luv your smileys .

Hugs
Bianca

[Sada]

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[Bianca Cruz]

Happy your here Bianca and remember you are a real person^^ An the world will just get more beautiful with you.

Oh how sweet Sada,
thank you so much for the kind words.  You all make me feel so happy to be here and you take my loneliness away

Hugs to everyone
Bianca

[Hermione01]

Hi and welcome Bianca  🙂

[kelly_aus]

Welcome Bianca. 

I understand just what you mean about being reborn.. I hadn't thought about it that way until my therapist mentioned it during our session this week.. I like the idea so much I've adopted a new birthday.. Finally letting myself be me, instead of a contruct for others, has been liberating and enabled me to be much happier than I've ever been, despite doubts/fears about transitioning..

[niamh]

Welcome to the club!

[Jillieann Rose]

Bianca Hello!
It is good to meet you.
Like you many of us had a rough childhood and could never fit in.
I never knew how to talk to guy, but loved hang out and talking to the girls when I was young.
Still have a hard time just chatting with men, but with women I feel at home in conversing.
I sure hope that I more of your posting.
Welcome to Susan's
Jillieann

[Nathan.]

Hey, welcome to Susans   🙂

[Theo]

Hello Bianca,

I've a feeling you will fit in just fine here.

Theo

[Pundit]

Welcome to Susan's, Bianca.

My heart goes out to you as another victim of bullying. I was also bullied for not being interested in or good at masculine activities like sports. I was bullied for all of my elementary and middle school years, and because I was so shy and unpopular, I hardly ever made any friends. So, again, my heart goes out to you.

Have fun here and welcome, once again. 🙂

[some ftm guy]

hey, welcome to susan's it's pretty cool here
sad to hear you were bullied too. i was bullied pretty traumatically in high school, for dressing pretty much like a guy and not acting like anyone else, being all shy, introverted, confused and depressed. people called me all the anti gay words that we all still hear unfortunately, even though it turns out I'm not gay lol. nothing wrong with that if i was though *ahem*.
I'm really glad you were able to set yourself free.
good luck
hugs