Well crap! I have been spending to much time at susan's place

[Barbara]

get a life.can't help you  with this one

[spacial]

I like your posts as well lacey.

As for being stuck, I know that well. You, I and others of our generation have been through quite a bit. To coin a phrase, we might not get to the promised land, but we can sure see it.

If you think about it, our generation had so many hopes and dreams. Most have come crumbling down. War seems to be almost acceptable. But individualism has increased. Self expression is taking its place, albeit, slowly, as the paramount freedom.

We didn't do that bad.

For the likes of you and I, I think we just need to try to continue with the self control really. We might achieve something for ourselves yet.

When I see the likes of Jerica, transforming into the beautiful woman she has always been inside, it gives me hope.

[Tammy Hope]

Well my parents and my ex-wife still think I was "brain-washed" by the internetz! God.

My wife says the same thing, in so many words.

Due to circumstances, Lacey's a hurtin' puppy and may have to settle for being an androgyne ... and a sorry one at that.  Like Cindy James in Adelaide says, "The black dog is running."  I may be near the end of my life.

I know the standard issue reply here is "DON'T!" and by not reacting that way, I hope you don't read it as lack of affection for you or deep concern for your well being but...i just can't bring myself to give the standard reply.

I know what it is to feel like you feel. I know deeply the "logic" that says "Why should I keep banging my head against this wall? Even if I succeed is it too late to enjoy what I've gained?"

I decide, anew, every time that feeling comes that, on balance, it's better not to. Al of us, of course, have different circumstances and what convinces me might not apply in your life. what i would say is DO take time to do a really careful analysis.

For instance, when I consider whether I'm too old - I think of my sisters here living a full life who are older than me, sometimes by over a decade.  when i think I might be a "freak" hated by the world, I give thought to the increasing number of "normal" people who seem to be accepting me as "normal" too. If EVERYONE doesn't hate you, then there's hope. So on and so forth.

Don't let the dark emotions drive your choices without doing the math. I don't have to tell you that you have a lot of emotional support here. I'll bet if we knew who was close to you you could get some face to face support if it took that to help you hang on.

I'll say a prayer for you sister. Be as strong as you can.

[spacial]

Tammy's right.

We get one life. It ain't over till the fat lady sings.

OK, so we missed this or that, not a lot of point in dwelling on what's gone. Life begins now as they say.

Regarding the internet. Informed.

Anyone who thinks anything could brain wash us into this is grasping at straws.

[jainie marlena]

I was glad at first to just except myself. I had such a load removed from me when the right label was found, yet I had not take everything into account. I don't know what I was thinking. I am going on with life. I was not thinking about what everyone was going to think just what do I do next?