The last few days have been incredible, I had broken it off with my boyfriend just before my last surgery, so I had to go through this alone (he did help me with part of the fee, I think he felt I was using him, maybe so but that is another chapter)
I just finally realized that I much prefer being with women, I met this incredible woman at the Wild Side last June and we dated but it never got to intimacy...
For me, it was like one of those "love at first sight" things and last night she said she felt the same but I digress.
Sunday night, I stopped by the place, the Wild Side, I participate in an acustic jam they have there, or I had, that's how I met Mari, who was one of the girls who greeted me Friday night...anyway I walk in and she grabs me and starts talking about how incredible that exchange was between Francis and me, she said his husband couldn't figure out what the deal was, so she starts buying me drinks, I was not planning on drinking or being a late night as Monday was my first work day, anyway a whole bunch of women came in to watch the L-word but it turns out that this bar didn;t have the east coast feed and the bar down the street did, so almost everyone split to go the other bar, so it's just me and Mari, so we get to talk intimately, she tells me that she really thinks a lot of me and wants to get back to "seing me" but still just wants to remain friends not lovers, I said that was fine with me---my therapist had advised me that is the best way to pursue a Lesbian relationship anyway and then IT just happens...
So she says you haven't even been to my place yet, why don't we go to my house and watch TV and "cuddle" and I will drop you off in the morning I said that's a deal. Anyway, I don't want this to get too steamy...but when we got there she gave me some jammies and we "watched TV" in her bed, and I played along with this "watching TV" routine, then, of course, it just happened!
Anyway, it was indescribable, let's leave it at that.
We met last night for dinner, we are talking Long Term Relationship now, she even said, get this, we could get legally married (remember the the thread about that) because I haven't changed my birth certificate, (she knows all about this legal stuff as she worked as a legal secretary)
Anyway, not only is she beautiful and tall, which I love since I don't tower over her, but she is a professional woman who is doing quite well financially so we could have a very comfortable life together if we were to become partners, the only kicker is that she has lived alone for twenty years, she said she really likes that but OTOH she has never met anyone quite like me...
I find myself falling for her, I am just trying to control my feelings, realizing this could be just another one of those fleeting things, she really wanted me to sleepover last night but I told her we just can't do this when we both have to work the next day...she said she wants me to meet her for lunch today, I probably won't do that, I'd love to but I need to concentrate on sales. Also, it seems that the more I say no, the more she says yes.
We did make a date for a "sleepover" friday night I will probably resist seeing her until then,
Stay tuned.
So last nite I stop by the WSW and, of course, she is there, she apparently stops by every night, anyone I walk in, I didn't close the door all the way, she says Nicole (my real name) close the door. I started to say something and she looked away. So I went to the bar and had a beer. Walked over and played the jikebox, right in front of her, she never said a word to me.
So I go sit at the bar and this guy comes over and talks to me, by the time I got up again she was gone.
I am moving so I had this clothes steamer that I put on Craig's List to sell but I didn't get responses, so I offered it to her, I thought it would be nice to have since she wears profressional attire every day. Anyway, she said she'd love to have it.
Today, I got an offer for the steamer so I called her and asked her if she still wanted it, she said yeah but if you can sell it...but I promised it to you, I want you to have it, if you still want it, she said Oh that is really sweet, yeau sure...then I mentioned great, I just didn"t know if we were even still talking since she totally ignored me. She said "Just the opposite, I invited you over but you ignored me!" Oh, sorry I didn't hear you.
Jeez, I didn't realize how much I liked her, I could hardly sleep last night thinking she dissed me.
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Last night she called me and said she asked me to come over to her table twice and I ignored her. She said she was a little pissed and that's why she left without saying good-bye.
She was so sweet to me on the phone last night, I am really doing everything in my power to keep myself from falling head over heels for her. She has been living alone for 25 years, she wasn't even dreamign of setlling down with anyone, now she seems to be considering, we at least discussed the possibilty. (marriage even!)
One of the other girls from WSW called me last nite and asked f I was coming in friday night. She is really sweet too but a total butch. I was never attracted to butch dykes then recently I started opening up my eyes to them especially soft butches.
Bottom line is my life has totaly changed since FFS, this has been one of the most excting weeks of my life... on the job too, my sales effectiveness has doubled. In fact, I am selling almost 100% of my viable prospects. Can't beat that!
