I am the somewhat shy type so here goes, I am in the beginning of transitioning MTF here in the Midwest and discovered Susan's place while surfing the internet one day. I have been here several times before to read others postings but procrastinated in signing on.
Such wonderful caring people here made me decide to join today! I feel the need to be amongst understanding compassionate people that know just what I'm going through. There is so much hate and ridicule out there it makes this world a very scary place as well as so lonely for girls like me that waited so long to go for it.
After growing up being bullied, ridiculed, and even an occasional beat-up for not being masculine like most boys were, I formed a shell around myself and became very introverted. I always had very few friends because I was afraid to come out of my shell and meet people in fear of rejection for the person I was. I always knew I was different from the boys and mostly talked to girls because they seemed kind and not a threat to do harm to me.
As time went by I learned that I was torturing myself by not becoming the real person I was on the inside. Little by little I felt I was becoming free after I started wearing woman's clothes and started HRT. It was like being born again and I loved it. Every day I feel better about myself and wish this world could be a more loving world so that no one would ever have to live like I did for so long.
Bianca
