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[mymaleshadow]

Hello, All.  My name is Danny and his name is Danni for now.  Later he will change it to match mine completely as we become one entwined identity.  We have Dissociative Identity Disorder and are two separate individuals, same female body, in a co-conscious (both generally awake at the same time) state in the midst of our merging process.  We are both bisexual FTMs.  For the majority of the part, I'm the one you'll hear from on this board, but I wanted to cut to the chase and introduce my other half before I have to make some kind of shocking confession later.  A month ago I wouldn't have been able to tell you this secret.  As its one we normally keep for survival's sake.  However, we've recently come to this idea that in order to make things easier we shall have to be up front.

Currently we have just started therapy for being a transgender.  It took us a long time to come to this point because of an extremely violent past.  We had other things to worry about other than being an ftm or having did.  Though we are currently in the closet in our personal life, we are hoping to come out fully within this next year.  That's part of why we're going to therapy... to work our way out of the damnable closet.  So as of yet we have not had any kinds of surgery.  We are not on hormones.  We have cut 14 inches off of our hair and its to our shoulders now, however, we're not certain if we wish to cut the rest of it off or not.  This is a very confusing point for us and neither of us are certain how far of a physical change we are going to make.  Its something we keep discussing and neither of us are sure.

Honestly, we don't know much about it.  What we do know is that we've been a man all our lives and couldn't tell anybody.  Of course, we also weren't so focused on that in our youth.  Like I said, we had other things to worry about.  So that's us.  We're hoping by joining that we can meet more FTMs and learn more about our options.  Glean advice and experience from those already having gone through the process and make friends, not only with them but with people like ourselves, who are maybe stuck at the beginning part right now.  Well... that's all I can think of to say at this moment.

[Miniar]

Yo and Welcome.

I hang out in a few otherkin forums where "multiples" hang out. These are compatible to co-conscious and/or co-aware (aware of one another but not both "awake" at the same time) DID systems.
Many systems have a habit of having the person who's speaking "sign" their post.

[Janet_Girl]

Hi Danny/Danni,

Welcome to our little family. Over 4100 strong. That would be one heck of a family reunion.

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Hugs and Love,
Janet

[mymaleshadow]

Thank you for the welcome   Yes, we probably will sign by which ever one of us is talking.  Most of the time that is me.  I'm the more Dominant.  But at this juncture we do switch back and forth fairly freely.  Its amazing we told our therapist because we honestly have rules on who can be out when for safety's sake.  No one knows but our therapist.

I just didn't want it to come out later and be a surprise.  What if I may ask is an otherkin?

[Raven]

Hi there, someone else might be able to explain better than me. Otherkin is basically where you may identify as something other than human (you feel this is what you are), this may be an wolf (that's part of my kin-type), dragon, elf, fairy, basically anything you can think of even demon or angel and even the rare god kin. There are some Otherkin who also has a human side but they do also have an non human side (that's what I like to call this). An Otherkin may exp shifts, this can be sensory shifts, mental shifts, have phantom limbs such as an tail, wings, depending on their kin-type. You may wish to check out some Otherkin forums as they can give you more information, because honestly there's a lot of typing to get into more detail. A lot of people don't either believe in Otherkin or they are spekital on the subject. But anywho, I hope that will give you a idea of what Otherkin is.

[iris1469]

Hi there, someone else might be able to explain better than me. Otherkin is basically where you may identify as something other than human (you feel this is what you are), this may be an wolf (that's part of my kin-type), dragon, elf, fairy, basically anything you can think of even demon or angel and even the rare god kin. There are some Otherkin who also has a human side but they do also have an non human side (that's what I like to call this). An Otherkin may exp shifts, this can be sensory shifts, mental shifts, have phantom limbs such as an tail, wings, depending on their kin-type. You may wish to check out some Otherkin forums as they can give you more information, because honestly there's a lot of typing to get into more detail. A lot of people don't either believe in Otherkin or they are spekital on the subject. But anywho, I hope that will give you a idea of what Otherkin is.

Wow, and to think I had never heard of it!!!!

[Raven]

That I wouldn't doubt Kitty, because well it's just not a term you'd hear in soicety. And it's not one of the terms that soicety has accepted as "normal" in my opnion. But there are lots of us out there. I'm not ashamed of who and what I am, it's part of who I am. Anyway yea most people haven't heard of Otherkin.

[Shang]

Yo and Welcome.

I hang out in a few otherkin forums where "multiples" hang out. These are compatible to co-conscious and/or co-aware (aware of one another but not both "awake" at the same time) DID systems.
Many systems have a habit of having the person who's speaking "sign" their post.

You beat me to it.

I would, personally, suggest staying away from most Otherkin sites and only go to ones that Miniar can suggest (seeing as the sites he frequents are generally pretty sane.) 

@ Superkitty036:  I'm kind of glad you haven't heard about it until now because it makes it easier to show that there are sane Otherkin out there and not just nutsos.   

And I'll repeat what I said, stay away from most Otherkin sites because the majority of them give Otherkin a very bad rap and make Otherkin come off as delusional nut cases.

*gets off soap box*

Anyway....

@ Danny/Danni:

Hey there and welcome!  And I second Miniar.  And enjoy the stay! :3

Edit:  (And notice I said most, not all.  There are some sane and rational Otherkin sites out there who have sane and rational members on them...And sorry, Miniar, for suggesting you--I just really respect your opinions and outlook. :3)

[xAndrewx]

Welcome Danni and Danny,
I look forward to reading both of your posts on this forum This is a great place to make friends and get info. Best thing about this site, everyone is so accepting and becomes like family. Glad you joined the site I had a friend with DID and they used separate colors to differentiate who was talking, just figured I would mention that. Welcome   

[mymaleshadow]

Thank you for the suggestion!    I would not have thought of that honestly.  O_O... We've never been "out" per say in front of people on a forum.  The very few friends who know us and who we are, recognize us by our voices, behaviors, styles of dress, the way in which we say certain things.  They used to recognize us by very different personalities but now that a lot of our mannerisms have been exchanging and personality traits are swapping and becoming similar as we grow more toward a center its harder for them.

So they've been relying on voice.  However, apparently that is starting to change as well.  Oddly we don't notice it until one of them goes "oh de!  its you I'm talking to, for a minute I wasn't sure until you said that... you sound like a mix between you and ra".  /shrugs/  Go figure.  We don't notice it until they say something and then its like /listens to self/  "omg we do!... well... we are very mixed right now but I'm still in control..."  /checks/  "yes, I'm me".   So I dunno.  But it feels like we've been merging since 2000 and now the process is accelerating at warp speed lol.  All of the huge changes have happened this year and most of the time they're so subtle for us that we don't notice it happened until one of our friends is like "wait... whoa... that's something de would say ra, are you sure you two are who you are cause its like the roles reversed on me there for a minute".

lol Our poor friends that know will have to deal.  And I think we will try to use colors or italics or something to help those on the forum and of course, we will try to remember to sign who is who.  >_>  I think it might still be confusing for everyone though.  /we will have to wait until 15 posts to adjust our signature to insert a who-is-who "key"/